It's been a bit since I last made a journal, lot of stuff happened since then I guess. It's kinda just gonna be an update on what was said in the last journal, so I'm sorry about that. Just wanted to let people know I'm still around here and what not because I never really post here, sorry about that.

Things haven't really been getting much better for me since I made that last journal from 6 months ago, surprisingly. Back then, I mentioned that I got a job at Kroger, and at first, it was going okay, pretty straight forward work, weekly pay, and hours that didn't have me there all the time. But the longer I started working there, the more that the management started to rely on me, so I started getting more work and more hours, and adding the fact that we are severely understaffed, I just feel worn out. And since the pay is low too, it's really not great. At the time of this journal, I recently had to work 9 days in a row there.

I never went to get a refill for my depression and anxiety. I know I can just, talk to my doctor about it, but I'm just too nervous to talk to them about it, cause it's been so long. I've been close to doing some things I shouldn't do, thinking things I shouldn't think about. Everything is stressing me out and the days just keep flying by, and that's stressing me out even more. Things just feel like things are getting worse for me emotionally still.

And for the art stuff, iunno man. Art is just draining for me, I honestly mostly just have the energy to do small doodles for twitter, and I owe a whole lot of commissions and Patreon commissions as well. I said this last time as well, and it's just unacceptable.

I can't think straight, I'm having trouble thinking of what else I can say, everything just feels foggy

I'm really sorry everyone, it's just hard to keep this up. I'm just not well mentally and I don't know what's gonna happen next, and I'm just still trying do my best or something. Sorry I'm just not good enough