Two days ago I lost of one the best friends I ever had in the fandom to date. He not only helped me by starting up two websites dedicated to my character: Cassie-The Rock Vixen but he went out of his way to promote her on every furry website he was a part of. He also was a sounding board for my writing, giving me hints and suggestions on how his character Vixina should be portrayed. Speaking of which, Cloud once said that if anything should ever happen to him, I was to consider Vixina to be one of my characters and to keep writing about her. Not sure how I feel about that, but it was a wish of his so I should honor it. Every Christmas we used to give each other furry themed gifts and try to see who was the better giver. I gave him a lot of Red Wolf Beer stuff I found at flea markets and such. He usually gave me a fox item or two.Plus, we traded obscure metal albums a lot. God! I have known and talked with this guy since 1997 when I first met him on the old alt.fan.furry BBS board. Now, it's like there is a hole in my heart that won't close. I really thought I was going to be the one to pass away first and was even starting to make arrangements for Cloud to take all of my furry stuff after I passed. Now, I don't know what to do. I have started to talk to FA to see if I can get control of the cassietherockvixen page that was under Cloud's control so I can keep it updated,but I don't have much hope for that. *sigh* I feel so alone now.