This journal is 18+ only! It is also pretty tmi, I talk about sex stuff.

This isn't a "coming out" post but I guess a more curious one.

I've always considered myself bisexual at most. I've loved and have been with both men and women, and have never really questioned the details of it all. But one thing that's always been a thing is that I've never ... "been" with anyone. It's always been online, stripped down to naughty talk or pictures or the occasional webcam chat.

Webcam though...I've never really been too...interested. I've never been too sexually demanding, I've never /wanted/ to see anything. Curious yes, but I could take it or leave it. I know that I am at least a "kinky-ace", if I am ace at all. Kinky ace in that I do have kinks, and they do "work". So there is something at least.

Once it finally got to real world time, I noticed right away how difficult of a time it was to stay interested. How little "in the moment" I am. Kinky times are completely different, the seldom I've had them, I've enjoyed the experience quite well.

I've talked it out with a few close friends, all of which have told me how it's completely normal to only be attracted to certain things and not everything. I read a comic recently, a gay m/m one, and there of course some naughty action and it's the first time I've really ever looked at stuff like that, and I felt very uncomfortable. It was an odd feeling.

There's no ending in this journal lol, just me putting thoughts out there. I've seen people tell their story all day and this is as much of one as I have, it's still a work in progress.