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6 years ago
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Hi everyone, I thought I'd just share a bit on how my life's going, and why it's been hard for me to draw.
Most of my issues are with my lack of time management.
First off, I've never actually worked a full time job before. (In the past I was doing full- time school, part-time job) (or just school or just part-time job)
I gotta say, it really does take up a fuck-load of time. Jeezus. Idk how people have lives outside of work.
On a good note, I just got a dollah raise at my job after 3 months of working there. The work has gotten pretty easy at this point, and I get along with my co-workers so it's a pretty nice experience (apart from the customers.)
Tho i'm still not making anywhere near a living wage. It makes me feel like a failure to be unable to support myself at this stage in my life.
Secondly, I'm trying to keep a clean apt. but i'm not really used to cleaning. So dishes and vacuuming and things take a lot of energy. I also cook most meals for my partner and myself. Which takes up time.
I'm also trying to exercise more to help my back problems. It has been working a little, so woo!
Thirdly, When I do find the time to draw, I sit there for hours drawing and erasing the same head or body or arm or hand. So many drafts. So many things that don't look or feel right. After a few hours I get frustrated and just put it away. So while it looks like I've been inactive, I've just been in a corner, drawing and erasing things.
Fourth...ly, There's lots of times where I get home from work and I just want to relax and watch TV or play video games.
anyways, i dont know if i'm trying to excuse my behavior or something. in an ideal world, i would love to not work and just be able to draw and write and create stuff. But I have to make money. I have to pay my part of the rent and buy food.
I really want to keep going, keep drawing. I still have lots of stories to tell. I'm going to keep trying. I've been trying all this time.
Thanks for reading, I'll do my best to do more regular updates.
Most of my issues are with my lack of time management.
First off, I've never actually worked a full time job before. (In the past I was doing full- time school, part-time job) (or just school or just part-time job)
I gotta say, it really does take up a fuck-load of time. Jeezus. Idk how people have lives outside of work.
On a good note, I just got a dollah raise at my job after 3 months of working there. The work has gotten pretty easy at this point, and I get along with my co-workers so it's a pretty nice experience (apart from the customers.)
Tho i'm still not making anywhere near a living wage. It makes me feel like a failure to be unable to support myself at this stage in my life.
Secondly, I'm trying to keep a clean apt. but i'm not really used to cleaning. So dishes and vacuuming and things take a lot of energy. I also cook most meals for my partner and myself. Which takes up time.
I'm also trying to exercise more to help my back problems. It has been working a little, so woo!
Thirdly, When I do find the time to draw, I sit there for hours drawing and erasing the same head or body or arm or hand. So many drafts. So many things that don't look or feel right. After a few hours I get frustrated and just put it away. So while it looks like I've been inactive, I've just been in a corner, drawing and erasing things.
Fourth...ly, There's lots of times where I get home from work and I just want to relax and watch TV or play video games.
anyways, i dont know if i'm trying to excuse my behavior or something. in an ideal world, i would love to not work and just be able to draw and write and create stuff. But I have to make money. I have to pay my part of the rent and buy food.
I really want to keep going, keep drawing. I still have lots of stories to tell. I'm going to keep trying. I've been trying all this time.
Thanks for reading, I'll do my best to do more regular updates.
I wish I could be more helpful!