It’s my first journal here and probably no one will ever read it, so please let me release some pressure here...

It’s already past 1 am and I will leave my bed for work in 5 hours. I can’t sleep because I know I will spend another week in the hellish office.
I just change to this job for two months. I know this job is very consuming before I join it. However the pay for extra hours will make the ok-ish salary to not bad, and I will got steady pay raise every year. Sounds not that bad right? But things change soon after I start working. A finance crisis bust in this over 30 years old company and all bonus are cut to nearly zero. I have to work over 12-14 hours in heavy stress everyday without extra payment, and I probably won’t get any raise either. The situation will probably get worse in the future.

I’m almost 35. Left my former steady job for adventure and better payment. Turned down offers from other companies and chose this one. Now I’m caught in a delima and too old to change another job.

I loved to rp and was happy to play with nice people online. Now I’m too tired and depressed to continue. I owe replies and big sorry to other people for a month and just have no energy to do so. I’m such a awful awful useless garbage...