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Confession time (as if anybody was fooled)
6 years ago
So for any of you who didn't already put two and two together, I might as well just say this and put it all to rest because it's honestly exhausting.
Here it goes.
Yes. I am/was sexytickletorture/sexytt. Shocker.
Apparently my art is as recognizable as a fingerprint and everyone knew it was me from the moment I posted Upgrade Issues, which honestly disturbs me a good deal.
Why hide it?
Honestly? I don't know. I ask myself that and my inner voice just kinda shrugs.
Maybe because I didn't like the precident it set. I didn't want to be another one of those drama queen artists that go all "woe is me" and leave, only to reappear a month later. The difference here is that I don't want to be "back". I'm not sexytt. I left in the first place because I was addicted to this stuff and it was ruining my life. I just wanted an outlet to get it out of my system when it came. And it does come and go, just as it always has.
I just wanted to "start over" and be able to post whatever I wanted without being attached or beholden to anyone. So you can imagine my reaction when at the first sight of my work, people far and wide start welcoming sexytickletorture back and start chatting me up like I never left, friends and enemies I thought I left behind just showing up once more. That reaction being frustration and surprise. I thought I could just be anonymous, and I was wrong.
I just want to be clear: I am not blaming anyone for this, and I'm not upset with anyone. I'm not trying to accuse anybody of afflicting me with some hardship or something.
I realize now that I can't control people, and I can't blame anybody for being happy to see one of their -- if I may -- favorite artists come back. I also can't and wouldn't ask you to pretend I'm not that same person.
I'm not really sure what I'm trying to say. I guess I just get frustrated when the first things people say are about sexytt, and seeming to think I'm back 100% and for good, when all I want to do is have fun and post art. Maybe sexytt just represents a difficult, addicted time in my life and I don't like being reminded of it.
Either way, it's my problem to deal with and I need to learn to accept that that was me, and that to everyone else, this all represents fun art coming back for them to enjoy. I do appreciate that. I want you to know that I do appreciate that you're all so happy to see my work again, I don't want to minimize that at all.
So yeah. Sorry for that wall of text. I just needed to clear the air. Thanks for reading.
Here it goes.
Yes. I am/was sexytickletorture/sexytt. Shocker.
Apparently my art is as recognizable as a fingerprint and everyone knew it was me from the moment I posted Upgrade Issues, which honestly disturbs me a good deal.
Why hide it?
Honestly? I don't know. I ask myself that and my inner voice just kinda shrugs.
Maybe because I didn't like the precident it set. I didn't want to be another one of those drama queen artists that go all "woe is me" and leave, only to reappear a month later. The difference here is that I don't want to be "back". I'm not sexytt. I left in the first place because I was addicted to this stuff and it was ruining my life. I just wanted an outlet to get it out of my system when it came. And it does come and go, just as it always has.
I just wanted to "start over" and be able to post whatever I wanted without being attached or beholden to anyone. So you can imagine my reaction when at the first sight of my work, people far and wide start welcoming sexytickletorture back and start chatting me up like I never left, friends and enemies I thought I left behind just showing up once more. That reaction being frustration and surprise. I thought I could just be anonymous, and I was wrong.
I just want to be clear: I am not blaming anyone for this, and I'm not upset with anyone. I'm not trying to accuse anybody of afflicting me with some hardship or something.
I realize now that I can't control people, and I can't blame anybody for being happy to see one of their -- if I may -- favorite artists come back. I also can't and wouldn't ask you to pretend I'm not that same person.
I'm not really sure what I'm trying to say. I guess I just get frustrated when the first things people say are about sexytt, and seeming to think I'm back 100% and for good, when all I want to do is have fun and post art. Maybe sexytt just represents a difficult, addicted time in my life and I don't like being reminded of it.
Either way, it's my problem to deal with and I need to learn to accept that that was me, and that to everyone else, this all represents fun art coming back for them to enjoy. I do appreciate that. I want you to know that I do appreciate that you're all so happy to see my work again, I don't want to minimize that at all.
So yeah. Sorry for that wall of text. I just needed to clear the air. Thanks for reading.
Personally I thought the style was familiar but couldn't pinpoint exactly where I'd seen it, which is why I was curious and had to ask. I will admit, I figured you were trying to keep it under wraps and I didn't want to push it.
I'm fine with people starting up an account fresh in an attempt to start over, and I'm glad to see you return and hope for the best in your endeavours!
Well. I do like your work and your art stile!