It's been a while.. a really long while. I made the radical decision a few months ago to move 1000 miles away to a new country - a new world, really. Life at home was extremely destructive to me with my parents fighting me all the time, my depression, and my life not going where I wanted it to. so I moved. I ran away, really. I've been spending a while getting used to things here.. and I feel a lot happier that I can be more myself with my partner. but I also have nothing to do with my days unless I'm with my partner.. for a while I felt no motivation to draw, at all. I didn't really want to or felt like I had the time to.. whatever excuse my brain could come up with. I haven't drawn, at all, in months, not even quick doodles. Especially with my back pain making things harder for me. currently doing my best to treat it at home, but my sedentiary lifestyle isn't good for my back at all. had a lot of pain last night along with food poisoning. luckily today, a lot less pain after treating it. I'm sedentiary just because.. well.. going outside is so anxiety inducing even with my partner. Everything is in a language that I hardly speak (I can stumble my way through some reading, can't understand it when spoken, can write it a bit and can clumsily pronounce things with a terrible accent) and I live in a big city now, it's nothing like where I used to live. when I first got here I broke down from culture shock. luckily I have managed to calm myself a bit and have let things cool off.. my biggest problem at this point is my living situation. I plan on picking up my tablet more often from now on. especially the following weeks, since they'll be really busy for my partner. enough rambling and boring stuffs. feels good to draw again after all this time.. It's just been so hard. my living situation before was really bad. me and my mother were at each other's throats, and my step father and I hardly communicated which made me insecure. College starting is what really sent me off the deep end, I wasn't happy with A. my choice (not really my choice) of college, B. the rush I felt to go to college, C. the uncertainty I faced with my future and D. the people around me... snubbed me off and avoided me like I was trash. Even though I tried to appear normal and acted friendly towards everyone in my classes.. People would avoid sitting next to me. Or looking at me. Or.. doing anything with me. I was only approached by guys.. who obviously wanted something I'm very not interested in. So I was lonely, fighting everyday with my mother, unhappy with my life's direction, and just depressed out of my mind. I'm finally turning things around for myself and I can be happy and free. Me and my partner don't have the best finances but we're working on it and my father is helping me financially... hopefully things can only go up from here. At least I hope so. And many drawings to come now that I've pulled myself out of my very very long slump.