Hello everyone, it's been a while, I never intended to leave this place, however life got in the way, it's time to shine some light in the events not only leading to that but also what prevented me to coming back before, the purpose of this is not to be a sobstory or cause sympathy or make excuses, I just want to let you know the whole story so you can understand what happened, just bear in mind, it'll be a long read, so if short on time , skip to the end for the good 'ol tl;dr.

Furaffinity wasn't the first time I used the nickname BlazingIfrit, it was however, first used on hentai foundry, back in 2013, even tho I wasn't there very long, I was becoming very popular and thriving, my prices were fair for my quality and my work received, howver that didn't last long, since after a few months in, my 2 cats at the time, had a very bad fight, they weren't letting go of each other, so I tried to break them apart, in my attemps, one of them bit my hand very hard, it was so bad that it damaged the tendon on my right hand(I'm right handed), also part of the nerve was slightly damaged, which caused that for a few months I wasn't able to draw at all since I wasn't able to move my thumb/grip the pen. I didn't think at first it was that bad, but trying to work just caused me a lot of pain, so I had to take a forced hiatus, while still being able to post comissions I had thone, I realzied I wasn't able to draw much some works I still tried to do them, but it was very painful, so what used to take me a few days/up to 2 weeks, became couple months of slow painful work but in the end I couldn't work anymore so after a couple months of not working, money quickly disapeared and I was in a very bad spot since I could no longer afford food.

I started drawing again but I wasn't able to do clean linework since my hand was a bit shaky, my main source of income were highly polished paintings , but couldn't do them anymore, out of desperation I reached to a friend so I could get some suggestions, and she suggested me to try furaffinity, which I did, obviously coming from HF, I had no furry works to show, so my gallery was quickly dismised (you can still go all the way back to my gallery and find those hentai works tho lol). So I tried doing some sketchy samples, since it was pretty much all I could handle at the time.

One day, after a lot of time without look findig work, I got a commission from the furaffinity forums, this one https://www.furaffinity.net/view/14542241/ for  bacent , while my rates were fair (http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-3W3kczCo6.....et+smal00l.jpg ) , at the time my confidence was on the ground since I was no longer able to do the quality of work I was doing before, and I could no longer even afford food, so I accepted that commission for the price of 50USD, which became my only rate I charged while on furaffinity, I wasn't familiar with the fandom orgeneral rates of artist, nor was I had the guts to up my prices risking not having work, since at the time I had several months overdue on rent and electricity (I live in Mexico, my landlord has been very understanding, not to mention that when I moved to this apartment I couldn't even have internet due to a debt left by previous tenant which greatlyu affected my ability to get work for the first 2 months living here, but also the way the electricity company works here, I supose since we live in a 3rd world country, they know we can't really afford to pay the bills a lot of the time, so not only they take a long time to cut the service, but even when you get it suspended, you can get an electrician to restore it for you, even the own guys from the company that cut the service advice you to do so lol), so I was buried in debt, and couldn't honestly risk raising my prices, cuz it was my only source of income, so I stuck with it.

Having cheap prices and high quality make me become very popular quickly here on furaffinity, altho quite a sizeable amount of clients told me I was offering way more than any other artist at that price range, I didn't had the confidence to adjust prices for the aforementioned reasons, and that really became the beginning of the hole that up to this day I haven't been able to get out of.

Near the end of 2014, my PC was having a lot of issues, I live in a cheap apartment complex, and electric infrastructure sucks here, so whenever there's even a small rain, power outages occur, at the time, those weren't frequent, since I live in Culiacan, having a very hot weather year round, and barely any rain, if at all. However when it happened, it was very sudden, sometimes even caused by wind , all those power outages took a toll in my pc, damaging the hardware, so I had many instances of the PC shutting down by itself, so I took a bunch of commissions to get a new pc since I knew I needed to replace it soon, at the time Iw as doing a lot of work (some of you that have known me since those days, may remember that I used to do up to 2 pics a day) , I was pretty fast by that time, so I felt confident in accepting a bunch of work since I was gonna finish it real soon.. then one day my PC no longer booted up, took it to the tech, but the whole thing was dead (motherboard, processor and video card) except for the hard drive (thankfully), thanks to a bunch of commissions I got from here, and one I took from hentai foundry, I was able to order a new pc, which was suposed to arrive in 5 days, however due to being close to xmas, plus some issues with the seller, my pc took 3 weeks to get to me, so from doing 1-2 pieces a day, I couldn't work at all for all that time, and I spent all of the money I raised on the new pc, that's when I started having a backlog. Once I got the new PC, I also had several issues moving my old stuff back to the new pc, I was running windows 7 before, and the new one came with windows 8, after a lot of tech support from the company and they suggested me to update to windows 8.1, I was able to work again, but by the time I was in a forced hiatus of a month, and sure enough, I was working fast again, but was completely broke, and again not able to afford food/rent or internet, so I have to accept even more commissions to manage to survive.

I managed to do a lot of work in january, but march came..and I had a very very bad back injury while working out (I work out at home), I suddenly felt a pop in my back, and was very sore, but still able to move, tried some mobility exercise but the pain only grew stronger, I messaged my best friend (who was also my roomate, but at the time was visiting a friend), and she came home to find me laying ont he ground, I wasn't able to stand up or move very much, due to all that previously happened, I didn't have money, so I coulnd't afford going to the hospital, I stayed there in the floor for 3 days straight, my friend took care of me and after the third day I was able to go see a doctor with herhelp, got a shot and the muscles relaxed, and was able to move a bit again, to this day that injury prevails.

However that was not enough for that year, as since you may already know given my previous journal, that's the year when I started having allergies, first, the dogs of my partner gave me a weird rash on my way home, didn't think much of it, sinceit looked like a bug bite or something, until past an hour, it extended, covering several parts of my torso, got some meds, and went on my merry way home.

Over the next several weeks, it went worse and worse, what started as small dots, over a month became anaphylaxis each time I was near the dogs... and then all sort of things caused the allergies, from stirfoam cups, to ants, to flowers and tissue paper. That year I spent almost every week or even twice a week at the hospital, sometimes having the ambulance come from me, and got a ridiculous amount of steroid shots over a small time, which in turn caused a whole lot of side effects, from really strong headaches lasting up to a whole week, to a rapid weight gain (50 pounds) within about 2 months.

I wasn't able to work much with all those health issues, which also meant I couldn't afford to get treatment or even tested for the allergies, so I was relying a lot on the red cross for treatment. My best friend was also my roomate, so she took care of me during that time, and also help me a lot getting some jobs (she's also an artist) to pay for food. However, come july of that year, Her brother was killed in a car robbery. That of course caused a very bad depression, but also on her mom, who became obsesed trying to find out who did that to her son(this will be relevant later on).

Allergy related issues continued during the next several months, but I was able to work, albeit at a slower pace, my health was quickly declining due to the gained weight, and was unable to lose it despite exercise/dietary changes. After several attempts to lose weight, I tried the very popular back then, Keto diet, which helped me lose a few pounds, things seemed to be improving since I Was also slowly clearing the backlog. Losing the weight and exercising again, helped me a lot, I was able to work slightly faster, and things were looking up, I remember this time very clearly, since the new pokemon game was coming out at the end of the year, I also started getting some commission from the forums at my old rates, and was slowly gaining back my confidence of finally updating my prices, then, on October, while my best friend was visiting our friend, she got horrible news, her mom was just been killed too. She was destroyed, my best friend became my roomate years ago, cuz her whole life what she wanted was to prove her family (mom and brother) that she could make it as an artist, and I decided to help, she improved a ton over the first few years she lived with me and I tutored her, but she always struggled with severe depression. So after that, she was in a very very dark place. That's when everything got really bad, since we had to go to the morgue to identify the body, not to mention do a lot of paperwork so we could retrieve it, we had no clue what to do since it was so sudden, to make matters worse, the rest of her family has been always money driven, so all they did was say 'look at the bright side, now you can sell the cars and house so you can buy one for yourself!' We had to do a lot of paper work and go around town doing stuff to get the funeral sorted out.
During the next couple months we still had to do lots of paper work since we had to retrieve her mom's car that was seized by the police, since a lot of important documents were on the vehicle, not to mention that around december, her mom's house was robbed, causing a lot of pain to my friend, since she couldn't even bring herself to go into the house, she didn't wanted to disturb it, as it was like a time capsule , being completely still since last time her mom was there, the thieves trashed the place, leaving my friend heartbroken. We make sure to reinforce the windows and doors, while again having her family doing stupid remarks to her about being a fool for not selling the stuff, and blaming her for what just happened (the house robbery).

For all those months, I didn't work at all since I was all the time with her dealing with all the issues, that's the reason I stopped posting on the site, and from that point I've been meaning to come back, but things just kept going south, also I didn't wanna disclose what happened with my friend those months but I got her permission, since it seemed like I just ran away with the money of my commissioners, which wasn't the case.

During the next several weeks, after things calmed down a little, I started working again, also my health was not as good, since the keto diet also made me feel pretty bad, getting bunch of headaches, and weight loss stoped.
Since I was pretty desperate about it, and the weight gain had even caused me troubless when it comes to sleep, I decided to try one last thing, which was going plant based, and it actually worked, since doing that I never had allergies again, so I was able to get my health back on track, working again , clearing the backlog while taking new commissions from notes I still had on my gallery+getting a few from the forums, however at this point my friend was under severe depression and suicidal, she read that having a puppy and raising it would help her, so she got a bull terrier, and it really helped her, she seemed happy for the first time in months (this was around january), however after the dog was around 3 months old, it started causing issues since she also had another dog, a small chihuahua, and I have several cats, the 2 dogs were competing , both are females, so sometimes they had fights, and I also wasn't able tosleep because of it, which caused me to not been able to work much, since I was no longer able to work and so get enough money to suport both of us, she had to go live with our friend for a while. After getting back my sleep schedule, I started pumping work again, and by the end of the end of the year, things were looking up, after all that time IW as eager to go back here, and finally was able to pay all my debts, and waslooking for a new place big enough to fit my friend's new dog without an issue, but I had no luck finding such place, this was around the last couple weeks of december.

Around mid January(2018), my best fried had apendicitis, so I spent all the money I had in the hospital stay and meds, but couldn't afford the surgery, however a friend ofher let her borrow money so we could finally pay for the surgery, however I was out of funds again, and I was unable to work during my stay at the hospital with her.

In april, we had very uncharacteristic weather, having lots of strong rain for a few days causing lots of power outages, and the first few days of may, one of those outaged damaged my pc, while I took it to the tech, they tested the hardware but they were unable to boot my pc cuz they didn't have a suitable power supply, nor could I afford one at the moment, a friend of mine let me borrow some money to purchase one, and once they booted it, the tech let me know not only the power supply was dead, but also my video card, and at the time they were super expensive due to miners. I was again unable to work, my best friend let me borrow her mom's pc, however it wasn't very powerful, so even tho I tried opening up my files there, it wouldn't load them, and have constant crashes, so I wasn't able to work at all, another friend let me borrow a spare video card so I could work on my computer, andwhile it wasn't enough to properly handle my big paintings, I was able to do flat colored pictures, I got a lot of work thanks to  bacent recommendations on discord, finally raising enough money to purchase the new card and getting back to work again. By the end of the year I was finally able to do big paintings like I used to back in my hentai foundry days, only picking up works on the forums, while still trying to complete the backlog, but due to all that had happened all this time, the list was very slow moving, and I had already accumulated a big debt again cuz I could only afford food and pay a little bit of rent.

Then it comes finally 2019, and again this year brough heavy rain weather, even worse than the previous year however now I have a UPS, so while I'm kinda safe with the power outages, if instead the electricity has a low power (?), like when light flickers, then the pc shuts down, and that happened to me alot this year,losing a lot of progress on a specific painting that I had to restart close to 15 times due to file getting corrupted due to all the electrical issues and pc shutting down due to faulty ups (it's a mexican brand, the only one I could afford to buy when I bought the video card, they didn't make the warranty valid :/), so to be safe I had to turn off my pc whenever we had theslightlest rain, which it lasted all the way from april till last october, and here I am now, when things were getting a bit better, my landlady is no longer willing to wait since I'm several months behind in rent, so she's not renewing my contract, and I need to look for a new place to live within the next couple weeks before the end of the year.

That even tho took me for surprise, means I will also leave this place that caused so much issues for me, and during the past couple months I've gained enough confidence due to some commissioners praising my work, since as you all that have ever commission me, know that I have always strive to produce high quality content, and now I 'm willing to go back to my old rates and charge what's fair for what I offer.

I know I have let many of you down by making you wait so long for your art, but I wanted to explain exactly what's been going on, and I will try my best to make you whole, each and everyone of you who I still owe art to, will receive work that is worth more than you originally paid for, and I hope I can regain your trust. It was never my intention to just disappear, but all this really was out of my control, specially when it comes to health reasons.

While my current situation is far from good, I've accumulated a lot of experience, and my health is pretty good right now, I still follow the same diet since 2017, and haven't had any more allergy issues, also got my weight in control again.

I'm able to work properly now since the weather is stable , and also work much faster and higher quality than ever, so even financially right now I'm in a pretty bad place, I'm confident things will be better moving forward.

I will be contacting all of you who are still waiting for your commissions, I hope you can forgive me, and I really will make it up to you with the best art I can produce for you. It will take a while to cover all the backlog+still earning money to make a living, however moving forward I will adjust my rates so I don't get back in to the hole never again, so all I ask of you is to have a little bit patient, I know this all looks bad, but I also know if you commissioned me in the first place was cuz my art catched your attention, and many of you are also repeating costumers, now you finally know the reason behind what has been going on for the last several years.

I hope too, that you can understand the step change of prices, but I hope you also see that reflected in the work I have, and will continue to produce.

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TL:DR: I used to be a thriving artist back in 2013, charging up to 300 USD per character, getting lots of work, after a hand injury I could no longer work , got into a lot of debts, and had to lower my prices all the way back to 50USD since I could not even afford food. I've had many health issues during the following years+ the double edge sword of charging so little for a high quality work. Life got in the way time and time again, price again being what kept me in the same never ending cycle unable to improve my life even a little. Moving forward prices will be adjusted and all clients who's been waiting for their art will be make whole.

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Below I will list all of the commissioners I owe art to, if I miss anyone, please drop me a note, it's gonna take a while to go thru all of it tho, and will also take me a while to finally complete all the missing work, but I plan on doing at least one a week starting january, for this month I need to raise some money so I can move and there's just a couple weeks left. All will be done in a very high quality.

Pieter Flerackers-hentai foundry: 2 girls sucking cock -20%
Flack the Jack-furaffinity : horse femboy-40%
York Indayla-furaffinity: cyborg horse-50%
Zz-furaffinity: shark female ref sheet-80%
Jens Tunnat-furaffinity: Muscle Dog curling.-15%
Moz-furaffinity: Cold war scene -15%
Onistina-furaffinity: Character piece
Shyloc-furaffinity: couple -15%
Ailith Winter-furaffinity: wallpaper scene -20%
Nifsara-hentai foundry: subject changed, waiting for details.
Alexander-discord: Alex Lion -20%
Summer-discord: flat color piece, will be upgraded-20%
 Drakesblood 2 character piece
 VORTIGANSHINE fun in the armory