I have been participating in an event with my club for 3 weekends of December before Christmas before I will have to wait for the next opportunity of an event

im figuring out some stuff I want to post and If only an Ipad wasn't as expensive then I could make furry sketches faster because drawing furry characters traditionaly on real paper is not going to happen as fast as the pixel pictures I made from existing bases on deviantart that cant be posted over there

im going to work on stories except I arranged for role play and its not working out very well because of some of these users not making as much as an effort to level with me yet im trying my best to make it work and feel real

if anyone is wondering....I will only be gay or bi-sexual with "furry" category or with femboys decribed sensually...not in real life because of the how I feel from within..in other words I cant stop thinking about sexy cute women and lesbian porn and the process of making babies because of how cute pregnancy looks with women

also I really like male pregnancy and I sometimes wish I could be pregnant after having sex with someone wonderful...as an athletic bodied young man.....but I would prefer pregnancy without many things because I lived half of my life not feeling how I want to feel as in having better health...so that why I started to create a personal realm with my creativity and I will tell about just enough to be inspiring

yes I will admit that I will say out loud to myself that im pregnant.....I have my likes and dislikes and has made me not come to terms with more than half of the human race and how they live their lives

yet my knew club member friend is gay and I wish more people should be like him because he is inspiring and fascinating and a fun guy to be around and easy to talk to and be with

also I find it completely messed up for religions to condem sexuality and physical affection and sex because the Lord has built his people to practice these feelings and activities and enjoy the feeling and sensation of love and arousal between beings and even some things...religious people back then even thought it was important for the priest and or a newly wedded couple to see the first marriage sexing or to see the groom put his penis in his new bride's vagina and leave them to have sex in a bedroom or perform it for everyone on a bed brought out to them....because porn wasn't invented yet

sex is wonderful because its not death, destruction, violence from anger, abuse, depression, aggravations, fighting to cause pain or to kill, and or boring stuff

just have to balance life and its awesome and wont bring you down so easily

I am 26 years old and I have decided to abandon dating because of the facts that everywhere I look I don't find what I want and get what I want out of women...I will never become gay because I cant be attracted to multiple specific things about men at all and I cant change that...I say this how I feel on the inside respectfuly and my personal tastes...the kind of woman I wanted is to be one of a kind like me and enjoy a lot of things about me as I would about her and be beautiful enough with more than just looks...I want a paradise....I cant only think about sex because of what makes me who I am......I have abandoned dating because women from the appropriate age and even 45 have made it imposible for me to tolerate numerous things that don't make the relationship better but rather distasteful and unsatisfying...I can only adjust to a certain point...I refuse to watch the notebook, sex and the city or drama or social crap...its not fascinating nor is it interesting nor is it fun....I respect others likes and dislikes...but I can only go so far with what I am experiencing....i am an honest man and will always be a good soul....my lady will be celebrated and embraced as long as i get the same effort back...i refuse to live my life like others and i refuse to adjust my life majorly to get what i want...there is no "this for that" anymore....i cant code break a woman who can only think about herself more than anything else...i cant convince her to have sex with me because she doesn't want to....i cant deal with this trial and error and trouble shooting process to get to know these women...if they wont make it work, then why should i waste my god damn time and money on them.....im done with it all, i happen to enjoy masturbating and not be told its bad when it never was bad in the first place....televangelists don't help people, they rip off people because they don't want to work