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New Year's Eve (2019)
6 years ago
End Of A Beginning
Hey y’all! I said I would write more journals on FA so here I am LIKE IT OR NOT BABY!
New Years Eve seems to be as good a time as any to reflect on the past and thanks to my living in Australia (I’m currently okay, no fires near me <3) my NYE comes a little early. They say this is the end of a decade, and the start of another, so I figured I’d do some EXTRA reflecting.
This was my first decade in the furry fandom. My first decade doing art. Honestly I started barely a little more than 10 years ago at this point. Back then I thought in ten years I’d be some kind of master but I’ve seen come to accept that progress in art takes a while, and it’s as much about the journey as it is the destination.
Since this decade is probably one of the most eventful of the three I’ve lived, I guess we should start at the beginning. At the start of the decade I dropped out of university, I just didn’t have it in me. I think I was in a phase in my life where I wasn’t really ready to study at university. Especially not the university I ended up at, where everyone looked down their nose at you lol.
After that, I spent some time being depressed. My parents split up. I tried art classes for a bit. My depression got worse and I tried to kill myself. Thankfully, I failed! It was while looking for answers in an attempt to avoid another suicide attempt that I discovered I might be transgender. Upon revealing my discovery to my father I was kicked out of my home and ended up flying across the country. I lived with MickyLeviathan for a while (and I was a terrible roomie I’m so sorry Micky between the dishes I didn’t clean and the room I didn’t clean I was definitely too young and stupid -u-). Honestly living there helped me grow up a little. I began to develop the empathy and interpersonal skills that are required for living with others. They were good people and I hope they still think of me as a friend <3
My mother ended up in renal failure and needed someone to come live with her to reduce rent and help with lifting things, moving around, and all that. So I eventually went and moved back down with her. She was a lot more understanding than my father when I came out to her, and has continued to be a strong positive influence in my life. Eventually she got a kidney transplant and though I continue to pride myself on being useful around the house, eventually we just decided it was easier for everyone involved if we continued to live with each other. Plus my step dad is cool most of the time so that’s nice u3u
During all of this I met the love of my life
Jadethezoroark who I’ve been dating for like SO LONG I don’t even remember how long! She’s basically the best and I’m so happy we’re together I do not deserve her lol. We’re planning on getting her to Australia soon, hopefully after the bushfires have come and gone. And of course, I kept drawing, and kept interacting with the community. Though I commented less on FA, as I noticed much of the community congregate around twitter, it’s been an amazing thing to continue to be active here. Though you all I’ve learned so much about myself. And not just new fetishes (of which there are plenty), but also things about myself. I’ve learned that I’m asexual for example, grey ace. It was through people I met on FA that I first heard about folk being transgender. It was through these people that I was able to discover myself. It feels so long ago but it was certainly within this decade.
Lately things have been pretty calm. Life has its ups and downs but I’m lucky to have folk to go through them with. People whose back I have, and who have mine. Family isn’t who you’re related to, it’s the people you love!
I keep drawing, and writing, and I’ll keep doing it until... well I don’t know if I’ll ever stop! There’s a few great projects in the works. Firefox ‘s Borrowed Time will be coming soon so look forward to that, it’s pretty amazing and I’ve had fun illustrating it. And I’m also working on some other projects as well which’ll be fun to talk about once they’ve developed a bit more.
All in all, this decade was rad and I wouldn’t trade it for anything.
What about you? How was your decade? How was your year? How you doin’? <3
Hey y’all! I said I would write more journals on FA so here I am LIKE IT OR NOT BABY!
New Years Eve seems to be as good a time as any to reflect on the past and thanks to my living in Australia (I’m currently okay, no fires near me <3) my NYE comes a little early. They say this is the end of a decade, and the start of another, so I figured I’d do some EXTRA reflecting.
This was my first decade in the furry fandom. My first decade doing art. Honestly I started barely a little more than 10 years ago at this point. Back then I thought in ten years I’d be some kind of master but I’ve seen come to accept that progress in art takes a while, and it’s as much about the journey as it is the destination.
Since this decade is probably one of the most eventful of the three I’ve lived, I guess we should start at the beginning. At the start of the decade I dropped out of university, I just didn’t have it in me. I think I was in a phase in my life where I wasn’t really ready to study at university. Especially not the university I ended up at, where everyone looked down their nose at you lol.
After that, I spent some time being depressed. My parents split up. I tried art classes for a bit. My depression got worse and I tried to kill myself. Thankfully, I failed! It was while looking for answers in an attempt to avoid another suicide attempt that I discovered I might be transgender. Upon revealing my discovery to my father I was kicked out of my home and ended up flying across the country. I lived with MickyLeviathan for a while (and I was a terrible roomie I’m so sorry Micky between the dishes I didn’t clean and the room I didn’t clean I was definitely too young and stupid -u-). Honestly living there helped me grow up a little. I began to develop the empathy and interpersonal skills that are required for living with others. They were good people and I hope they still think of me as a friend <3
My mother ended up in renal failure and needed someone to come live with her to reduce rent and help with lifting things, moving around, and all that. So I eventually went and moved back down with her. She was a lot more understanding than my father when I came out to her, and has continued to be a strong positive influence in my life. Eventually she got a kidney transplant and though I continue to pride myself on being useful around the house, eventually we just decided it was easier for everyone involved if we continued to live with each other. Plus my step dad is cool most of the time so that’s nice u3u
During all of this I met the love of my life
Jadethezoroark who I’ve been dating for like SO LONG I don’t even remember how long! She’s basically the best and I’m so happy we’re together I do not deserve her lol. We’re planning on getting her to Australia soon, hopefully after the bushfires have come and gone. And of course, I kept drawing, and kept interacting with the community. Though I commented less on FA, as I noticed much of the community congregate around twitter, it’s been an amazing thing to continue to be active here. Though you all I’ve learned so much about myself. And not just new fetishes (of which there are plenty), but also things about myself. I’ve learned that I’m asexual for example, grey ace. It was through people I met on FA that I first heard about folk being transgender. It was through these people that I was able to discover myself. It feels so long ago but it was certainly within this decade.Lately things have been pretty calm. Life has its ups and downs but I’m lucky to have folk to go through them with. People whose back I have, and who have mine. Family isn’t who you’re related to, it’s the people you love!
I keep drawing, and writing, and I’ll keep doing it until... well I don’t know if I’ll ever stop! There’s a few great projects in the works. Firefox ‘s Borrowed Time will be coming soon so look forward to that, it’s pretty amazing and I’ve had fun illustrating it. And I’m also working on some other projects as well which’ll be fun to talk about once they’ve developed a bit more.
All in all, this decade was rad and I wouldn’t trade it for anything.
What about you? How was your decade? How was your year? How you doin’? <3
MY COMMISSIONS TAKEN:
1:
hippocake -done-
2:
corpulencywrites -done-
3:
shockblock99 -done-
4:
SpaceHeater -done-
5:
Nerivalara -done-
(reserve)
1:
forgeworks
2: https://www.furaffinity.net/user/highcaloriesand/
3:
confu5ed
4: Second_Goliath
1:
hippocake -done-2:
corpulencywrites -done-3:
shockblock99 -done-4:
SpaceHeater -done-5:
Nerivalara -done-(reserve)
1:
forgeworks2: https://www.furaffinity.net/user/highcaloriesand/
3:
confu5ed 4: Second_Goliath
I'm also happy you've found yourself. That itself is not easy.
Here's to a good new year
I like being here too, and having found myself makes things so much better. Happy New Year <3
Thank YOU. It's been really wonderful having you in my life as well. Let's have a good new year together <3