Hello guys. As you have noticed, I wasn't active for a period of time here. I wanted to prepare a big art update for the beginning of January, I was planning to do a lot of things, art stuff included, but I was again shown than planning things, especially in the long run, is worth nothing in my case.

Due to a lot of reasons, I ended up spiralling back into my anxiety disorder. After a painful (yet unavoidable, as I am now seeing and analyzing it) breakup and a dangerous financial situation I would not describe publicly, I ended up with virtually no place to live (the lease agreement for the flat we live in now has been terminated, so we will have to leave soon, and if I were to sign it again my salary won't allow me to pay the full rent, and if I manage that somehow, I will not have the money for food, let alone other expenses) and surrounded by unfavourable people I no longer trust. For those reasons, I need to leave as soon as possible in order to feel safe and calm again.

I have started looking for a new place to live and move out immediately, but it is hard to find a place within my price range where I could take a three year's worth hoard of personal belongings I have been collecting in a big two room flat and have a space to move and create art.

I am struggling right now and decided to use crisis counselling available in my city. I had to terminate my driving lessons due to my mental state.

As soon as I have found a new place to live and moved in, I will start planning again. Eurofurence and Pyrkon is still in the schedule, and I do hope I will be able to get everything ready when it comes to the stuff I am planning to sell.

I am deeply hurt by everything that took place within the last week. I have never been put in such a situation before, and especially by someone I was so close with we actually planned our engagement and later a wedding.

My drawing deadlines and capabilities may be subject to change. I will try and draw as much as I can, I might try and earn some extra money with commissions, but that is a plan for some later period of time. Right now I need security and peace.