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Tired of life
6 years ago
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What would you think if I left deviantART? I am so tired of my life, don't want to be lonely anymore. -_-;
I just want to find someone to talk with in real life. Is that to much to ask for?
I lost my motivation to draw ever since I lost so many pageviews. I used to be able to draw everyday, or even do many pictures in one day...
Now I just draw one or maybe two if I am lucky in one week. Which I still don't understand how the f**k did that even happen... I used to have up to 500/1000 everyday on my deviantART...
I did not do anything ether... -_-;
Everywhere I go, no one and I mean no one seems to understand me!!!
I am a very easy going when I get into it, but it is like people are afraid of me or something. I have always been friendly and laid back kinda friend...
Maybe people don't care about me anymore? -_-;
For example:
My dad said resently two times when I visited him, that he don't care about me anymore...
That just broke my heart, beacuse he was always the fun and caring one... :(
And my mom seems to have forget me completely, when she was there for me all the time... :(
I am so overflowed by negative emotions, it's driving me crazy. I am very desperate to find happiness again as I used to be. I want to find my spark again... T.T
When I try to show everyone in my family my ''ART'' it makes me happy to show other people my work it brings a smile to my face. My art means alot to me, but they just ignore me like it doesn't mean anything...
The only one that is sort of interested is my mom. I have a big family too, and no one does seems to care what I think or do...
I feel like I am a zombie far in the background or something... -_-;
Sure depression have always been a theme in Sweden. We are known to eat most candy in the world. But nowadays it feels like it has gone way over the roof...
I just wish I could meet some of you people here and that are interested in art in real life as well. so It could make my life a little bit easier... *sigh*
Oh well, can only hope for the best I guess... -_-;
I feel like Maud Pie: ''It is not hard to find someone to like, it is hard to find someone that get's me''
Thank you for reading, have a good day or good night! <3
ย So don't be sour! (do not be sad / (ru)) Otherwise I will come and sprinkle sugar on you.
I think I was mistaken or a translator.
Thank you, I appreciate your kind comment! ^^
Give me that sugar. :3
You're strong, and fighting a good fight, keep getting back up, you've got a lot of people rooting and cheering for you โค๏ธ
I understand how you feel. We have entered a weird point in humanity where the basics of life are ignored. You have to grasp this. Ignore the negative and seek what is positive for your life.
Life is work and struggle, unless you are insanely rich, so embrace that struggle. Remember we are illustrators who tell stories. What is the story you want to tell?
Weird parents are creating weird children, so learn to let them go if they do not embrace the fundamentals of life. Respect them but don't ask from them more than what they have.
You are the master of your own life.
Yup true that, we are special. What I really want is to find someone to talk art with. Someone to just chill with someone that like to smile and bring happiness.
Well maybe that is to much to ask for atleast I try... ^^;
True...
Yeah, thank you I appreciate your kind comment! ^^ :3
The worst thing is having too much free time to over think the negative side.
Its free,unlike a Psychiatrist,they are ready to listen and maybe time away from your Art will reboot your passion. I have faith you will get past this. ๐๐ปโ๐ป๐
I am not good to take mater in my own hand either my mom have curling me my whole life... ^^;
I have done that before, it did not help that much, but maybe I need to go again...
Thank you so much for your comment, it means alot! <3
Remember
1.We suffer.2.We discover why we suffer.3.We seek treatment and prescription from healers.4.We end our suffering and live n learn for the next time. ๐
I had surgery 2009 when my lounges collapsed back and forth 5 times. Just when they fixed the bad lounge that had collapsed my other good lounge collapsed right after...
I really only had 5 mins to live. I feel like Death was playing chess with me. Like should He live or should he not... Hmm...
But then I guess he up there gave me a second shance. But nothing comes for free. Ever since that day, I have had bad luck wherever I go... :(
Thank you so much for your comment, it means alot! <3
Yes humans are different. :)
Sounds nice. :)
You know, I can relate a lot with you a lot in these feelings! My family always have done the same in my case, I mean, of not caring of the art I do when I've tried to share it with them.
Also it have happened to me the same that happens to you on deviantArt, my watchers and visits have been dropped drastically. But from what I have heard, I think it's probably because people are leaving dA because they don't like eclipse, and I've heard from a few of my friends on dA that this same thing is happening to them as well. So I don't think it's because of something you have done.
I also have very few people in my life who are genuinely interested in art, but there is no people in my city that does, so that's why I came here ^^ And share my art online.
With time and the years I've been realized, we artist are special, you know.
And we are few and we are spread all over the world, that's why we artist feel so lonely sometimes. But this is when internet is an advantage for us, because thanks to it we can share our passion and contact other people who genuinely love the art, and share ideas and feedback.
In this moment I have not much people on my dA account, but the ones who love me as a person as well as my art are now here....And me too! ^^
I follow you on deviantart too, hehe. (although I don't really post much on dA in these days cos people don't come XD)
So if you would like to talk about anything, any time at any time and any hour, just drop me a note, I can give you my discord so we can talk. It's been a good while I follow your work and I always wanted to get to know you better and be friends, so if you wanna hang out one day it will be super cool!
Since I am most popular there as well, I worked hard to pecome popular there. I guess I have to move to another platform as well maybe in the end...
Yeah, me too. Nothing is happening in our little town, have lived here my whole life. It start to become like a getto... ><;
Yes, all my friends are here online. I just wish I could meet all these awesome people someday. It brings a smile to my face when I talk about art and to see peoples reaction when they say how good I am. It is so fun to see awsome art all over the worldd. It makes my day. Especily when I say all my works is made by hand first, and then I clean it with my mouse in photoshop. ^^
That's nice to hear. :3 And sad to hear... x3
I easy forget and usually don't reatch out very well, but thank you so much for your comment it means alot! <3