Usually I can just sit down and draw what I have to draw for hours. But the past few months it's been super hard to do anything, and I'm not sure why.

I'm wondering if I'm just lacking motivation, or it's depression. But it's weird. Other things like attending my garden and doing daily workout has not been a problem, I just get off my ass and do it. But it's art that I can't sit down to do for more than one hour at a time.

It's not that starting a workout routine it's making me itch for keeping my body moving instead of sitting for hours, because I can still be a potato sitting for hours playing games or watching videos, no problem.

I don't think it's art block either, because at least when I read other people sharing about their art blocks it hints heavily at lack of inspiration where the thing they are drawing doesn't come out as good as they want, and that's definitely not what's happening to me because the time I do sit and draw for a bit the art comes out normally without unusual obstacles and I feel satisfaction with the poses and ideas I get to put into images. It's definitely diferent. I just start itching to do something else after an hour.


There's a lot of stuff I need to get done, I have to push through and just be disciplined, not allowing myself to stop. But it's being ridiculously hard at the moment.

My best guess right now, trying to look at what's going with me as objectively as possible, is that I'm simply craving company... To have someone to talk with while I work. So I'm compensating with external stimuli of games and videos to help me turn my brain off and waste time until I go sleep.


But yeah, I'm super confused right now. Confused and guilted for not getting done the things I need to do, specially for the couple of people who are supporting me on Patreon.

Oof.