Lately I've been having personal issues going on in my life. I had honestly hoped that things would be better for me when the new year came, but it doesn't feel like things have brighten up for me. I've been fighting against depression, obesity, laziness, oversleeping until it's 2 to 5 in the afternoon, lack of self-confidence and motivation...

Hell, it just feels like everything is slowly going downhill and worse for me as I get older. It's because of all of this is why I haven't even bothered picking up my keyboard and type my story for the last few months. I mean, I want to type so goddamn badly, yet my body and mentality is like, "Nope. Not today". I mean, there are times I pick up the 'board, only to just type a few sentences before putting it away again. After that, I'm just... exhausted.

I'm sorry if I'm disappointing you all, especially those who are eager to read my story. Truly, I am, but if you understood who I truly am and everything about me, then you understand why this is happening.

Even with all the games and even though I try to keep a positive attitude and a smile on my face, I know I have little chance to turn things around for me, even with all the positive reinforcement from my friends and (sometimes) my family.

Change is hard especially with all the issues I'm going through.