Well I do wonder why I try to keep in contact with people. Those few I consider friends I try to keep in touch with. Though some whom I use to consider friends seem to want to know how I am doing but seem to go in a round about way with trying to avoid me.

I think I am at a place where I want to care but at the same time if I saw them I tell them to drop dead. As they seem to forget I exist.

I am bitter towards to world and I shouldn't be. I know it is being petty but it is either that or bury it and wait for my feelings to boil and explode on someone who does not deserve.

In closing screw the world as I am truly bitter. I dont blame anyone but I am just that way.