I feel old now. Photoshop did not exist when I was 10. Windows 2.1 did already have Paint at the time, but that can't have been very interesting with only 4 colours available.

I'm only 20 and I feel old too :/ probably cuz ain't done much with life at this point but whatever

it only had 4 colors originally??? christ.

Paint's not to blame there. We simply had 4 colours on PC. Cyan, magenta, white and black. Although a little bit of research tells me there was a different mode that had red, green, yellow and black. I don't recall that though. 4 colours either way.

I'll be 41 very soon, and I've done pretty much nothing with life...

Oh yea that one. The only I started with was the windows XP one I think.

I got that feeling too :/ and I'm only 20. I've talked to and gotten many opinions from many people about it and I've just come to the conclusion it is either some form of depression/existential dread or society tells us there is certain things we have to do to feel fulfilled and seeing others achieve them makes us feel worse.

Mine seems to get worse depending on my depression. I've come to the conclusion there is nothing to do about it except ignore it. I mean I guess what you make of life is what you want but I've achieved stuff in the past I wanted to do and felt nothing. I guess the 'big goal' in life is to get married and have kids but I've got like... a few years until 30 to decide if I want kids p sure after that its not the best idea medically. That and I don't know if I want kids, don't think I wanna bring more people I could potentially fuck up into the world.
haven't even been on a date yet smh

I think a lot of people feel like is disappointing. I used to feel like the only one but then I met people that feel the same way. No wonder people do drugs...

Big goals indeed. I always wanted kids before 30. Still do, but I'm practically 41, and single.

Damn, sorry to hear man :( why you single? I think my issue is I feel unworthy of dating and haven't really tried, I'm afraid to trust people. Do you have that issue or just haven't met anyone you like? I haven't really ever met anyone I liked honestly lol
My friends say I have to put myself out there more but I just kinda always assumed I'd be dating a guy I was friends with before hand but I guess that's not always the case... I dunn going on a dating app and meeting someone for a date I haven't been friends with just always felt weird to me. I kinda want my BF to also by my friend first kinda thing...

I've actually been in relationships, but they were long distance, and just didn't lead anywhere in the end.
And I feel the same way, I want to know I can get along with and share interests with a GF.
I've never been in the dating scene because that would put me in locations/situations where I'm just way too uncomfortable.

Online relationship mostly?:( I feel like my only option is online as well but I've never liked the idea. It works for some people but I never thought it would work for me. I mean I think it would have to be someone verrrrryyyy special for me to do that. I feel like any relationships I get in will go nowhere but I'm worried I'll be the reason and not them. I've always been told you should bring something positive to the relationship but I feel like I can't because of my depression and anxiety, and pretending I'm happy isn't going to work. Didn't work in friendships and sure as hell won't work in relationships. I never feel like I can be myself so I haven't bothered with trying because let's be honest WHO wants to date a clinically depressed person who isn't managing well? Definite emotional baggage. Unless I find someone who likes that idea but then I feel like that's a bad idea if they enjoy it too much...

I had a guy I liked but he wasn't into me, pretty sure was gay or preferred men, and later turned out to be a asshole anyways. I think he was the only person I would've considered long distance for. Got another guy I like but I don't think he's into me either(I haven't told him lol) and he's got a gf. And he's in Poland so hella long distance even if. I've considered dating IRL but I gotta be honest I'm in bumfuck Texas. I'm either related to everyone out here(I'm not fucking my cousins) or everyone is a 'country type', thug type or just creepy. Or assholes, everyone out here but my family and few others seem into animal abuse.

I've had friendships with people who have barely any interests with me and it sucked ass depending on the person, there is no way and hell I can be in a relationship with someone who doesn't like 50-75% of what I like. This isn't because of me, because I've been open to everyone's interest me entire life but it's because I don't think I can put up with another person shitting on my interests constantly. I've been in friendships like that and I cannot stand it. Or when they think you're required to like the thing they do. I've only had one friendship my entire life where we hated stuff each other liked but were respectful about it. My best friend loves Steven universe but I hate the shit out of it but we've both talked about stuff we liked and disliked about it. I feel this limits my dating because I have niche interests but I can't see me dating someone who doesn't like a majority of stuff I like or is at least respectful about it :/

God I can barely socialize IRL I can't imagine doing it in person 8( making eye contact makes me uncomfortable lol. Have you ever been on IRL date before? Are they as akward as people claim they are? I've always felt the idea of a date seemed too formal. Like most people's idea of a date is dressing fancy, I think I'd rather just chill or something.

I'm starting to feel this is not really the right place for this.
If you have Telegram or something we can talk more.

Hah I'm fine talking anywhere but your probably right :) afraid I don't use telegram, is notes fine? Or I have discord

My discord is in the contact information in my profile.

Do FA notes or discord work easiest for you?
Just asking because I'm not horribly active on Discord on account it lags my PC terribly but if discord is preferred I can do :)

I'm not a big Discord user myself, but I don't like notes for conversation at all.

Hah yea me neither hence why I mentioned notes lol, I haven't been on discord in more than a month I think and it's not very convenient for casual conversation for me ^^" I'm fine continuing in the comments if you want too lol, I don't say anything I don't expect to be publically read lol

But I would honestly forget to check discord and just never end up replying I'm afraid ^^"

To be honest, I don't really want to continue that in comments.

Ah.. From your end or my end? Cuz I'm cool with my end of the discussion lol :) I've had people worry I'm worried about it but I'm not lol
Discord just is not good for casual chat for me 8( I used to try and use Skype for casual chat and it wa a nightmare. But skype didn't rupture my PC every time I opened it...

From my end.
I haven't used Skype in ages, nobody is on there anymore. For me Telegram is the way to go.

Ah yea afraid I'll have to decline anything but comments or FA notes X.x trying discord would make the conversation unengaging because of how it runs terribly for me, how little I check it and I've only got like six people on there who are close friends and know/don't care about my lack of activity.
It's definitly not used for casual chat for me.....
Your honesty just eventually stop getting replies on discord from me and idont wanna do that lol

*big hugs*. I do hope you're OK hun. If you need time for yourself then do it. Your health is more important. Also, I think my friend had issues with photoshop on 10 but may have resolved the issue. I'll ask her if you like?

Thank you Tsuki. I've already taken time for myself, more than enough I think and it doesn't seem to be helping me. If anything I've drawn away from people in my life more :/ at this point I just feel like nothing helps me and nothing is making it better.

Thank you but I've tried literally every single thing offered on the Internet and I've come to the conclusion it's not going to work on a Windows 10 computer so I'm trying to save for a Windows 7 that will hopefully work.

I think my mental state might improve some if I have a computer I can comfortably draw on but I have to have money for that and my sales have been shit since last year even before I started having bad mental issues. I hate this fucking site, nothing sells anymore. I wish I had a real job. :(

I'm so sorry hun <3. Wish I could help out. I'm here if you need a rant and I'm happy to advertise in my journal if you like?