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5 years ago
I've been trying to upload this for days but FA downtime happened.
As things have begun to change in harsh ways in my life I feel the need to update everyone on what is going on, seeing as I've been particularly secluded as of late, this is mostly to explain what the situation is.
I don't want to rant, Straight to the point, my mom was found to have a malign tumor in one of her breasts. there are checks and surgeries in the near future, and we're figuring out how to afford them.
Finding the tumor itself was a really expensive endeavor in and on itself, as my mom was encouraged to go to a clinic that caused her the main quality of life deterrent she suffers, I'll explain better later on, but this clinic handled her checks in an unprofessional fashion, that increased her pain, in her words "I felt like something poped and spread". results came negative, but the increasing pain led my mom to seek another opinion. all this caused a serious increase to our expenses, as she's the primary provider for the house.
I want to remind everyone that in Venezuela the economic situation is really rough. for a direct example, my brother was hired to play Runescape, farming gold in order to turn that gold into actual money, making less than a dollar/hour. still better than what he would make on any other job. on the other hand, look at me, drawing butts on the internet, theoretically I'd be the primary provider if it wasn't for how convoluted it is to actually send money my way, which limits how often I'm able to.
My mom's Condition
After an accident in january of 2010, my mom broke her leg, previous to that she was declining a bit into Osteoporosis, but her leg was recoverable. However, as she cried in pain, and I was an ignorant kid, the neighbour who answered to the ambulance sent her to a very infamous hospital. In venezuela the medicine field has decayed to the point that it can't even hold standards set in the 80s. and this place in particular has many cases of infections and botched sugeries. not much after the operation, she indeed had caught an infection, her insurance made her receive treatment at that same place. up until 2015, she went through 7 operations and surgeries to help fix her leg, and the infection had a resurgence nearly every time. in 2016 we briefly travelled to italy, in there doctors told her that if another operation had the infection appear, they would have to amputate. My mom now needs an orthopedic boot to walk, which now that I think about, we've had to jury-rig repairs for several times, she's been trying to get a new one but its a little out of our budget.
Comming to today, she began feeling pains and lumps in her chest, she went for some tests, and other than apparently they handled her pretty roughly, they told her it was just calcifications and not to be worried about, but the pains not only continued, but increased in the zones of the exam, so she went to a second opinion to another, more qualified doctor. the results came in a couple days ago, resulting in a breast tumor, of the malign kind, and more tests and a surgery are coming up sometime soon.
In short. My mom has a disabled leg, Osteoporosis, blood pressure problems, and now has to deal with a malign tumor. all while handling the brunt of being the main family support.
Needing help and needing to help
Other than dealing with that tumor, the main problem with this medical venture has been the costs of all the tests she's had to get done, we ran through our funds, even delaying some important migration money we had saved up, and that's not even accounting what will come next. as a family we're all gathering up what we have to help with the treatment.
honestly, I'm terribly scared, even if I manage to pull off the money, the medical system in this country may prove to be a huge problem, there's a certain option of having her go to italy for treatment, but I think she needs a new passport, so it may take a while to get there.
I'm looking at new venues for income with my friends, but honestly I'm having troubles to think straight with the anxiety adding up.
So, what happened to that Gofundme you did the other time?
As many of you may remember, years back Chatai and I did a gofundme with the intention of traveling and finally getting together, in an attempt to make viable a K-1 type visa, for the purposes of marrying, as we are fed up of trying to be together for so long. as we were planning the trip, we decided to use part of the money to have a law firm help us with tramiting the visa.
however, in a sort of spiteful twist of destiny, a couple months after the gofundme ended, presidents Trump and Maduro decided to have a catfight, which ended with Trump saying "Well I'm going home, and I'm taking my embassy with me" and Maduro answering "Well fine! take it away, not like I wanted it anyway, whats more, if they're not gone by next week, I'll arrest them". I'm paraphrasing, but if you read both in the voice of Eric Cartman you wouldn't be far from what happened. this indirectly threw a wrench in our plans, the law firm was in a state of "Wait how can we tramit this with no embassy there?". to this day, that gofundme money is put on hold, and I religiously refuse to use it for anything other than what it was intended for. there's still chances for me to obtain an italian citizenship, but even the italian embassy is comming up with ways to screw me over, but that is a long story beyond the scope of this update.
I am embarrassed, I feel like a complete failure. I don't want to open another gofundme for this, I can't accept shoving my responsibilities to be solved by my followers, and using the money from the previous one for this would just be extremely disrespectful to the hopes and espectations of everyone who so kindly donated. I already feel so bad every day for not being with chatai already as I promised on that campaign. Because I'm in such a tough spot, I must accept any help that comes my way, but I'm just too full of shame and anger to open any sort of donation campaign in good heart.
Things that I'm doing
I'm trying to move forward in both aspects, I wanna get together with chatai, and be in a better place in which I can better provide for my loved ones.
My starting point right now is that I'll open some YCHs to start with, and later hoping to open commissions.
secondly my friend
story-teller-hakiri is going to be doing a charity stream soon to be announced, just playing videogames and hanging out, in case anyone wants to donate. I'll try to hang both in the chat and on Starleaf's discord server when it happens, answering any question, and just talking. I may be in a voice call with Hakiri, but I wouldn't expect for that, as my internet conection is too flimsy for that kind of thing. another of the things that cause me perpetual shame is not being able to offer a proper enjoyable stream myself. Following that line I'm gonna try to stream more often myself, maybe offering midstream commissions, even if the stream itself is pretty wonky.
Lastly, as I figure out how, I'll be enabling shinies on FurAffinity as a way to allowing donations to come through if people are inclined to help in that way, trying to swallow my pride to handle receiving any help that way.
TL;DR
Mom has a tumor, I gotta work my butt off to help her. gonna become more active.
If you have any questions please feel free to ask them in the comments, I'll do my best to answer everyone. The link to Starleaf's Discord is here:https://discord.gg/2Epv3mc
As things have begun to change in harsh ways in my life I feel the need to update everyone on what is going on, seeing as I've been particularly secluded as of late, this is mostly to explain what the situation is.
I don't want to rant, Straight to the point, my mom was found to have a malign tumor in one of her breasts. there are checks and surgeries in the near future, and we're figuring out how to afford them.
Finding the tumor itself was a really expensive endeavor in and on itself, as my mom was encouraged to go to a clinic that caused her the main quality of life deterrent she suffers, I'll explain better later on, but this clinic handled her checks in an unprofessional fashion, that increased her pain, in her words "I felt like something poped and spread". results came negative, but the increasing pain led my mom to seek another opinion. all this caused a serious increase to our expenses, as she's the primary provider for the house.
I want to remind everyone that in Venezuela the economic situation is really rough. for a direct example, my brother was hired to play Runescape, farming gold in order to turn that gold into actual money, making less than a dollar/hour. still better than what he would make on any other job. on the other hand, look at me, drawing butts on the internet, theoretically I'd be the primary provider if it wasn't for how convoluted it is to actually send money my way, which limits how often I'm able to.
My mom's Condition
After an accident in january of 2010, my mom broke her leg, previous to that she was declining a bit into Osteoporosis, but her leg was recoverable. However, as she cried in pain, and I was an ignorant kid, the neighbour who answered to the ambulance sent her to a very infamous hospital. In venezuela the medicine field has decayed to the point that it can't even hold standards set in the 80s. and this place in particular has many cases of infections and botched sugeries. not much after the operation, she indeed had caught an infection, her insurance made her receive treatment at that same place. up until 2015, she went through 7 operations and surgeries to help fix her leg, and the infection had a resurgence nearly every time. in 2016 we briefly travelled to italy, in there doctors told her that if another operation had the infection appear, they would have to amputate. My mom now needs an orthopedic boot to walk, which now that I think about, we've had to jury-rig repairs for several times, she's been trying to get a new one but its a little out of our budget.
Comming to today, she began feeling pains and lumps in her chest, she went for some tests, and other than apparently they handled her pretty roughly, they told her it was just calcifications and not to be worried about, but the pains not only continued, but increased in the zones of the exam, so she went to a second opinion to another, more qualified doctor. the results came in a couple days ago, resulting in a breast tumor, of the malign kind, and more tests and a surgery are coming up sometime soon.
In short. My mom has a disabled leg, Osteoporosis, blood pressure problems, and now has to deal with a malign tumor. all while handling the brunt of being the main family support.
Needing help and needing to help
Other than dealing with that tumor, the main problem with this medical venture has been the costs of all the tests she's had to get done, we ran through our funds, even delaying some important migration money we had saved up, and that's not even accounting what will come next. as a family we're all gathering up what we have to help with the treatment.
honestly, I'm terribly scared, even if I manage to pull off the money, the medical system in this country may prove to be a huge problem, there's a certain option of having her go to italy for treatment, but I think she needs a new passport, so it may take a while to get there.
I'm looking at new venues for income with my friends, but honestly I'm having troubles to think straight with the anxiety adding up.
So, what happened to that Gofundme you did the other time?
As many of you may remember, years back Chatai and I did a gofundme with the intention of traveling and finally getting together, in an attempt to make viable a K-1 type visa, for the purposes of marrying, as we are fed up of trying to be together for so long. as we were planning the trip, we decided to use part of the money to have a law firm help us with tramiting the visa.
however, in a sort of spiteful twist of destiny, a couple months after the gofundme ended, presidents Trump and Maduro decided to have a catfight, which ended with Trump saying "Well I'm going home, and I'm taking my embassy with me" and Maduro answering "Well fine! take it away, not like I wanted it anyway, whats more, if they're not gone by next week, I'll arrest them". I'm paraphrasing, but if you read both in the voice of Eric Cartman you wouldn't be far from what happened. this indirectly threw a wrench in our plans, the law firm was in a state of "Wait how can we tramit this with no embassy there?". to this day, that gofundme money is put on hold, and I religiously refuse to use it for anything other than what it was intended for. there's still chances for me to obtain an italian citizenship, but even the italian embassy is comming up with ways to screw me over, but that is a long story beyond the scope of this update.
I am embarrassed, I feel like a complete failure. I don't want to open another gofundme for this, I can't accept shoving my responsibilities to be solved by my followers, and using the money from the previous one for this would just be extremely disrespectful to the hopes and espectations of everyone who so kindly donated. I already feel so bad every day for not being with chatai already as I promised on that campaign. Because I'm in such a tough spot, I must accept any help that comes my way, but I'm just too full of shame and anger to open any sort of donation campaign in good heart.
Things that I'm doing
I'm trying to move forward in both aspects, I wanna get together with chatai, and be in a better place in which I can better provide for my loved ones.
My starting point right now is that I'll open some YCHs to start with, and later hoping to open commissions.
secondly my friend
story-teller-hakiri is going to be doing a charity stream soon to be announced, just playing videogames and hanging out, in case anyone wants to donate. I'll try to hang both in the chat and on Starleaf's discord server when it happens, answering any question, and just talking. I may be in a voice call with Hakiri, but I wouldn't expect for that, as my internet conection is too flimsy for that kind of thing. another of the things that cause me perpetual shame is not being able to offer a proper enjoyable stream myself. Following that line I'm gonna try to stream more often myself, maybe offering midstream commissions, even if the stream itself is pretty wonky.Lastly, as I figure out how, I'll be enabling shinies on FurAffinity as a way to allowing donations to come through if people are inclined to help in that way, trying to swallow my pride to handle receiving any help that way.
TL;DR
Mom has a tumor, I gotta work my butt off to help her. gonna become more active.
If you have any questions please feel free to ask them in the comments, I'll do my best to answer everyone. The link to Starleaf's Discord is here:https://discord.gg/2Epv3mc
