I don't talk much about the things that really hurt me. Today, I don't know why, I feel like thinking about that...

Sometimes I find myself talking alone in my mind. Asking over and over again the same questions that is better to forget, and I wonder why I can't ask those questions outside my mind. I mean, I wanna go back to my past and ask: why did you leave me there? Why did you hurt me like that? Why you let them hurt me?

I guess there are strong things in my heart, strong rotten things growing and moving. And I can't talk about them, not here online, not with my friends, my boyfriend or my terapist. I mean, some people know most of the things and events that hurt me in the past, but they probably don't understad what those things meant to me. And why I can let them go...

Someday I may talk, outside my mind... for now I can't, I guess I am not strong enough for that.

And I know I have very good friends to talk about all this, and I know they will be there when I am ready to open up and talk. But now I am not ready.

Hugs to all, now I will "put on a happy face" and keep moving.