Urgh. For the first time since the last time, I'm mad enough to kill. True, there are people pissing me off, and even though they don't have an account on here, I have one thing to say: get over yourself. Your pathetic attempts to make me jealous or whatever, or get back at me for something I never even did are just that: pathetic. I'm more angry at myself than anything else. Angry that I'm letting anyone affect my mood. Angry that I'm never good enough for anyone on this god forsaken rock. Angry that at this time last year, I was in the same exact position, except with less experience. I'm angry that I keep accidentally pushing away the only people on my side, and get even angrier when I realize that I'm alone. I'm angry that I keep apologizing for EVERYTHING, even stuff that isn't my fault. It just feels like it is, that's how I was raised: It was beaten (literally) into my head that every damn thing that went wrong was my fault. I'm sick of it all. Truly. I want it all to end, but I'm not even considering suicide. That would make too many people happy, and I'm done pleasing you people. Things are GOING to be different this year. Things look bleak already, and the school year just started, but somehow... things will be different. I'm determined not to fall into old habits, like falling for friends, and allowing myself to be walked on. It's over, for good. There is no more room for that whiny little pussy Rene, anymore: Ryota is here, he's bitchy, and he's NOT taking shit from anyone.

Ryota out, fucktards. /rant