Hey I get that Farel. Sometimes we have to struggle with ourselves, deal with our inner turmoil cause we can be our worst enemy. Some people fit the criteria where they are super happy and don't have a care in the world. Us underdogs, we struggle to see the light of day, to be noticed, to get a taste of that success, to figure out what works for us. Engage in the community and all that stuff, I'm not really that comfortable with it when it comes to the negative stuff though we have to go through bad to get to the good.

I love my art, I love creating, but like you sometimes I'm not happy with it, being a perfectionist sort wanting things to be perfect, but if I stress about that then I can't get my content out, I can do my best to work towards what I want to tell and that's great for me (especially as a comic artist you have to do what you can to make it easier to tell your story).

I have few offline friends, Like 3 lol I love them but I never get to see them, it's been over 10 years for me. XD But we try to stay connected even with the distance and life between ourselves. I also have you and my followers that help inspire me to move forward too! ^^

I'm always worried and sometimes feel like I'm not good enough when I'm working on my comic, but not everybody is going to like it, even if it's something minor, and sometimes I get so many ideas that I get lost, I have to try and stay organized for myself, do things one step at a time, set up goals to what I want to work on. Like right now it's (1) Set up Decisive Desire's website /even if it's not perfect I can always improve upon it later when I get better / have time. (2) Get all my Patrons caught up on their rewards /work on neat tier illustrations for patreon. and (3) Everything caught up I have the freedom / time to resume work on the comic, I'm working hard to make sure that I put in as much time as I can to create and keep content going. Decisive Desire is my life.

If you need somebody to chat about stuff like maybe work out a goal that you can explore creatively then let me know, I'm pretty great with ideas and whatnot, I can probably help inspire the brain meats. :D

Thank you very much Steven. This was mostly an issue of me feeling kind of lost at the moment.

Trying to start some relationship, find a new job, and things aren't working out. Sure, I realize it takes time, but it gets to be successful, and .... well, someone has been complementing me a lot, and I felt the need to say that I'm flawed and not too happy

Thanks for being there for me

It is okay to feel like this, Farel. In fact, most people are always on a quest for the right career, right jobs etc. I , personally, think the quest is the big thing, not the goal of it. Just try out things, it is always better to fail, then to always ask yourself what it?
Not a great wisdom, I know, I just trying to tell you: keep going ^^ it is not always easy, In the end it will hopefully work out ^^

Thanks pal, I'll just have to try my best and keep at it

<3

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nMF-kPuGy84

but no, serious, thanks

Hey I'm always happy to see Dr Phil's mustache <3 dehehe