Hey guys. I'm not.... not dead. I'm so, so sorry I've gone so quiet to all of you. I wish I could talk more, but for so long I just haven't felt like it in forever.

I haven't felt like anything, really. I've been tired and lost. I've spent so long throwing myself away to help others there's none of me that I understand left. I don't know who I am anymore. All I know is I exist. I feel purposeless, I haven't actually taken care of myself in years. I force myself to be kind and helpful because it feels nice but I think its killing me.

I've sunk to ignoring everyone and isolation. I've been disassociated off and on for quite a while.

I want to still be here for all of you. I want to be what I've always been. But I'm not well and I don't know if I can keep dragging on this way.

I'm so sorry

-Tiger