Don't mind this post too much, there's no secrets in it. No drama, no whining. I just wanted to talk for a bit. I also plan on staying away from the C-word - I think we've all heard enough about that.

First and foremost, I just wanted to thank the load of new watchers who think I'm worth the time. I guess I may be a shabby artist, but I guess you could say I'm ...not too shabby{/i}. Anyways, I really appreciate the love, and hope you stick around while I learn this thing called...anatomy....and color theory ʷʰᵃᵗ ᶦˢ ᵗʰᵃᵗ. I do, however, have some news that may or may not be in your favor (?) I don;t post too often, as I should, since I do keep art and practicing art, streams and what have you pretty low on my priorities list. For those who are like me who watch as a sign of appreciation, but don't really....watch, I guess this is nothing. For those who actually enjoy and consume my content, you either already know this or may be disappointed by this. I'm sorry. That's all I can really say. My computer is giving out. I recon it's the hard drive, but I don't have the time or money to screw around with it right now.

I'm not special or anything, but life can get pretty stressful, and sometimes that stress can just shut me down and put me in full preservation mode. These last few months alone have been fair doosies to say the least, between me ripping through cars, work taking just about every second of my existence, and compromised living measures. I'm not gonna say that I have it harder than anyone else. I'm sure there are people who have it way harder than I do. It 's just for the time being, I can only speak for myself and I know I'm having a hard time. I know if I keep fighting, and pushing, everything will be okay and I'll eventually look back at this moment and chuckle about how I had to live through that....but for right now...its hard.

I guess what I'm saying is I just need a bit of an outlet. My toilet of doubt and stress hath overfloweth. I'm not very talkative, and I don't often reach out. I don't really hang with friends or go out. I just exist. I am here. More so a tool for other people than for me to take advantage of myself, ya know? It's hard to explain.

I just wanna know how you're doing? Maybe you need an outlet like me, and talking to people in person isn't your thing. Maybe calling out for help makes you feel awful. If all you needed was just some stupid post to vent yourself, and then leave to the ether of the distant internet where it lay buried and unseen.