Interesting reading from you Lindsey. I would have to disagree with some of that. But as you said too, a lot of the problem boils down to what a person believes. When we take the bible (God's word) and try to apply it to modern times it can indeed be difficult. But there lies the problem. God speaks to us through the bible. It's not for us to decide what He says is right or wrong, that His call. He says what's right and wrong.

I hear people all the time (I've done it too) saying, "This is what I beliveve." How about saying, "What does the bible (God) have to say about this or that?" Our sinful hearts want to do things the way we want them. That's just how we're all wired. We act like little children. We're to look to Christ as our heavenly Father for guidance...and He will give it to us. But we have to seek Him and His truths. Nobody on this planet except Christ is or will ever be perfect.

Also, there is only one reason a person will go to hell and it has nothing to do with sexuallity at all. There is also only one way to escape hell becuase by default we are all born sinners and going there. It is only by God's grace and love that He can and will save us, but we have to seek His forgivness.

The big question I hear all the time is this, "Can a homosexual be a Christian?" I'm not perfect either and no bible scollar, but this is my answer to that if I had to guess one way or the other from my knowledge of the bible. And I'm not judging anyone. And before anyone jumps my case...READ MY ANSWER FULLY!!! And if anyone has a problem with my answer, their problem isn't with me, it's with God. That right there should be a real eye opener for anyone in doubt.

I would say no and here's why. To be a "Christian" means to be a follower of Christ. Not just to say I love Jesus. To be of Christ one has to be....well of Christ. That simply means you have to belive with all your heart in Him and SUBMIT TO HIM.

You have to believe in the bible to be a Christian because that is God's word to us all. You can't simply take the parts of the bible you like and treat it like a buffet. You have to take the whole bible. Again that is submitting to the Lord. If you don't, in reality you'er saying to God, "You are wrong God, I am right, I know what is best for me." Whenever we do that...how could we call ourselves a Christian??? Yet people do it all the time. *shrugs*

This is a hard one to swallow, but there it is. You also can't take parts of the bible here and there. You have to again take the whole bible. Context is king as they say. Again that's what the bible says...not what I think, the pastor at the chruch down the road preaches, or anyone else, but Christ says.

God tells us, "Not all who call upon me as Lord will be saved." (there's more to that verse, but I'm writing this off the top of my head) Only those who have truely repented and are in Him will be saved (from hell).

Seek the Truth and you will find it.

Yeah I understand what you mean but I got very confused at first what the Holy Spirit was convicting me of and that was premarital sex, masterbation, and pornagraphy. I'm never going to have a desire for those things again. I know that I'm not going to go to Hell because I've accepted Jesus Christ to come into my life and I have the Holy Spirit to help guide and teach me as well as give me discernment which he has over the past few years when I got saved back in 2015. He's still working on me transforming and molding me into his image. I believe that Jesus Christ accepts and loves everyone no matter their sexuality and gender. I believe that even if I were to still be a lesbian I would be able to go to heaven because I believe in Jesus and that I'm sealed with the Holy Spirit and I have a relationship with him.

Yeah I read that verse too but I think he was talking about those who claim to call themselves Christians but only knowing him and not having a relationship with him. They would be considered religious. I've repented from pornagraphy, masterbation, and premarital sex which I think that's what the Holy Spirit was urging me to be forgiven of.

As of right now I don't want to be in a relationship and get married right now. I'm single and happy.

You wrote, "I believe that Jesus Christ accepts and loves everyone no matter their sexuality and gender." I too would say this true...as would any preacher of the Christian faith. Christ loves and died for us all. He however dosen't love our sin and will not allow it into heaven with Him. It's not that Jesus dosen't love someone, He died on a cross for us all. Not just those that He loves. But if we don't accept that in our hearts and confess our sins to Him, then that's where He puts His foot down and we're hell bound (if we haven't accepted Him and truely repented).

I fully respect you and your stance Lindsey...as with anyone. I don't look down on anyone for anything they believe or who they are. Nor do I judge them. That is for Christ alone and He will do so to us all.

I will keep you in my prayers.

Well even if I have an attraction to women and I'm not actually committing the act that wouldn't be a sin right? I'm not in a relationship. I already asked God to forgive me and I repented.

Thank you, I understand everyone has different views on this and I understand what your saying.

Define attraction? To have a lustful thought towards someone other than our spouce is a sin according to the bible. To have thoughts now and then is one thing. To seek after it and live in such a lifestyle is another.

The biggie with this is what's in our hearts. God knows our hearts better than we do too. We all sin daily. It's what we do about it that counts. When we sin do we repent, confess to Christ that sin, and ask for His forgiveness? That is what He wants us to do (not sinning, but repenting). However, if someone is living in a sinful lifestyle and not repenting, then I would seriously question that person's salvation. But again that is between them and God.

Again a true Chirstian is defined as a follower of Christ. They live for Him, not themselves. A true Christian will sin all they want. It's true...because a true Christian will NOT want to sin. They will actually sin more than they want. It's the change of heart that counts. If you (anyone) sin and it's not a big deal, then I would say you are not in Christ and not of His. The proof is in our heart.

Christ gave up everything to save us (His death on the cross). We're going to have to give up everything (our worldly desires) to live with Him. The bible never says that we will have an easy life as His people on this earth. In fact it says just the opposite. "They will hate you because you are mine." God knows it's not easy for us, but He will never give up on us. He's always there with and for us...and I'm thankful for that.

Yes I understand what your saying. I haven't sinned in that ever since I repented and I'm not in the lifestyle because I'm not in any relationship with a women. That's why I'm not labeling myself. My identity comes from who I am in Christ, not from a sexuality. I may have these thoughts and may be attracted to women but I put all of my worldly desires down at the cross. I put Jesus Christ above everything. I am a Christain and love Jesus Christ with my whole heart and I want to live for him. Nothing on this earth could ever completely satisfy me more. I'm happy where I am right now in my walk with Christ. He knows that I asked him for forgiveness and I repented and he said that he forgave me. That's all that matters is that he knows that I'm sorry for what I did.

I'm attracted to women in a sense where it's not lustful. I know that lusting after a person just for sex is very displeasing to God. I've been there and done that and it's not satisfying as I long for a deeper intimate connection with someone if God wills for me to even be in a relationship again but in a healthier one. I may just be single for the rest of my life if that is what God wants. I don't know as I'll wait to see what he has in store for my future.

Thank you. Yeah it's a daily struggle and temptation is hard but I know Jesus Christ and have a relationship with him and I know that he has only the best for me right now and in my future because he loves me very much.

With a heavy heart I no longer can stand by my reply to you above that I posted here Lindsey...so I removed it. I wish you the best and will keep you in my prayers. As a Christian I can't go along with what you've posted in your latest journal on grounds of it not being biblically supported. Take care and God bless you.

Okay well like I said there are many different interpretations, translations, and errors written in the bible too. Not every verse is going to be the same thing. Sure I was convicted by many other different sins from the Holy Spirit but I really don't think I was convicted of homosexuality. I asked Jesus Christ to come into my life back in 2015 and filled with the Holy Spirit and never once was convicted of homosexuality. I know that I have relationship with Jesus and I'm sealed and saved. People have a way of trying to justify their claims to say that people who are gay and are Christian are still going to Hell which I think is very damaging and condemning. I see God in a whole different way as he's not angry with me. I tried several times to pray about taking it away and it's not happening. I'm attracted to women and that's never going to change. God loves me no matter what and that's all that matters despite what some Christians who claim to think they know what God says.

I believe that I'm still going to go to heaven and be with my lord and savior Jesus someday as long as I'm doing his will and walk in love while down here on earth. I believe once you ask him to be in your life and you truly do that from the heart he will save you and your salvation can never be lost no matter how many mistakes you've done and who you are attracted to. It's not a sin to love because Jesus is love.

I respect your views but please respect mine. I think we are going to have to agree to disagree here on this.

Well...I'm glad you're able to see that now sis.
I was worried about you for abit there because I know your religious and so am I but I never saw you like this before in the past journals.. I figured it was because you were scared with the virus going around and all but I didnt want to say anything incase something might happen...so I was scared and worried about you.

I am glad you finally realized what was going on now sis. *hugs* It did hurt me abit once I saw what was happening but I forgive you in this sis.

I hope you'll be ok now Lindsey and stay safe out where you're at sis. And you'll be in my prayers during this time.

Yeah, I'm alright now. Thank you sis. *hugs* Yeah that was a part of it but my relationship with Jesus Christ has gotten stronger because of the event that took place. I'm very sad for all the individuals and their families who've suffered greatly because of the virus but I'm glad that God can turn a bad thing into a good thing and I know that he loves me despite what my sexuality was.

I know I need to be careful of some of the things I read and listen to from other people who claim to think they know what God is. Only he is the judge, people aren't. God is loving and kind but I know he's a judge. I believe in his son Jesus Christ and I have a relationship with him so I know I'm not going to go to Hell. That's what scared me the most because I misunderstood who he was saying that to.

Your welcome sis ^^
Glad to hear that, that bond has gotten stronger with you and him. Yes it is sad that this is all happening...But I know God has plans somewhere in all of this. Hopefully for the good once everyone figures out whats going on.
*nods* Yeah I figured that what happened sadly. I was thinking with how you are religiously and how I know you aren't a bad person I'm sure you would be fine. But I truly understand the scare. I am glad you figured it out now. ^^

I’m always here for you, Lindsey. Just never forget to be true to yourself, and love the person that you are! Celebrate yourself and live in whatever way that makes you the happiest! Just never deny who you truly are inside! To be happy in life, you have to love yourself first, something I myself am working on.

If you meet a lady that you truly love and care about, then don't be afraid to tell her how you feel about her. If she makes you happy, then that’s all that matters~

If you ever need to talk about it with someone, my door is always open to you~

Thank you. I love myself for who I am and I know that God loves me too. I know I've asked God to forgive me and take that sexuality away it hasn't happened. I can never change the fact that I'm still attracted to women and probably won't change until the Lord returns. I'm listening to what God says, not what other people say and that was my issue and I was misunderstanding what I was convicted of by the Holy Spirit which was premarital sex, masterbation, and pornagraphy. Not homosexuality, I asked God to forgive me of that but I can't change the fact I still love women.

As of right now I'm not wanting to be in any relationship and staying single.

And that’s fine. Just don’t deny who you are~

*hugs you*

You know, i had a phase similar to yours at one point. Being paralysed with fear associated with my sexuality... It really does suck.

The fundamental thing i had to understand is that i can’t really... do anything.

That there’s no such a thing is just praying the gay away.

Given the choice between living miserably and letting depression kill me sooner or later, or embracing who i am, i chose the option that doesn’t involve being unhappy everyday of my life because a good chunk of my identity makes me feel guilty as fuck.

And if im being honest?

There are countless other sins out there, churches across the world just can’t get over how lgbt movements gain acceptance, but trust me give it a few years, maybe a decade before “homosexuality is not a sin” becomes the norm.

Just like a good half of the wacky shit in the bible if u ask me.