So immediately jumping into this journal-importance-scale, here's an update dump with some info clients/commissioners should be aware of:

Commission Delays / Lack of communication

It is easier to give a bulk-alert through a journal rather than pinging everyone individually. Thank you everyone for being patient with me. I have not forgotten the work I owe and have not hashed out as of yet.
As of November of 2019, I started taking medication that was to help me with my declining mental health. Between November and mid-January, this medication made me twice as unstable. I stopped taking it, and proceeded with a new med in early February that was supposedly better for me, based on a DNA test. About a week ago, I had to stop the new one as well, since it was doing the same things to me. Currently, I am not taking any medication for my mental health and stability.

Because I had to cut both meds cold-turkey, I'm currently going through withdrawals. These include constant fatigue, confusion, irritability, short-term memory problems/loss, nausea, and dizziness. They have also included, for the past week and a half, 'brain zaps'. The best way I can describe them is: Imagine if every time you slightly moved your head, or moved your eyes too quickly, it felt like someone ran a very short, but uncomfortable electric current through your brain, which is accompanied by a very quick and very disorienting half-second of concentrated dizziness/vertigo. It got so bad that I had to have my roommate walk me around the house like an old man for a few days.
These have been going for about a week now- and to top it off, my body decided 'hey let's give you the worst Thunderclap Migraine you've EVER gotten. That'll be fun, right?'
So about two nights ago I was taking a shower and tensed up from turning the water from hot to cold, and accidentally triggered a thunderclap headache. It comes on VERY suddenly and the pain is so intense I legit /wanted/ to be unconscious for the next 20 minutes so I wouldn't have to feel it. Nearly fainted while getting out of the shower, managed to [thankfully] get my pants on and alert my roommate. I wound up debilitated on my bed while my roommate considered whether to take me to the hospital or not. The only thing that kept them from dragging me there was the fact that I've had this kind of headache before and knew I wasn't in danger- I just had never had one THAT intense before. I had to wear a sleep-mask to black out any light from my eyes for about 24-ish hours. The thunderclap headache is still lingering, but seems to be on its way out.

You can imagine why Art has been on hold lately.

A few other bullshit things happened, like someone trying to smear a friend's name, claiming they sent people after an ex-friend of mine.
The general unpleasantness of quarantine.
Getting stir-crazy from not going anywhere.
Having my roommate denied unemployment benefits because they don't make.... 'enough' money???
Not getting the stimulus check.
And just generally adjusting to once again not being medicated for my mental health.

Things will even out eventually- but right now, my commission work has been involuntarily put on pause for a whole host of bs reasons, most of them health-related. I'm antsy as hell to get back to drawing, but I have to at least wait until the brain-zaps calm down. There is no way to ease the symptoms, and I cannot even move my eyes across a screen without getting nauseatingly dizzy and frustrated.

So for now, I'm toughing things out and taking time for some self-care until my body stops freaking out.
In May, I'll be searching for alternatives to psyche medications. I don't think I'll be going back on the types I tried out, as they both made me far worse ON them than OFF.

And there ya have it- general life update, plus why commissions and communication have been halted lately. I'll be trying to post more update journals like this to keep people in the know.