I saw 9 today....it was good.

In facted...it reminded me of something.
...I love Olivia...
I never stoped loving her.
I only hidden my true feelings through hate, for I did not want to be hurt by her again.
That is why I keep pushing her away, that is why I keep ridiculing and making excuses of how she loves other people, or no one at all....
So much, that I wanted to see what she would do....and I was right everytime.

I knew she would run back to Zoa, or to someone closer
because I was the only thing she had close back then....
after all the self badgering of herself and how she hates herself. I was there to tell her that she was wrong....
Even when I gave her money to support herself through crisis....she would spend some on the silliest things.
I even gave her my jacket...yet she still holds it close to her as if it was her own...and I wonder why.

But I will not go back to her....I can not go back to her, I keep pushing and pushing, because a long time ago...
she told me she will always love me forever...she told me I would always be her wolfie...
..I knew she was lieing.

and my proof....is that I'm here alone....without my jaggie....
she doesn't need me anymore....she never needed me....

So please...make her go away....I can't bare to see Kattryna or Olivia anymore...
it hurts my heart....it hurts