Well this is going to be shitty, its an apology to people who will never ever ever even hear me or evern think of my existence and write me off as a pretentious fuck wit with no skills at all. But this is actually targeted at two individuals two of which i am sorry for any any wrong doing on my part as i was not considerate of feelings or personal attatchments or understanding what a character means to somebody.

To Hungo the Nomster, I sincerely apologize for about two years ago with knowing someone who stole and roleplay as your characters. i never got into the healthiest and best relationships and made excuses for people who were garbage. and seeing your journals.. well i don't know what you are going through but its heart breaking to say the least. it made me want to cry reading them. and well too little too late should have could have would have but damn it, i at least am trying to be better now, i know more furry artist i've seen there work, i know what goes into character creation and the personal feelings that go along with it. You're drawings of John talbain and Rex inspired me to make Johnathan and Magna. who i am still trying to develope their own characters.. rather poorly at this point. mostly because i haven't written much to justify why i made a design like that. I wish you good luck and happiness. and i wish you love. I hope that if this ever gets screen shot to him that things don't take a turn for the worst. i really do.

To Kestral, StandfortheLight, and other names they may go by, well i realized i already said my piece on things. kinda can't help that i'm actually kinda sad, mostly because i am dumb enough not to know how fur affinity works and still don't really. this isn't a very intuitive sight when signing on if people haven't notices. you are just expected to understand how this shit works and it is not the reason why. I didn't mean to spam him with so many notes before hand and so many notes afterwards. thats my piece on that.

To Xythan, I'm a shit writer, i haven't had the function or brain power to actually finish a god damned story i write, I suck, i am a loser whiner, quitter, with too much attention put into roleplaying than actually sitting down and actually writing a god damn story. plus not to mention i am trying to learn many things to become a great writer but I guess i'm not. I need to re-evaluate how to write, and start at the basics again. and also keep a goddamn consistent schedule and stop promising people so many things and play video games. It took me twenty years to finally grow a spine and its twenty years to late for some people.

To everybody who followed this page. I'm sorry to disappoint. I had school, i had problems with self perception, i still have problem, they just aren't as big as other people's problems. I'm not mentally handy capped, I don't have severe depression, I don't have severe anxiety or sleep deprivation. The only thing I did have for a while was an unhealthy taste in men and poor self care. My problems were meaningless and they ate at me like nothing. so i'm sorry all those who I have wronged. I don't know how i can fit all that i could try to update in several days but it has got to be something. I could even drop this all together and just leave and never return. Seems the best anyway