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My Current State: Reaching the Limit
5 years ago
So, I am admittedly concerned about making this journal, but May has been... certainly not the worst month I've had since the lockdown started, but it certainly hasn't been all pleasant.
First off, I'd like to mention that I am now officially thirty and have been so far. But I'm not interested in letting stuff like that out anymore, so didn't both announcing it. As will be made clear, though, it's certainly had some major effect on me, combined with the problematic situations of both deviantART and FurAffinity.
So, here's the thing... I really feel like I'm at my limit with all the stress I've had the past few months. The lockdown killed any momentum I had the started the year with and trying to pick up again has been difficulty, not the least of which being that I have some real life issues with lots of family just not respecting my time and or at least not bothering to ask before making decisions that tend to drag me away from my computer for an entire day or even multiple days. I won't go into too much detail, but to say that I've had a lot less time than I'd like to work on pics, work on other projects outside of pics, game and spend time with family, it should be clear by now that I literally feel like I'm being pulled all over the place. A couple weeks ago I also had a nasty bout of food poisoning due to what could have been from my birthday dinner, so what a way to start off my thirties, right?
So, the past couple of weeks, since I got Nestor done, I've wanted to sit down and get working on pics again and maybe even start laying the groundwork for an interesting project that I am not going to go into details about for the sake of not getting anyone's hopes up. But as I said, didn't get to, and when I think I'm going to be able to again, I start seeing more problems with FA banning other members for no real reason, then see them not fixing any of the real issues they have going on and to top it off, DA also goes and suddenly drops Eclipse permanently on us with no way to go back to the old style and with massive issues that make dealing with it a major pain in the ass. Something I honestly didn't necessarily need at this point and I'm sure I can say the same with other people too.
And the worst part is that I still have so much left to finish, so many pictures for other people to get through and so many other things such as this being a major means of income for me. If I didn't have all of that, I think I would just... prematurely call it a day. Give up drawing art on here because it's currently not bringing me any joy, only problems and my own life is making me deal with a lot too. It is almost overwhelming.
But, I will say that despite that, I'll keep trying to trek on for as long as I can. I will try to keep up with DA and FA's tomfoolery and nonsense as best I can. I just wanted to let you all know what's been going on, but do not worry, I don't plan to go anywhere any time soon.
First off, I'd like to mention that I am now officially thirty and have been so far. But I'm not interested in letting stuff like that out anymore, so didn't both announcing it. As will be made clear, though, it's certainly had some major effect on me, combined with the problematic situations of both deviantART and FurAffinity.
So, here's the thing... I really feel like I'm at my limit with all the stress I've had the past few months. The lockdown killed any momentum I had the started the year with and trying to pick up again has been difficulty, not the least of which being that I have some real life issues with lots of family just not respecting my time and or at least not bothering to ask before making decisions that tend to drag me away from my computer for an entire day or even multiple days. I won't go into too much detail, but to say that I've had a lot less time than I'd like to work on pics, work on other projects outside of pics, game and spend time with family, it should be clear by now that I literally feel like I'm being pulled all over the place. A couple weeks ago I also had a nasty bout of food poisoning due to what could have been from my birthday dinner, so what a way to start off my thirties, right?
So, the past couple of weeks, since I got Nestor done, I've wanted to sit down and get working on pics again and maybe even start laying the groundwork for an interesting project that I am not going to go into details about for the sake of not getting anyone's hopes up. But as I said, didn't get to, and when I think I'm going to be able to again, I start seeing more problems with FA banning other members for no real reason, then see them not fixing any of the real issues they have going on and to top it off, DA also goes and suddenly drops Eclipse permanently on us with no way to go back to the old style and with massive issues that make dealing with it a major pain in the ass. Something I honestly didn't necessarily need at this point and I'm sure I can say the same with other people too.
And the worst part is that I still have so much left to finish, so many pictures for other people to get through and so many other things such as this being a major means of income for me. If I didn't have all of that, I think I would just... prematurely call it a day. Give up drawing art on here because it's currently not bringing me any joy, only problems and my own life is making me deal with a lot too. It is almost overwhelming.
But, I will say that despite that, I'll keep trying to trek on for as long as I can. I will try to keep up with DA and FA's tomfoolery and nonsense as best I can. I just wanted to let you all know what's been going on, but do not worry, I don't plan to go anywhere any time soon.
I know the feeling of having a lot too do, and a lot to focus on. Just try your best not to let it overwhelm you.
FA has almost always had rules vague enough that you can apply them on some piece of art here or there, but not defined enough that It can be properly fallowed. It's just repeating itself, the tip-jar is a good feature and a great isentive fro artists, but it also is a clue that they are much more on the financial side than art.. freedom side.
PS: Sorry for long post and probably very bad english. And thanks for reading it if you did.