During the time of my works I posted, I have thoughts of how beautiful and talented my artist FA I seen. Such as Tanio, Skaifox and more users who makes such beautiful arts. I thought I can do the same with photoshop. But I have this conundrum of should I fallow my own style or fallow whats beautiful. I even have thoughts of how I missing something. I even have thoughts of "My work is not beautiful and its ugly that is why Im not getting attentions or commissions in the fandom." Rarely other users chat with me as Im the only one who says hello to them as I started the conversation. It can get very isolating sometimes to find beings to chat with. Even more rare to find and share my interests or ideas with. Usually it just a simple hello and thats it. There are exceptions, but that is the usual. Im not trying to be the anchor as many beings have there own lives. Im just happy that they are fallowing there owns passions.


Envy can be my teacher.