things are not perfect for me but i sort of wanna come at this in a less negative way than i normally do so. i am going to be getting a medical marijuana card for myself. ive been experimenting with cannabis in various forms since the end of 2019 with varying degrees of success. the best combination for me has come to be more cbd and a touch of thc in the form of edibles. it helps me kick a LOT of the anxiety i have had and isn't nearly as destructive as anxiety medication. obviously it cannot be a permanent solution if i have children but in the meantime it is pretty good for destressing. hopefully in combination with some counseling, i can get things fixed, but, hey, no rush...

it also helps me kick art block, but lemme tell you, i loose a lot of coordination and while i get very inspired, the drawings look baaaad.

just a little interesting tidbit from me. happy pride and blm obviously. im not 100% but take care of yourselves