I'm using a new translator from this time.

I think the text is now easier to understand than before.

I would like to tell you about the current situation of me, my family and Japan.

It has now been more than three months since COVID-19 has put my entire family out of work.

My sister has lost all the money she had saved to buy a new car.

My father is 70 years old and can't borrow money from the bank, so my mother and I had to borrow money from the bank to keep our family alive, but the maximum we could borrow was also exhausted.

We have 12 cats (one of them needs weekly treatment), 5 dogs (4 are old), a crow, and a sparrow in our home, as well as the animals we rescued.

Summer in Japan is so hot that if you don't use air conditioning, you will die of heat stroke.

But the electricity bill for the air conditioner is very expensive.

When we were struggling to make ends meet, one of my relatives committed suicide.

I don't know what caused it, but he too was grieving, with no job and no money, so maybe he was a victim of COVID-19.

We had to hold a simple funeral for him and our family lost 5000USD.

Some time later, my sister's bicycle and my mother's beloved cart of 40 years were stolen as a follow-up.

We reported the theft, but we didn't know if we would be able to get them back, so we had to buy a new bike and cart.

Even the cheapest ones will cost 250USD for a bike and 100USD for a cart.

Furthermore, both of my refrigerators were broken.

We were using two large fridges to store animal food, so we had to buy a fridge of the same capacity and size, so we went for the cheapest one we could, but it cost us 2400USD for two fridges.

Everything was really, really badly timed and our family's debt exceeded 10000USD.

My mother is suffering more than anyone else from the debt due to repeated surgeries and weakness, and the suggestion of dying together as a family.

My sister and I can't do that, and my sister and I can't kill the animals or make them unhappy. But for three months now, we are all at the end of our physical and mental capacities.

The amount of money from Japan is 1000USD per person, and as we are a family of 4, all of it was used to pay for our relatives' funerals.

Now the whole family eats only once every two days and everything goes towards rent, gas, electricity, water and animal care.

If I get sick, I don't even have money to go to the hospital.

We are living on the edge with my income from my commission and what little food my sister and I receive from our wish list and the money we receive from the people who help us.

If my relatives hadn't committed suicide, we wouldn't be trapped in this situation, but I can't blame them for suffering and dying from poverty and hunger just like my family and I did.

There are food banks in only a few areas in Japan, and I hear that food banks are now full of people who have not had anything to eat for 3 or 4 days or who have lost their homes and are on the verge of starving to death.

Japan is not a country where people help each other, and it is natural for people to be able to take care of themselves, but if they cannot, they are ridiculed, discriminated against, and treated like beggars, so there are many Japanese who are starving to death even though there are food banks nearby.

I was treated like a beggar and hated by many of my Japanese friends just because I showed them my wish list for my birthday.

They also told me to kill the animals or give them away.

My depression was compounded by the poverty caused by COVID-19 and the persecution of poverty, which led to severe panic attacks and recurrent suicidal thoughts.

But I couldn't afford to go to the hospital, so I decided to hit me, hard, hard in the face, so that my panic and suicidal thoughts would come back. with pain and temporarily turn it off every day. It really is hell every day.

I am still able to communicate my SOS in words outside of Japan, but it's hard for me to communicate it in Japan. Few people are able to do this. As I wrote above, those who suffer from poverty are persecuted and hurt.

I want to help those who are suffering just as much as our family is. But I can't do that now.

This month, I need 800USD by the 23rd to pay the minimum payment for this month, except for food, because I also need to pay for a cooler.

If you have any good ideas, such as commitments, please email me. I don't have the mental energy left at the moment to read notes and comments. I'm sorry, I don't have enough mental strength to read notes and comments. I and our family are just trying to stay alive.

Email - memyou0616[at]gmail.com
PayPal - crowtsnct195[at]yahoo.co.jp
Ko-fi - https://ko-fi.com/memyou

Thank you for your support.
I don't want to succumb to poverty, COVID-19, or depression. I want to protect my family.