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[🚨 EMERGENCY] -> [💥 URGENT] -> [📢 IMPORTANT 4 CLIENTS] -> [ 📝 COMMISSION FORMS OPEN ] -> [🔔Update] -> [No Keywords]Just a quick July Journal to update the situation from this journal: https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9494572/ that I made back in May.
The dementia-like symptoms have eased, but still linger from day to day. The memory issues are not as bad, but of course are still causing issues from day to day. I can at least remember things I do from hour to hour, mostly.
However it's looking like the likely cause for most of my distress and problems is that I have serious Dopamine Receptor damage. For those who don't know what that means- basically my brain is currently severely incapable of experiencing pleasure, or feeling rewarded for doing small tasks. My brain is not processing the 'good feel chemical' that makes DOING things feel rewarding or make you happy. So because of this, I've been unable to get positive feedback in my head for things as simple as eating good food, cleaning, playing with my pet, talking to friends, drawing, writing, etc.
That wears down on a person fast, when all your efforts to do fun or enjoyable things you love is met with numbness in your head.
Being aware of it now, I'm doing my best to take time and be patient with it. Dopamine Receptor repair and recovery can apparently take as much as 12-16 months... which is oof, not great. This has already been going on for 8 months, now. The constant stress of current situations hasn't exactly helped. I'm hoping that I'll see improvement once all this is settled. For now, it's been. REALLY tough to deal with. I keep trying to get back to drawing and working on comms people are waiting on, but it feels literally impossible when your head is incapable of being motivated on a basic chemical level.
I offer again- if you ordered a commission and want to cancel it, PLEASE let me know right now. Once I get back to work, I won't be able to take cancellations because I'll need the income. So I'm offering the monthly 'cancel while you can if you want to.'
Hope everyone is doing alright, and you're all staying safe and healthy. Thank you for your patience with me.
The dementia-like symptoms have eased, but still linger from day to day. The memory issues are not as bad, but of course are still causing issues from day to day. I can at least remember things I do from hour to hour, mostly.
However it's looking like the likely cause for most of my distress and problems is that I have serious Dopamine Receptor damage. For those who don't know what that means- basically my brain is currently severely incapable of experiencing pleasure, or feeling rewarded for doing small tasks. My brain is not processing the 'good feel chemical' that makes DOING things feel rewarding or make you happy. So because of this, I've been unable to get positive feedback in my head for things as simple as eating good food, cleaning, playing with my pet, talking to friends, drawing, writing, etc.
That wears down on a person fast, when all your efforts to do fun or enjoyable things you love is met with numbness in your head.
Being aware of it now, I'm doing my best to take time and be patient with it. Dopamine Receptor repair and recovery can apparently take as much as 12-16 months... which is oof, not great. This has already been going on for 8 months, now. The constant stress of current situations hasn't exactly helped. I'm hoping that I'll see improvement once all this is settled. For now, it's been. REALLY tough to deal with. I keep trying to get back to drawing and working on comms people are waiting on, but it feels literally impossible when your head is incapable of being motivated on a basic chemical level.
I offer again- if you ordered a commission and want to cancel it, PLEASE let me know right now. Once I get back to work, I won't be able to take cancellations because I'll need the income. So I'm offering the monthly 'cancel while you can if you want to.'
Hope everyone is doing alright, and you're all staying safe and healthy. Thank you for your patience with me.
I recommend oat biscuits over digestives if you wanna go for some chocolatey ones, they're a lil tougher but it doesn't matter if you dunk them in tea
But yeahh- thanks dude. Working through it slowly, hope to be better on the other side.