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a loss
5 years ago
this journal is incredibly hard to write.
I was cuddling with my guinea pigs at around 10 PM on the 7th when I noticed that one of them, Peanut, had a large, hard lump on her left side. Naturally I was very worried, I thought something might be wrong with her stomach, she might've had some kind of gastrointestinal bloating, which can be a very serious condition for guinea pigs.
First thing the next day I got her into the vet. The doctor barely needed to look at her to know it wasn't bloating, it was some kind of tumor. I was stunned... I couldn't believe I had missed something so large and obvious, but I had. What had started out as a medical emergency that I felt confident I could deal with suddenly became something I was totally unprepared for. The doctor told me that anesthesia is risky for guinea pigs, and even if it wasn't, as a person living on disability, I knew I wouldn't be able to afford it. There was only one option.
I've had guinea pigs for a very long time, and losing one is always heartbreaking, but this time it was different. I'd never had to have one put to sleep. For a while I just held her and cried, trying to give her as much love as I could before she had to go, hoping that I'd somehow wake up, that it was all just a nightmare.
I can't put into words how much I miss my little monster right now. I keep looking over at their cage expecting to see her there, but all I see is one lonely-looking guinea pig. I've been trying to give Bramble as much attention as I possibly can.
To all my friends, please understand I'm probably not going to be too chatty for a while.
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/37187606/
I was cuddling with my guinea pigs at around 10 PM on the 7th when I noticed that one of them, Peanut, had a large, hard lump on her left side. Naturally I was very worried, I thought something might be wrong with her stomach, she might've had some kind of gastrointestinal bloating, which can be a very serious condition for guinea pigs.
First thing the next day I got her into the vet. The doctor barely needed to look at her to know it wasn't bloating, it was some kind of tumor. I was stunned... I couldn't believe I had missed something so large and obvious, but I had. What had started out as a medical emergency that I felt confident I could deal with suddenly became something I was totally unprepared for. The doctor told me that anesthesia is risky for guinea pigs, and even if it wasn't, as a person living on disability, I knew I wouldn't be able to afford it. There was only one option.
I've had guinea pigs for a very long time, and losing one is always heartbreaking, but this time it was different. I'd never had to have one put to sleep. For a while I just held her and cried, trying to give her as much love as I could before she had to go, hoping that I'd somehow wake up, that it was all just a nightmare.
I can't put into words how much I miss my little monster right now. I keep looking over at their cage expecting to see her there, but all I see is one lonely-looking guinea pig. I've been trying to give Bramble as much attention as I possibly can.
To all my friends, please understand I'm probably not going to be too chatty for a while.
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/37187606/
May her Memory be Eternal.