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5 years ago
hi im ren and you're watching disney channel
ive been in new york for a lil bit and im kinda mad. nobody told me when i would be leaving and that they were planning on sending me back home other than my mom asking me what kind of seat i wanted. but today i was told i'd be leaving in less than 2 weeks. its not like its me getting on a fucking plane or anything. i wanted to be up here for a lot longer than however long ive been here.
above that ive been trying to move here because school in the south is fucking torture on my mental health. but nobody will listen. and nobody will even try to find an arrangement for me. i dont care what i have to do to get the hell out of south carolina but "oh this is a teeny tiny little chapter in ur life!!!!!" yes but its still fucking miserable. a tiny chip in a huge bone still hurts like a bitch.
i just want to escape and just. not feel absolutely fucking miserable for once in my life. my depression spells have been getting more frequent and more severe. i just get hit with the sudden feeling of emptiness and sadness and my motivation to do anything but eat and eat and eat just drops completely. everything sucks ass my guy.
thanks for reading this, sorry if it sounds like a big pity party, i just needed to get some bullshit off my chest.
IAteABox
~fjorzek214
Wow... I seriously hope you’ll be able to push through all that. As someone in North Carolina who’s visited South Carolina a fair amount times, I can see why you hate it so much.
