I feel like it's time to give up now.

Another one of my aunties just passed away this morning.

I don't know how to feel about it right now though but I hate losing family members as anyone else does. I guess I'm just coping with it the only way I know how..

My art world is somewhat crumbling under me. I work hard and try to show my worth and hard work. I'm doing it for myself but also to put myself out there and maybe somewhat get some kind of interaction. Not just likes and faves. I wanna make money with my art, not just do trades.

My life sucks right now.. I have no motivation to really do what I wanna do nor do I have any rl friends I can count on. My escape is social media but nowadays that's a mistake.

I'm just tired of trying and trying and still getting nowhere and losing a family member doesn't help much.. The world is hell. Everything is just negative. There's nothing positive about whats going on. Nothing's gonna change. People are dying still regardless of the virus.

I'll never be full of happiness. I'll never have a girlfriend, I'll never have my first kiss, let alone being intimate with a female. Yeah, I'm still a virgin at 35,i don't give a damn if ya know or not. I'm not ashamed at this point. I'm just a normal guy with low self-esteem and no motivation to move forward in life.

Just sick of it all. 😔