Firstly, I am still alive. Got off my meds because they made my brain very foggy and my memory and smarts practically nonexistent. It didn't help with depression at all...

Secondly, I haven't worked for 2 month and I am absolutely out of money. My gf has problems with work too, her salary is cut by 40% since april. Shit's so bad I had to ask mom for help (and I try not to do that, because she's done so much for me already and also I'm almost thirty).

I have a few people here and on telegram who are waiting for my replies. I haven't any strength for it still, I'm sorry((( I feel constantly guilty and ashamed because I promised and didn't deliver, and I can't even explain anything face to face. I will eventually, as soon as I get myself together(( I'm so afraid that I'm letting things spiral out of control AGAIN, I've worked so hard to work and function properly, and I've been doing so well!!!! I'm really, really scared that it's happening again. I so so hope I won't let too many customers down and at least half of them will forgive me for being like this.

I will refund moneys to people who had to wait for too long, the problem is I have to go back to work first. I'd rather draw my debts of course, but if some of you want refunds, there will be. I have no intention of scamming you guys.

I'm working on latest ychs I sold in june, but I'll have to try and sell something very soon. Hope I'll work everything out.

Thank you guys for staying with me <3 Love you so much!