So making this journal as a bit of an update.

This year has been a mess for everyone. As I'm writing this out over and over again. It is July 12th, I've just gotten back from my trip out to Wyoming to see the two people I love in my life. This is a journal I've been having a hard time writing because I honestly dont know when I will post this. But in March when everything here in New York shut down. I lost yet another job and I've been forced to stay in a home where there is constant fighting and arguing over stuff that there are facts to. I've honestly reached my limits on what I can handle before snapping. I attended a Black Lives Matter March and instantly became a terrorist to my fathers side of the family. I'm returning home to a full blown fight in my family because of how I have chosen to live my life.

Here I am adding more to this. I think I'll finally post this today. As I add to this it is now July 27th at 3:17am. The fighting here at the house hasn't gotten better. The fighting in the family has gotten worse, and I'm feeling I have no place to go. I constantly am threatened with homelessness if I dont shut my mouth and do as I'm ordered to do. And yes I just said ordered. I'm not asked to help out in the house with stuff, I'm ordered to do it all because I'm jobless and I cant get hired currently with how everything is around here. I have been losing sleep due to anxiety issues and continued mental brake downs. If I'm feeling better one of these days I'll post a few things I've got saved on my phone here and toss credit to the people I got the bases from, but as of right now. I'm not in a good frame of mind at all. I'm sorry