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5 years ago
Decided to make a journal that wasn't just about commissions!
I hope you guys are doing well today. I'm re-organizing the bathroom and getting rid of a bunch of old expired stuff. It's my eventual goal to do that to every cabinet in the house. I still have a bunch of junk left from when my parents lived here. I'm also working hard on staying fully medicated. So far I have gone 22 days without missing a dose!
I'm officially taking a break from my grocery store job in order to sort out some mental/physical health stuff and get my home back in order. They said I had a spot waiting for me when I want to come back but TBH I want to try and find a better job in the meantime. Ideally something where I get to sit and work with computers. A guy can dream.
Now that I have more time, I've started cooking for myself again instead of just throwing stuff in the microwave. It's felt nice. I ORDERED MYSELF A TOASTER. I HAVEN'T HAD A TOASTER IN THIS HOUSE FOR FOUR YEARS. It should be here tomorrow or the next day. I'm exciteeeddddd. It has a clear front so you can see how the toast is doing.
I've been reading more. I just finished up The Gryphon Generation and am now working my way through The Eyes of the Dragon. I have an entire plastic crate full of books I haven't had time to read.
My therapist and I are working through this weird delusion I've developed over the last couple years where I think if I'm invested in something it'll depreciate the value of said thing but only for me and not for anybody else so like. Say I really like Blue Dogs. Somebody else likes Blue Dogs. I'm the only one liking a 'dumb' thing. The thing becomes dumb once -I- like it. It's like there are two universes created. It fuuuucking sucks.
This spills over a little into my own creative projects. I start feeling frozen and embarrassed of my stories I've busted my ass and gone to COLLEGE in order to be good at writing. Again, it's something my therapist and I are working on. I've started joining various niche communities to try and build up my confidence again.
BUT ENOUGH DOOM AND GLOOM. I want to leave you, oh kind person who clicked on this, with some things to take with you!
COOL MUSIC: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qbyv-zYtiw0
FUNNY VIDEO: https://twitter.com/Razzly_/status/.....40770322092033
Thanks for looking!
I hope you guys are doing well today. I'm re-organizing the bathroom and getting rid of a bunch of old expired stuff. It's my eventual goal to do that to every cabinet in the house. I still have a bunch of junk left from when my parents lived here. I'm also working hard on staying fully medicated. So far I have gone 22 days without missing a dose!
I'm officially taking a break from my grocery store job in order to sort out some mental/physical health stuff and get my home back in order. They said I had a spot waiting for me when I want to come back but TBH I want to try and find a better job in the meantime. Ideally something where I get to sit and work with computers. A guy can dream.
Now that I have more time, I've started cooking for myself again instead of just throwing stuff in the microwave. It's felt nice. I ORDERED MYSELF A TOASTER. I HAVEN'T HAD A TOASTER IN THIS HOUSE FOR FOUR YEARS. It should be here tomorrow or the next day. I'm exciteeeddddd. It has a clear front so you can see how the toast is doing.
I've been reading more. I just finished up The Gryphon Generation and am now working my way through The Eyes of the Dragon. I have an entire plastic crate full of books I haven't had time to read.
My therapist and I are working through this weird delusion I've developed over the last couple years where I think if I'm invested in something it'll depreciate the value of said thing but only for me and not for anybody else so like. Say I really like Blue Dogs. Somebody else likes Blue Dogs. I'm the only one liking a 'dumb' thing. The thing becomes dumb once -I- like it. It's like there are two universes created. It fuuuucking sucks.
This spills over a little into my own creative projects. I start feeling frozen and embarrassed of my stories I've busted my ass and gone to COLLEGE in order to be good at writing. Again, it's something my therapist and I are working on. I've started joining various niche communities to try and build up my confidence again.
BUT ENOUGH DOOM AND GLOOM. I want to leave you, oh kind person who clicked on this, with some things to take with you!
COOL MUSIC: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qbyv-zYtiw0
FUNNY VIDEO: https://twitter.com/Razzly_/status/.....40770322092033
Thanks for looking!
Sounds like you're taking some important steps to getting to a better place emotionally and career-wise, I hope that works out for you!
Also clear toaster holy shit I love seeing how things work and I had no idea that was a thing! I'm the sort of dork that would find that utterly fascinating for at least the first three toastings. Sounds like I need to actually get around to commissioning you again when you're ready so I can contribute to the Wolfy Toast Fund because I get the feeling you'll be going through a LOT of bread.
What sort of "various niche communities" are you joining? I remember from past journals it seemed like you were exploring some different kinks a bit, is it related to that?
Also I have a semi-serious question on the subject of "vore" (I remember that came up recently in one of your journals) since it kinda grosses me out but I still want to try to draw it myself for some weird reason, maybe you can answer this for me since you're cool like that and tolerate my random questions about Art Shit... I know the prey creature has to be alive, but does it have to be sapient/sentient, or could I just have some fox hit up the pet store for a six-pack of feeder rats, would that still count?
I didnt know they made clear toasters but I was on voice chat with a buddy while I was shopping and she was shopping along side me because that's fun and she showed me and I was like !!!!!!!
for the niche stuff I've been looking into G/t which is Giant/Tiny which is kind of like Micro / Macro but I think it focuses a little more on fluffy interactions than sexual stuff (I'm still learning I could be wrong) I just really love the idea of a giant or a teeny person adapting to their surroundings or interacting with each other.
I'm also in a buddy's vore server that focuses slightly on giant beings.
LET ME BE UR GUIDE. Fun fact: the prey does NOT have to be alive or even whole! There is soft vore (safe vore) and hard vore (death, gore, digestion etc...) so take your pick. Prey does not have to be sapient! Pred doesn't either!
Vore isn't one of my big things, I'm moreso focused on a good round tummy. If vore helps that happen and it stays within a certain size range, I'm cool with it. Otherwise I just kind of make a face and move on. I'm more into chubby characters, mild weight gain, or stuffing. All fictional of course!
Do they make other clear appliances? And what is the outside of the toaster made of, is it plastic or something else? This seems like it would have been the coolest thing ever when I was a kid.
While we're inventing cool appliances, somebody needs to come up with a microwave that has a "mute" function for when you're trying to heat up your bachelor chow at 2am or you just don't want to hear a ton of beeping.
Like 95% of the giant stuff I see is some sort of fetish or kink thing but the idea of a larger character just sorta interacting in a friendly way or just sorta trying to adapt to a different environment sounds really cool. I know you recently designed a giant bug man, is he at all related to the new interest in giants or is he just for vore stuff?
That's good to know! When you say the prey doesn't have to be "alive or even whole" is it still "vore" if it's, like, a wolf eating a cheeseburger? How broad does it go? I guess that means that one time I drew little Sawyer with some bones around him and implied he ate one of his classmates technically makes that one "vore" then, and I had no idea. I've always been exposed to... well, what comes to mind when you hear that word, the weird fetish stuff.
For a while I've wanted to try drawing something vore related but in a cartoonish sense, I guess. Giant carnivorous plant was one I keep thinking of, some poor creature getting caught in a giant Venus flytrap or pitcher plant or something, or maybe that fat space jerboa Markeb eating live space rodents out of a bucket or something. Guess it couldn't hurt to push my limits a bit and try it! If I have any questions I'll let you know.
Speaking of swallowing live prey whole... how's the snake doing? I remember you got a snake a while back, or were working towards getting one. How has that been going?
Ah, the big round bellies, that explains why you've followed me on my artistic journey all these years!
(I know that's not the main reason but it's interesting to find out you enjoy that sort of thing.)
I think everybody has interests like that, where it's not one of our "big things" but it ties into something we do like so within reason we can get behind it sometimes. I think that's how I am with the bondage and pet-play sort of stuff, it ties into embarrassment.