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Update - Possibly Moving On
5 years ago
Whew, sure has been a while since I did one of these... where do I even begin?
Well, first things first. Now, I know I have reached way over a thousand watchers and I thank each and every one of you for sticking around and liking my content. But I'm afraid that's gonna change sometime in the future, should I go through with my plans. I'll talk more about that later.
In other topics, I just got done with my apprenticeship at my field of work so now I'm a fully certified construction worker and will have a much easier time getting employed elsewhere should I choose to. So that is great news for me and my future as a construction worker. Now all I can focus on now is my driver's license ("Jaren, you're almost 24 years old and you still don't have a driver's license?" - Look, I live close to my workplaces, I don't NEED a driver's license, but I will focus on it now since I want to eventually move out of my city, and I need a car to get from point A to point B.)
But time to get the meat of this update and it may be my last on this website. NO I'M NOT DYING, calm down.
I'm reaching the end of the line for me and my time in this website, turns out declaring myself a non fur was highly beneficial to me. However, I might be looking at a possible future of selling all of my characters and moving on with a new identity. 2020 has been rough, that should come as no surprise to anybody at this point, but for me personally I've endured a lot of internal matters that I'm not going to speak out on. But to give an idea, the internal matters have caused me to doubt myself, raise the bar significantly on my trust issues to the point where anything anybody says, I don't believe them at all. This applies to supposed friends and acquaintances - even family. I've always considered myself a loner, with a high preference to social drinking and messing around with no strings attached. I feel like my time in my current circle has lead me to think and behave differently, what I mean by that is that'm slowly regressing to my old toxic behavior from when I was a somewhat violent and uncontrollable teenager. As a teenager, I hung around the wrong crowds, and did things to people I still regret to this day.
The circle I'm in, sadly, is turning out to be a cauldron where my blood is boiled to the point of blowing up in people's faces when the old me is given the chance at coming out. I don't like it when the old me comes out, but I can't stop it from coming out when people enable it and then call me things and sic blame on me when I lose control. Which is why I'm not all that active in the places I'm part of and like to keep to myself, or spending time with one other person and that person only. Which is what I have been doing lately, because they make me feel calm and collected as opposed to others.
So, all in all, that's what might happen in the future, I don't know when and I don't know how. But when and if the time comes, all of my characters will be put up for sale, and this account will either get terminated or left as a reminder of who I was. I have a character that nobody has ever seen, nor will I reveal them to the public, they are my backup as of now until the time comes for me to move with a new identity.
But until then, I hope you continue to like my content, if you would like to get to know me a little better, head on over to my twitter and give me a follow, that is where you have the highest chance of interacting with me :)
https://twitter.com/TyderianDreams
https://twitter.com/TyderianDreams
https://twitter.com/TyderianDreams
Well, first things first. Now, I know I have reached way over a thousand watchers and I thank each and every one of you for sticking around and liking my content. But I'm afraid that's gonna change sometime in the future, should I go through with my plans. I'll talk more about that later.
In other topics, I just got done with my apprenticeship at my field of work so now I'm a fully certified construction worker and will have a much easier time getting employed elsewhere should I choose to. So that is great news for me and my future as a construction worker. Now all I can focus on now is my driver's license ("Jaren, you're almost 24 years old and you still don't have a driver's license?" - Look, I live close to my workplaces, I don't NEED a driver's license, but I will focus on it now since I want to eventually move out of my city, and I need a car to get from point A to point B.)
But time to get the meat of this update and it may be my last on this website. NO I'M NOT DYING, calm down.
I'm reaching the end of the line for me and my time in this website, turns out declaring myself a non fur was highly beneficial to me. However, I might be looking at a possible future of selling all of my characters and moving on with a new identity. 2020 has been rough, that should come as no surprise to anybody at this point, but for me personally I've endured a lot of internal matters that I'm not going to speak out on. But to give an idea, the internal matters have caused me to doubt myself, raise the bar significantly on my trust issues to the point where anything anybody says, I don't believe them at all. This applies to supposed friends and acquaintances - even family. I've always considered myself a loner, with a high preference to social drinking and messing around with no strings attached. I feel like my time in my current circle has lead me to think and behave differently, what I mean by that is that'm slowly regressing to my old toxic behavior from when I was a somewhat violent and uncontrollable teenager. As a teenager, I hung around the wrong crowds, and did things to people I still regret to this day.
The circle I'm in, sadly, is turning out to be a cauldron where my blood is boiled to the point of blowing up in people's faces when the old me is given the chance at coming out. I don't like it when the old me comes out, but I can't stop it from coming out when people enable it and then call me things and sic blame on me when I lose control. Which is why I'm not all that active in the places I'm part of and like to keep to myself, or spending time with one other person and that person only. Which is what I have been doing lately, because they make me feel calm and collected as opposed to others.
So, all in all, that's what might happen in the future, I don't know when and I don't know how. But when and if the time comes, all of my characters will be put up for sale, and this account will either get terminated or left as a reminder of who I was. I have a character that nobody has ever seen, nor will I reveal them to the public, they are my backup as of now until the time comes for me to move with a new identity.
But until then, I hope you continue to like my content, if you would like to get to know me a little better, head on over to my twitter and give me a follow, that is where you have the highest chance of interacting with me :)
https://twitter.com/TyderianDreams
https://twitter.com/TyderianDreams
https://twitter.com/TyderianDreams
