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Update (Conflicting Thoughts And Hiatus)
5 years ago
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Hey, how's it going? Just thought I'd give an update about what's happening with me. To sum it up, it seems that I'm on hiatus. Well...Have been since my last upload on here...Maybe before that...
So I reopened my aesthetics business at the beginning of July. Things were a bit overwhelming at first 'cause of all the extra cleaning I have to do, and other protocols that have to be done. Things were getting better (I've never been so chill in long periods of time in life) till just recently due to being overwhelmed once again, and being completely burnt out. I even had to call in sick at one of my jobs due to being exhausted and not mentally well...This is the 2nd time I've had to do this since last year...Ever since I reopened that place:
1. People are swarming at me left and right. It's nice that I have a clientele building up, but it's getting too much for me. Plus the next couple points give other reasons.
2. People are criticizing about my timing and service options (Apparently I'm "too quick" when one of my goals for this job was to be quicker with my timing...I started off extremely slow and have gotten faster now. As for not enough options, these people don't realize that I'm only 1 person and have only been taught specific things).
3. People are asking too much from me for what I do (Not just at my 2 jobs, but online as well with my art and audio...Sick of having to repeat myself with the same people asking about requests and audio when I have that info on my profile and some journal updates).
4. My money's being drained as fast as last year (If not, faster).
5. I just can't seem to catch a break and hardly have any days off. The only breaks I've had were just 2 Thursdays and last weekend (Which is extremely rare for me to have off). Even with just those days off it's not enough to enjoy the things I want to do. I could always ask for a vacation, but at the same time I'm trying to conserve my vacation times. And there's not really anywhere to go due to what the world's come to.
Every day I question about whether what I do is worth it, or if I'm doing a good job. I lack social skills, logic, am indecisive, and can't sit still for long periods of time. I contemplate about quitting one of my jobs, or both. One of them I don't enjoy at all but need for benefits, higher pay, and affordability. The other I highly enjoy, and need for gaining experience, and to make into a full time job so I can quit the one I don't enjoy. But with this job I enjoy:
1. I'm not making as much as the one I don't enjoy (Even when fully booked).
2. There are too many things to keep up with since I'm only 1 person managing 3 different services with multiple options and different amounts of cleanup times.
3. Money's spilling outta my butt faster than what I have to pay for at home due to materials & rent costs, and no microwave (Have to get takeout half the time so I don't go hungry).
4. We're in a town and county filled with miserable, spoiled, rotten, sketchy, alcoholic, drug-headed cheapskates. The only crowd I've drawn in are ones that would rather go to places with cheap pricing (I've had a mani/pedi special for a total of $25 since I reopened. When I had the $10 pedicure special last year, I was only able to keep a handful of the many clientele that showed up 'cause the ones I didn't keep either no-showed, or would talk about affordable pricing at different locations, and/or have wanted me to extend the times on how long to keep my cheap prices for, and/or have wanted me to give senior discounts when I can't due to how specific businesses work).
No matter how many resumes I hand out online and offline, I never get a call back. And I definitely don't want to work at restaurants. I'm lost again and don't know what to do. I try to be patient, go with the flow, and hope for the best in my future, only to remain stuck in limbo, and have one thing happen after another. I miss making art and audio often, I miss going to entertainment events, and I miss hanging out with friends and relatives...There are so many things I want in life, but I can't have them due to the cost of everything and other obstacles getting in the way.
So I reopened my aesthetics business at the beginning of July. Things were a bit overwhelming at first 'cause of all the extra cleaning I have to do, and other protocols that have to be done. Things were getting better (I've never been so chill in long periods of time in life) till just recently due to being overwhelmed once again, and being completely burnt out. I even had to call in sick at one of my jobs due to being exhausted and not mentally well...This is the 2nd time I've had to do this since last year...Ever since I reopened that place:
1. People are swarming at me left and right. It's nice that I have a clientele building up, but it's getting too much for me. Plus the next couple points give other reasons.
2. People are criticizing about my timing and service options (Apparently I'm "too quick" when one of my goals for this job was to be quicker with my timing...I started off extremely slow and have gotten faster now. As for not enough options, these people don't realize that I'm only 1 person and have only been taught specific things).
3. People are asking too much from me for what I do (Not just at my 2 jobs, but online as well with my art and audio...Sick of having to repeat myself with the same people asking about requests and audio when I have that info on my profile and some journal updates).
4. My money's being drained as fast as last year (If not, faster).
5. I just can't seem to catch a break and hardly have any days off. The only breaks I've had were just 2 Thursdays and last weekend (Which is extremely rare for me to have off). Even with just those days off it's not enough to enjoy the things I want to do. I could always ask for a vacation, but at the same time I'm trying to conserve my vacation times. And there's not really anywhere to go due to what the world's come to.
*Warning: Some Emotional Venting*Every day I question about whether what I do is worth it, or if I'm doing a good job. I lack social skills, logic, am indecisive, and can't sit still for long periods of time. I contemplate about quitting one of my jobs, or both. One of them I don't enjoy at all but need for benefits, higher pay, and affordability. The other I highly enjoy, and need for gaining experience, and to make into a full time job so I can quit the one I don't enjoy. But with this job I enjoy:
1. I'm not making as much as the one I don't enjoy (Even when fully booked).
2. There are too many things to keep up with since I'm only 1 person managing 3 different services with multiple options and different amounts of cleanup times.
3. Money's spilling outta my butt faster than what I have to pay for at home due to materials & rent costs, and no microwave (Have to get takeout half the time so I don't go hungry).
4. We're in a town and county filled with miserable, spoiled, rotten, sketchy, alcoholic, drug-headed cheapskates. The only crowd I've drawn in are ones that would rather go to places with cheap pricing (I've had a mani/pedi special for a total of $25 since I reopened. When I had the $10 pedicure special last year, I was only able to keep a handful of the many clientele that showed up 'cause the ones I didn't keep either no-showed, or would talk about affordable pricing at different locations, and/or have wanted me to extend the times on how long to keep my cheap prices for, and/or have wanted me to give senior discounts when I can't due to how specific businesses work).
No matter how many resumes I hand out online and offline, I never get a call back. And I definitely don't want to work at restaurants. I'm lost again and don't know what to do. I try to be patient, go with the flow, and hope for the best in my future, only to remain stuck in limbo, and have one thing happen after another. I miss making art and audio often, I miss going to entertainment events, and I miss hanging out with friends and relatives...There are so many things I want in life, but I can't have them due to the cost of everything and other obstacles getting in the way.
Speaking of the spa owner, I had a talk with her about my issues and she's understandable of the situation I'm in since she's practically in the same boat as me (Except the money part 'cause she's more booked than me, and she doesn't have a 2nd job).