I've been trying to draft this up since the start of august. I keep putting it off, I was hoping to get some more uploads up to soften the blow. But I have to get it out today because the longer I wait the worse it's going to get and the next train wreck real life mess will come my way...

So first of all hi guys, I have to be the bearer of bad news again. I've already said most of this in my discord server about a week ago, so if you've read it there then you don't have to look at it all again. For everyone else though, rip the bandaid off: I am cancelling my commissions list again. All of the tiers, all of the slots, I'm wiping it clean. Now what this means is:

A: If you've already got a slot from me and the work is in a started state, I will attempt to finish it. I can't guarantee it though, in some instances I'll only be able to finish it partly. I'm looking into finding possible collab situations where someone else could pick up where I left off with the psd files or whatever. I'll talk to people individually if they're okay with that kind of compromise.

B: I am refunding what I can, partly or fully, regardless of the above. I don't want there to be any bad blood over money with this, so that's a given and also, if you're okay with the collab ideas above, I'll do everything I can to organize that at no extra cost to you.

If you don't fit into the above and/or I haven't' started on your actual commission yet, I'm very sorry, but I'm not going to be able to. I initially said in my server it was passion. I've somehow lost my passion to work on certain things, and I feel bad about that cause when I agreed to these ideas, I know I probably sounded the total opposite at the time. I was invested. At some point over the last year or so I have lost the drive to work on anything, and until I can find a way to get it back, I'm done stringing people along on the chance I'll get to this stuff.

That all still stands, but since then and on top of that the world has thrown all it can in the last week or so to absolutely break me. I don't want to elaborate on that right now, but it falls into the category of "Family matters." Family bullshit, to be blunt. Something is going on in my life and every single day a new piece of bullshit is flung my way. Until that is resolved, I can't even begin to think about any long term work on this kind of stuff.

So yeah, another depressing journal. I'm not planning to delete things, (in fact I'm looking into people who could keep backups of all my unfinished stuff in the even I can't get on a computer in the future. Because yeah... that's a real possibility too, fuck my life. -_-) and there is still room for me to come back to this. I've been jokingly saying at some point in the future I'll be streaming proper again and we'll have "Make Nick Great Again" days. >w< There's room for this to continue but I would not blame a single person for wanting to look elsewhere right now. In fact I recommend it.

So... yeah. I'll try to let everyone I can know what's going on just in case you don't see this journal. The link to the list will go down soon after. And for now, Nick the Bogan Dragon Spawn of the Devil (don't ask >w<) signing off.