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Having a shit time of it, when it rains-(Update, I guess)
5 years ago
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Thought I'd post a journal on things.
Not that anyone on here really gives a shit. Pretty sure people only show up for the porn but whatever.
At the beginning of this month, I think the 3rd(?) we had a power outtage that took out power to the entire neighborhood from 6:30-7:00 PM to 1:50 AM in the morning.
Lightning struck three places in our yard, closest was 20ft away from me. Not saying I could've been electrocuted to death...but I could've been electrocuted to death probably.
So whatever.
Go to turn the PC on.
Black screen, won't display. Have to wait about five days for a new wifi modem because ours was fried. Left to be depressed and ponder if my shit is gone(again). We finally get one. Ask around and look up that its the power supply. Have to borrow money because I don't paid shit on this fucking website to have ANYTHING left over to actually replace anything when it breaks.
Fuck this website, I can't wait until I pass my GED so I can get a real job then abandon this shithole. "Freelance art is profitable" my ass. I literally haven't been paid in months pre THIS month.
Get paid $75 which entirely went to my fucking bank fining me $50 something fucking dollars because the money my friend sent me apparently didn't show up on PayPal fast enough so Ebay thought it wasn't there and fined me. Had to pay back what it took out of my negative bank(fucking shocker) and the like $30 fucking fine.
So there goes my fucking $75.
If I had money I'd refund every commission I haven't started on this site and be done with it.
The first money I think I have been paid in months and bye bye it is gone. All of it. I have $20 now I think but that's it. And it all went to this power supply.
Put the power supply in. It doesn't work. Same fucking thing as it did before hand.
Because of my lack of money and this computer being dead, I missed several limited edition Ebay items I had been waiting months for. So again, fuck this site, shit art job, and my nonexistent income. Forget having money for shit I actually want or hobbies to peruse, I can't even pay to replace my PC or fix it.
Fucking hate this site. Commissions are a waste and load of shit. I am never paid consistently enough, I alternate between working with assholes or having people threatening to PayPal charge back me constantly. This "job" is worth NOTHING, especially monetary gain. I don't get any joy out of this job, I'm pretty sure everyone knows it by now. I yearn for the day I pass my GED for the sole reason as soon as I do, get a real job, and finish my last commissions I will be abandoning this site. what a happy fucking day. I'm not a furry. I don't fucking belong here. I don't need to be told a lot by random assholes who note me out of nowhere why they want to suck horse cock. Keep your degenerate shit to yourself, unless you're paying me for art. I'm not clicking your livecam scam links. Fuck off.
So the PC is still dead.
I can't draw. I haven't drawn. I literally only have this laptop and my windows 10 which I do not want to use again because if anyone remembers, it ran like SHIT. Working off it was a FUCKING N I G H T M A R E. I can't draw on this laptop that barely runs and gives me a head ache.
Forget fucking commssions, I haven't drawn for MYSELF either. So I am not having fun. I am in a shit mood.
And to add to my issues, might wanna look away lads if you're bothered by this...
I've been PMSing OUT THE ASS. I hate being a woman sometimes fuck this shit. I'm normally not bothered by it but this month chose to give me nearly crippling cramps, vomiting and constant emotional swings.
I'm talking "what 1800s men think women were like" emotional swings. Thank god I am single for I would feel shit for whatever man has to deal with me violently sobbing while watching Spongebob and eating everything in sight.
I am literally crying more than two times daily every day at this point. Between PMSing and my current situation I am not having a good time of it.
Back to the PC. I have NO ONE to fix it. Why? The only person I trust with my computer who recovered my last art files issues had/ or still has covid. He will not wear a mask. he coughs constantly. I am not getting near him. He won't do curb stop. I have crippling Asthma and am constantly getting sick.
Assuming I wanted a certain death wish and wanted to take it to him I couldn't anyways.
Why? Well, he's hired N E W T E C H S. New Techs, you say? W hat is so bad about that, you say?
The girl tech fully admitted "I am still learning." Yeaaaaaaaaa. No, motherfucker. I am not having my PC be gang raped in oblivion because some teenagers need experience. I fully support teenagers and giving them on-job experience, after all you have to start somewhere, but my 350-400$ PC I spent MONTHS, a shit load of art, and borrowed money to buy and set up is not going to be your patient 0.
I asked PC man if he'd work on it specifically for me. He alternated between saying he would and then dodging the question and his techs seemed eager for my PC. Tech said he'd give it to PC man specifically, then let slip "I'll have it taken care of myself". Yea fuck off. He'd given it to the tech. All the bad reviews on his google reviews is LITERALLY about how EVERY TECH he hires breaks the Pc. If you don't work directly with him you might as well fuck off.
And even for some reason I was suicidal and wanted to risk certain death and throw my PC under every bus in the entire fucking planet with some damn T E E NS they're so busy they can't answer phone calls, and are working to midnight almost every night when they close at 6:00.
The tech says he'd "put it in a box with a note" a.k.a. my Pc would never be seen again and I assume sold into some sex trafficking PC ring for parts.
So I cant take it to literally THE ONLY PERSON ON THIS ENTIRE FUCKING PLANET I TRUST WITH THE PC.
So now what? now what the utter fuck do I do? I can't repair it myself. I tried and nothing happened. Now what? The tech fucking claims he needs to "reset the motherboard" because it "controls Java scripts"??? what the fuck does that mean? Is that true?
Does ANYONE on this fucking side know how to reset the motherboard on a HP Workstation z230?
i don't know what to do anymore. I have to find some complete stranger to take it to. And even then, I don't have money for the fucking REPAIRS. I don't have money for the fuckIng PARTS. I don't have money for a potential entire fucking COMPUTER replacement. Don't even get me started on my emotional and mental issues I am already dealing with.
Further shit happening to me? I somehow have some kind of fucking rope burn across my ass. I have no fucking clue where the literal goddamn hell I would've got some kind of rope burn across my ass, specifically the tailbone. I can barely sit I am in such excruciating pain. Just woke up the other day and O H WHA T IS THIS?
MY
ASS
IS
ON
FIRE.
Fuck. My ass. It hurts.
So yea TL;dr fuck my life I wish the lightning would've killed me. Feel free to suggest anything I'm open.
Not that anyone on here really gives a shit. Pretty sure people only show up for the porn but whatever.
At the beginning of this month, I think the 3rd(?) we had a power outtage that took out power to the entire neighborhood from 6:30-7:00 PM to 1:50 AM in the morning.
Lightning struck three places in our yard, closest was 20ft away from me. Not saying I could've been electrocuted to death...but I could've been electrocuted to death probably.
So whatever.
Go to turn the PC on.
Black screen, won't display. Have to wait about five days for a new wifi modem because ours was fried. Left to be depressed and ponder if my shit is gone(again). We finally get one. Ask around and look up that its the power supply. Have to borrow money because I don't paid shit on this fucking website to have ANYTHING left over to actually replace anything when it breaks.
Fuck this website, I can't wait until I pass my GED so I can get a real job then abandon this shithole. "Freelance art is profitable" my ass. I literally haven't been paid in months pre THIS month.
Get paid $75 which entirely went to my fucking bank fining me $50 something fucking dollars because the money my friend sent me apparently didn't show up on PayPal fast enough so Ebay thought it wasn't there and fined me. Had to pay back what it took out of my negative bank(fucking shocker) and the like $30 fucking fine.
So there goes my fucking $75.
If I had money I'd refund every commission I haven't started on this site and be done with it.
The first money I think I have been paid in months and bye bye it is gone. All of it. I have $20 now I think but that's it. And it all went to this power supply.
Put the power supply in. It doesn't work. Same fucking thing as it did before hand.
Because of my lack of money and this computer being dead, I missed several limited edition Ebay items I had been waiting months for. So again, fuck this site, shit art job, and my nonexistent income. Forget having money for shit I actually want or hobbies to peruse, I can't even pay to replace my PC or fix it.
Fucking hate this site. Commissions are a waste and load of shit. I am never paid consistently enough, I alternate between working with assholes or having people threatening to PayPal charge back me constantly. This "job" is worth NOTHING, especially monetary gain. I don't get any joy out of this job, I'm pretty sure everyone knows it by now. I yearn for the day I pass my GED for the sole reason as soon as I do, get a real job, and finish my last commissions I will be abandoning this site. what a happy fucking day. I'm not a furry. I don't fucking belong here. I don't need to be told a lot by random assholes who note me out of nowhere why they want to suck horse cock. Keep your degenerate shit to yourself, unless you're paying me for art. I'm not clicking your livecam scam links. Fuck off.
So the PC is still dead.
I can't draw. I haven't drawn. I literally only have this laptop and my windows 10 which I do not want to use again because if anyone remembers, it ran like SHIT. Working off it was a FUCKING N I G H T M A R E. I can't draw on this laptop that barely runs and gives me a head ache.
Forget fucking commssions, I haven't drawn for MYSELF either. So I am not having fun. I am in a shit mood.
And to add to my issues, might wanna look away lads if you're bothered by this...
I've been PMSing OUT THE ASS. I hate being a woman sometimes fuck this shit. I'm normally not bothered by it but this month chose to give me nearly crippling cramps, vomiting and constant emotional swings.
I'm talking "what 1800s men think women were like" emotional swings. Thank god I am single for I would feel shit for whatever man has to deal with me violently sobbing while watching Spongebob and eating everything in sight.
I am literally crying more than two times daily every day at this point. Between PMSing and my current situation I am not having a good time of it.
Back to the PC. I have NO ONE to fix it. Why? The only person I trust with my computer who recovered my last art files issues had/ or still has covid. He will not wear a mask. he coughs constantly. I am not getting near him. He won't do curb stop. I have crippling Asthma and am constantly getting sick.
Assuming I wanted a certain death wish and wanted to take it to him I couldn't anyways.
Why? Well, he's hired N E W T E C H S. New Techs, you say? W hat is so bad about that, you say?
The girl tech fully admitted "I am still learning." Yeaaaaaaaaa. No, motherfucker. I am not having my PC be gang raped in oblivion because some teenagers need experience. I fully support teenagers and giving them on-job experience, after all you have to start somewhere, but my 350-400$ PC I spent MONTHS, a shit load of art, and borrowed money to buy and set up is not going to be your patient 0.
I asked PC man if he'd work on it specifically for me. He alternated between saying he would and then dodging the question and his techs seemed eager for my PC. Tech said he'd give it to PC man specifically, then let slip "I'll have it taken care of myself". Yea fuck off. He'd given it to the tech. All the bad reviews on his google reviews is LITERALLY about how EVERY TECH he hires breaks the Pc. If you don't work directly with him you might as well fuck off.
And even for some reason I was suicidal and wanted to risk certain death and throw my PC under every bus in the entire fucking planet with some damn T E E NS they're so busy they can't answer phone calls, and are working to midnight almost every night when they close at 6:00.
The tech says he'd "put it in a box with a note" a.k.a. my Pc would never be seen again and I assume sold into some sex trafficking PC ring for parts.
So I cant take it to literally THE ONLY PERSON ON THIS ENTIRE FUCKING PLANET I TRUST WITH THE PC.
So now what? now what the utter fuck do I do? I can't repair it myself. I tried and nothing happened. Now what? The tech fucking claims he needs to "reset the motherboard" because it "controls Java scripts"??? what the fuck does that mean? Is that true?
Does ANYONE on this fucking side know how to reset the motherboard on a HP Workstation z230?
i don't know what to do anymore. I have to find some complete stranger to take it to. And even then, I don't have money for the fucking REPAIRS. I don't have money for the fuckIng PARTS. I don't have money for a potential entire fucking COMPUTER replacement. Don't even get me started on my emotional and mental issues I am already dealing with.
Further shit happening to me? I somehow have some kind of fucking rope burn across my ass. I have no fucking clue where the literal goddamn hell I would've got some kind of rope burn across my ass, specifically the tailbone. I can barely sit I am in such excruciating pain. Just woke up the other day and O H WHA T IS THIS?
MY
ASS
IS
ON
FIRE.
Fuck. My ass. It hurts.
So yea TL;dr fuck my life I wish the lightning would've killed me. Feel free to suggest anything I'm open.
I wish there was someway I could help but I don't really know shit about fixing computers.
I hate that you're suffering, you really don't deserve to be stuck.
I'm hoping the best for you!
being an artist is really hard unless you are popular, trust me I know. your work is lovely hon. really it is.
im really sorry about the pc stuff thats horrible. I wish I had better advice about that... I know pretty much nothing about computers.
but please stay strong you are cared about