It's not very easy to write this post and I can't get myself to write all details but before I disappear for a while (at least commission and artwise) I have to share really bad news..

Last Tuesday, merely minutes after I came back from the park, my mom's condition took a very gruesome turn.. The ambulance took her and no one in my family has seen her since.. (mostly because of covid restrictions)
All we had, was one phone call per day, telling us nothing but bad news.. one day at a time..
Pretty much nothing but pain and agony she has to endure..

Today they told us that they can't keep her in any longer, but she can't come back home either because she needs 24/7 care and special equipment we can't have..
And instead of letting her rest and pass easily, they're taking her to a facility, where she'll basically die alone and in enormous amount of pain.. All because it's illegal in here to go on your own terms..

Two years ago, when her well being took a drastic hit, I was petrified that what happens now, will happen.. And knowing that there's nothing that can be done, and that she's trapped out there...

It's just too much...
I'll be back at making music and being my usual self.. I just don't know when..

I love her so much and I'm so.. so sorry that I can't help her...

:(