If you follow me elsewhere you probs already know this, but in short around late June/early July I started having these constant headaches, and as they grew increasingly severe and constant, my desire and ability to draw came to a screeching halt, and my mood and mental health plummeted (on top of my state going into quarantine, and I was having some struggle coping). Since then I’ve been on one round of antibiotics. Which lowered the pain for a bit, but after a couple weeks it flared right back up again.

Recently I got diagnosed with chronic sinusitis, and I’m on a heavy antibiotic in the hopes of knocking it out for good. I think it’s working, but it’s a little early and I’m too up and down to really tell. I have a little more that two weeks to go on the script, but I’m hoping by the end of that stint I’ll be back to myself, and I’ll be able to finish all the WIPs and owed stuff I’ve been sitting on for months. Not being able to finish stuff like I used to isn’t a good feel, and I really do want to get back into regular drawing again.

Granted, I’ve been warned that the antibiotic (because it’s so strong and because I’m on it for three weeks) might wreck me internally for a while. I’ve been taking all the precautions I can for that, and so far it hasn’t happened. But if my recovery takes longer, it’d likely be due to that.

But hopefully it does work, otherwise it might be a sign that something worse is going on, and I’d have to get an MRI to figure it out. But most likely it won’t come to that, and I’m hopeful.

I do apologize for the slow uploads, less content, and my inability to keep up with interactions and messages, and lapses on managing my own server. I’m also sorry for all the promises I made that I failed to upkeep. I quickly found myself having good days and bad days, and even on good days I had a limited number of hours where my head was clear and I could write decent responses. And more I did in those hours, the quicker I became depleted, and the longer it would take before I had another “good” day. I’m still fighting that gross cycle and doing my best to take it easy, but it may be a few more weeks before I’m back to where I was early this year (god, it feels like forever ago when I was able to create my own stuff alongside balancing an art class, and crazy to think that was during this year).

I guess other update is I’ve started suspending my Patreon. I suspended it for this month, and based on whether I reach the goals I set for myself, I may suspend it for September too. Note that you would still have to pay up front if you subscribed, so don’t think it’s a freebie. Just that if I don’t meet certain content quotas in a given month, I won’t charge for the next month. But once I’m back to my usual productivity, I do intend to give it a bit of a facelift, and hopefully offer some new stuff.