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A thank you and updates...lots of updates...
5 years ago
If I could start my life from scratch,
If I could take away the pain of my past,
If I had another chance i would do just that,
I'd give anything jus' to go right back...
If I could take away the pain of my past,
If I had another chance i would do just that,
I'd give anything jus' to go right back...
First and foremost, I want to appreciate every single watcher that has watched me recently, I know I'm not online much or very sociable due to issues I'll get into in a bit but I do notice and even poke around my watcher's galleries and eventually fav stuff that catches my interests. Good news is if you watched me cause you like the stuff in my gallery, I still got a folder full of artwork I have yet to post so there will be some stuff to look forward to however I admit I may have over indulged in my kinks and bought a bunch of kinky related artwork so yea, that's that. And I have some gifts that were given to me that aren't necessarily what I'm really into but hey, I'm sure someone out there in my watch list will love it so that stuff will get posted too. Still trying to get over my anxiety and try go reach out to people that did stuff or me in the past but I never properly thanked them or did something in return.
So the update...well for starters I haven't had a chance to get the help I need but a friend told me about calling a helpline anonymously and see where that goes so that maybe my first baby steps to getting my mental health in order. I still did some research on my own and I found this disorder is more than likely the true cause of the problems I've been having among other things but can't know for certain til a professional takes a look at my issues. https://www.mentalhelp.net/blogs/sh.....lity-disorder/
Also yesterday, as much as me and Jamilah have been through and been mated for 2+ years, she finally told me that as much as she loves me, having a family and living with each other will more than likely never happen due to things that has happened in her past. I guess we are just friends now so I'm back to being a single pringle...unsure of if I should really attempt to look for someone else.
TLDR version.
A) MANY THANKS AND ART INCOMING!!! (mostly kinky stuff though, my apologies)
B) Catching up with more people
C) May get help sooner than I think and I may have this https://www.mentalhelp.net/blogs/sh.....lity-disorder/
D) Forever alone q.q
So the update...well for starters I haven't had a chance to get the help I need but a friend told me about calling a helpline anonymously and see where that goes so that maybe my first baby steps to getting my mental health in order. I still did some research on my own and I found this disorder is more than likely the true cause of the problems I've been having among other things but can't know for certain til a professional takes a look at my issues. https://www.mentalhelp.net/blogs/sh.....lity-disorder/
Also yesterday, as much as me and Jamilah have been through and been mated for 2+ years, she finally told me that as much as she loves me, having a family and living with each other will more than likely never happen due to things that has happened in her past. I guess we are just friends now so I'm back to being a single pringle...unsure of if I should really attempt to look for someone else.
TLDR version.
A) MANY THANKS AND ART INCOMING!!! (mostly kinky stuff though, my apologies)
B) Catching up with more people
C) May get help sooner than I think and I may have this https://www.mentalhelp.net/blogs/sh.....lity-disorder/
D) Forever alone q.q
If you need someone to vent to or anything I'm here for you. I've dealt with anxiety and depression so I can generally understand what you're going through.
I'm also very sorry to hear about your girlfriend leaving you. Again, I'm here to talk if needed.
It happens and I'm used to this type of stuff so the wound isn't as deep as it could of been but it does hurt a bit none the less. I'm happy she said it now instead of later or else it would of been devastating.
I'm sorry but you shouldn't have to be used to it. I'm glad she said it now too. Trust me I wish I was just done with my ex GF when she left me rather than taking her back cause they just prolonged things. So I get that.
I suppose but I've been through quite a few so it doesn't hurt as much as it should. She was up front and that makes it better for everyone. I had that happen before in another relationship where we got back together but we ended up splitting once again.