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I'm not good at that, but it's affecting my productivity and I haven't been able to enjoy drawing or drawing at all.
I haven't done much and it's painful.
I didn't mention it last year because FA and a few of my watchers are very- insensitive.
My father passed away last October and it's been hard.
I've completely changed everything to be able to support my mom since, all my time goes to her, to be there when she needs me, no matter what. It's exhausting and, yeah, I can tell she's taking advantage of me and even expects me to do anything she asks without question or quarrel. I haven't had the time or drive to draw at all, it's painful and killing me. I honestly don't know what to do, my siblings don't go as far as I do, instead it seems like they've decided to let the weight of my father's passing control them. Becoming angrier and more reclusive, I'm stuck between needing to be a good daughter whenever I'm called upon and needing my own time and space again to create and relax.
It physically pains me at this point and I don't know what to do. He passed on October 3rd and it's coming up again, I feel like I'm being pushed towards an emotional outburst that won't be seen as me being overburdened but as me being selfish.
This all makes for a bad time and, even now I feel immense guilt for all the things I should be doing but can't.
I honestly have no idea what I'm doing.
-- Tsu
I'm not good at that, but it's affecting my productivity and I haven't been able to enjoy drawing or drawing at all.
I haven't done much and it's painful.
I didn't mention it last year because FA and a few of my watchers are very- insensitive.
My father passed away last October and it's been hard.
I've completely changed everything to be able to support my mom since, all my time goes to her, to be there when she needs me, no matter what. It's exhausting and, yeah, I can tell she's taking advantage of me and even expects me to do anything she asks without question or quarrel. I haven't had the time or drive to draw at all, it's painful and killing me. I honestly don't know what to do, my siblings don't go as far as I do, instead it seems like they've decided to let the weight of my father's passing control them. Becoming angrier and more reclusive, I'm stuck between needing to be a good daughter whenever I'm called upon and needing my own time and space again to create and relax.
It physically pains me at this point and I don't know what to do. He passed on October 3rd and it's coming up again, I feel like I'm being pushed towards an emotional outburst that won't be seen as me being overburdened but as me being selfish.
This all makes for a bad time and, even now I feel immense guilt for all the things I should be doing but can't.
I honestly have no idea what I'm doing.
-- Tsu
I had been a similar situation a couple of years back and I appreciate this a lot easier said than done but you always need some degree of 'me' time.
It's true, so much easier said than done, after a talk with my therapist about how my family and I are being affected and that I shouldn't feel guilty over needing my own space and time, I'm hoping it comes easier with time to realize I deserve my own time too.
I know you've been trying so hard to help your mom and you're taking way more than you should
Please try to get some time for yourself, especially with october coming soon, you'll need the space for yourself
Please take care and thanks for sharing this with us
It's nice to have support though, even as simple as it is. ❤
We do that so rarely, haha, I'm not very close to my brothers but I do try.
Again, sorry if this isn't of any help. But at the very least I hope you can dig yourself out of that ditch and find the light in your life once again. One of these days, you will be whole again! We're always here for you if you need a shoulder to cry on.
It's wonderful advice, I'll do my best to try and do it in little steps.
Thank you so much, I'm so humbled to have such wonderful people supporting me! 💖