I had strange things happen to my lately. I found that many activities I did in the past just...don't seem to be enjoyable anymore. In fact in the last days I did literally nothing. It is like I lost my "push" to do anything. For example on Thursday I had a planed car driving training and... I told my teacher I "don't feel like I should do it". Then I thought it is because of the stress or that I just been too scared to drive. But now I see that whatever I want to do anything I drop it, for pity reasons. I don't know if I should call it a lost of motivation, because I really want to do something, it's just...I don't do anything. Even to write this journal I had to constantly tell myself "continue!" as I worried I'm doing something bad.

I dunno if I should see a doctor. I was low on motivation in the past, but then at least I did something. When I hadn't wanted to draw I played games for example. Now I don't play them either. That's not OK. It comes even to a point when, if I hadn't must to eat something because one of my medicines requires it, I wouldn't even eat.

That's just plane wrong...