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Worst news of my life, and Youthful Bliss may be cancelle...

9 months ago
I got news last night that my mommy, RebeccaDragons , killed herself. I'm... not okay, not in the slightest. This is the worst news I've ever received in my life. I'm currently at the lowest point of my life (which is really saying something, if I'm being honest), and matters are only made worse by the fact that just last week was the previous worst week of my life.

I can't stop crying. I love her so much. More than I love myself. I feel like a part of me died with her. Part of me wants to follow her, but I've never been brave enough for any kind of self-harm... well, not before last night, anyway. I have some new scars on my arm this morning.

I honestly can't picture myself living without her. I had a plan to move to the Seattle area after graduating so I could be with her... but... nope, not happening, apparently. I just... miss her so much. I'm never gonna hug her again. The only time I'll hear her voice again is in voice messages on Telegram. I'm... not prepared for that. I don't want that. I want my mommy back. I wanna be in her arms again. God fucking damn it I'm in so much pain right now.

As for Youthful Bliss, I'm not sure if it's gonna continue. Mommy's character was crucial to the plot, and I was SO excited for her arc, I was gonna pour my soul into it... but it'll never happen.

If you've paid for a cameo in YB, I'll probably think of a new comic and grandfather you in. But for now... I need to focus on keeping myself alive. I'm genuinely scared I may kill myself by the end of the year.

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inflatablepretztail101
inflatablepretztail101

inflatablepretztail101

Digital And Traditional Artist
#link
9 months ago
*hugs and squeaks* Oh god, that's so horrible to deal with...
tomebq
tomebq

TomEBQ

#link #parent  
a month ago
Ur still role playing after someone fucking killed them selves. Jesus Christ. I find it so insensitive that so many people feel like they can do “so sorry for your loss” because it’s just empty. People aren’t actually sorry nor do they care because it doesn’t revolve them
inflatablepretztail101
inflatablepretztail101

inflatablepretztail101

Digital And Traditional Artist
#link #parent  
a month ago
No no no, that's not what I mean. uwu
I really am sorry for my their loss, and I like to hug them and squeak to help them feel better...
friskywoods
friskywoods

FriskyWoods

Anthro Artist
#link
9 months ago
I'm very sorry. I know others in the community have gone through what you are dealing with... have you asked Babystar for emotional support? She lost a friend in the same way.
discord96
discord96

Discord96

Writer
#link
9 months ago
Im sorry to hear that, little one. *crouches down and offers a hug*
piflechien54
piflechien54

piflechien54

Puppy Omega
#link
9 months ago
Sorry
but don't hurt yourself please
*big warm fluffy hug from puppy*
tacki
tacki

Tacki

Digital and Traditional Artist
#link
9 months ago
I have no idea what pain you might be going through right now. I'm so sorry that this happened. Take care of yourself Pandora and please be safe. *hug*
gedrean
gedrean

Gedrean

Writer
#link
9 months ago
Even by those who don't know you, you are Loved and Cherished.

I hope that you can find the strength to keep on, and to find new joys in life.

I hope that you can find the love in your life that you deserve, and that your world, and your life, are not taken away by this tragedy.

I hope that you can have the chance to learn what life has in store for you, and that you can grow and become the beautiful beast you were born to be.

And I hope that you can take comfort in knowing that, however tortured Rebecca may have been, you were clearly a GOOD THING in her life, and a bright spot in her darkness.

She is at peace now, and I hope you can be too.

I'm so sorry little one.
babysiras
babysiras

babysiras

#link
9 months ago
That sucks. No one should go through that alone. I know we are all strangers on the internet, but we are here for you.

Youthful Bliss was one of my favorite comics on this site, and I thank you for the joy you've give me with your story and your art. If you feel like hurting yourself, please look up your local suicide prevention hot line.

Depression and Suicide are a disease and the people that suffer from it are effected everyday. Remember that we are here to listen, to take some if your suffering onto ourselves. You need not carry your burdens alone
 
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rst
rst

RST

Photographer
#link
9 months ago
Sorry; but don't hurt yourself please. And you have to continue the YB's plot. Do it for honor the memory of your mother and satisfy the YB's fandom.
shart
shart

shart

Babby Bear
#link #parent  
9 months ago
it’s pandora’s comic and pandora’s pain, and thus, her choice.
yuruyui
yuruyui

yuruyui

#link #parent  
9 months ago
No, she doesn't have to. It's her decision whether to continue it or not.
marinaneira
marinaneira

marinaneira

She/Her 🌈 Please call me Marina
#link #parent  
9 months ago
She doesn’t have to do anything and she doesn’t have to satisfy ANYONE but herself.
sexygoatgod
sexygoatgod

SexyGoatGod

Filth Monger
#link #parent  
9 months ago
She owes you nothing, and demanding someone continue something that would bring them so much pain for the "fandom" is deplorable.
If she does continue, I hope it IS to honor her mommy's memory and NOT because of people like you.
airwolf1987
airwolf1987

airwolf1987

Babyfur Artist
#link #parent  
9 months ago
Do you understand what it's like to lose a part of yourself and then try to carry on in a creative endeavor that revolves around that part that you've lost? This is Pandora's grief to work through, and she does not owe this comic to anyone. Telling her to do it to "honor the memory" - to burden her with a responsibility like that - when it's very clear that this is really about what you want rather than what is best for Pandora is quite frankly disgusting. Shame on you.
sulkiekki
sulkiekki

Sulki_Ekki

Watcher
#link #parent  
9 months ago
To satisfy the fandom?
Do you have no empathy?
What is wrong with you?
gammagalaxy
gammagalaxy

GammaGalaxy

Fool
#link #parent  
9 months ago
Be quiet. You’re not helping.
 
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maeflowernursery
maeflowernursery

MaeflowerNursery

Age Regressor
#link #parent  
9 months ago
your comment is ignorant and incredibly disgusting. please let this be a lesson to actually think before you speak when dealing with a topic such as the loss of life.
i can understand that you may have had good intentions when saying it would honor the memory of rebecca, but as soon as you brought up doing it to please the fandom it threw all of your sentiments right out the window.
 
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diaperedpingas
diaperedpingas

DiaperedPingas

Watcher
#link #parent  
9 months ago
Woooow. You seriously just said that? They need to continue a comic featuring someone they just lost to "satisfy the fandom?" Dude, if I were you, I'd delete your comment before you get the entire babyfur community hating your guts for saying something so selfish and inconsiderate, and I feel the way I'm saying it is the nicest way you're gonna hear it.
rst
rst

RST

Photographer
#link #parent  
9 months ago
You are not me, and I won't do that because I assume what I say. Discussion's end, thanks to have listen.
diaperedpingas
diaperedpingas

DiaperedPingas

Watcher
#link #parent  
9 months ago
Enjoy the hatred, then, because no the discussion isn't "end" when others see it and comment on it.

Oh, and I'm glad you singled me out to snap at. Literally the one guy giving you honest advice. Whatever, you made your bed, now lay in it.
friskywoods
friskywoods

FriskyWoods

Anthro Artist
#link #parent  
9 months ago
"You are not me..."

He probably wakes up every morning giving thanks for that.
katalina
katalina

Katalina

Fursuiter, Jewlery maker, Artist
#link #parent  
9 months ago
You are a royal piece of SHITE! Disgraceful at best! How DARE you even suggest such a thing! I hope to God you NEVER have to experience this sort of pain. It's clear you haven't an ounce of empathy in your body.

This person is NOT in any way shape of form to "SATISFY the fandom" FUCK YOU! You entitled piece of shite.

What gives you the right to think you're entitled to the comic?

You give this artist respect and space that she deserves.

If this is what you think is right, if this is what you think constitutes as good, you are sorely mistaken.

Do you not understand how HURTFUL your comment is??I don't care if you think it's right, to that end, you're WRONG!

oh god so very wrong.

I ...i've seen a lot of shit in this fandom....but you....you need to step back and rethink some things. And show some RESPECT.

Because whether or not you think you're a nice person, right now, you're coming off as an insensitive, entitled, uncaring selfish prick.

I just hope that god forbid you ever lose someone, that you come to understand the pain this person is feeling.
-Kat
frankhightower
frankhightower

FrankHightower

Digital Artist
#link #parent  
9 months ago
I understand you want to give her a reason to keep going, to keep fighting, to show here there's a community that supports her ...but you could have worded it a little better
zicky
zicky

Zicky

Fursuiter
#link #parent  
9 months ago
She doesnt have to satisfy NO ONE. Its her comic and her pain. Try imagine you lose a mommy figure to u. And u has every single page almost has to draw her over and over and over. That will be a hell and not fun to draw her every time. It will be lots of tears and every page will feel like a war to go through. So i definally understand why she might cancel it. It will be too much for her.
lil-ronnie
lil-ronnie

Lil-Ronnie

Writer/Commissioner/Diaper Lover
#link #parent  
9 months ago
Wow...talk about kicking a hornet's nest with no regards for consequences!

Not only are you a selfish prick...but you're also stupid!
phoenixsong
phoenixsong

Phoenixsong

Watcher
#link #parent  
9 months ago
Coming out of lurking to tell you to go fuck yourself. You are horrible. Never talk again.
scarwhitedream
scarwhitedream

ScarWhiteDream

Fursuiter
#link #parent  
9 months ago
She is not entitled to YB's fandom demands and doesn't owe anyone shit for her loss and pain. So demanding her to continue the comic is just fucking being a self-centered asshole.
sissy4ever
sissy4ever

sissy4ever

#link #parent  
9 months ago
You honestly make me sick, im happy pandora went off on you on Twitter cause you deserve it. You have no respect for her wishes and you dont want it for the "fandom" you want it so you can enjoy it.

Honest question here idiot, if someone you loved was apart of thing you were trying to make, and passed away, would you continue as if nothing happened? No, you wouldnt. Let her do what she wants, and dont say that your own selfish wantings are for the "fandom" asshole.
rst
rst

RST

Photographer
#link #parent  
9 months ago
Firstly, it's useless to insult. And secondly: "if someone you loved was apart of thing you were trying to make, and passed away, would you continue as if nothing happened? " Me, yes. For exteriorize this pain and avoid the readers be frustrated to don't have what they wait.
sissy4ever
sissy4ever

sissy4ever

#link #parent  
9 months ago
I dont even understand what your trying to say cause you have such broken english, repeat that again?
rst
rst

RST

Photographer
#link #parent  
9 months ago
Firstly, it's useless to insult. And secondly: "if someone you loved was apart of thing you were trying to make, and passed away, would you continue as if nothing happened? " Me, yes. For exteriorize this pain and avoid the readers be frustrated to don't have what they wait.
sissy4ever
sissy4ever

sissy4ever

#link #parent  
9 months ago
Your actually dumb, I meant the answer to my question, it still makes no sense and is to broken to even understand...smh
scarwhitedream
scarwhitedream

ScarWhiteDream

Fursuiter
#link #parent  
9 months ago
"And avoid the readers being frustrated to don't have what they want"

Ok... From all the comments here, you're the only fucking one upset of the fact that she may not continue the comic. No one here except you wants her to continue the comic. Read the room. Shut up, you've already dug your grave enough dude, now just go bury yourself and stop wasting oxygen
friskywoods
friskywoods

FriskyWoods

Anthro Artist
#link #parent  
9 months ago
It sure was nice of RST to bring the entire babyfur community together, both in support of Pandora and in their collective hatred of RST.
abucus
abucus

Abucus

Pillow
#link #parent  
9 months ago
Seriously? Do you know how hard it is to continue with anything after the loss of someone you hold closer then anything? Now imagine putting that person in something you want to pour your heart into and have them be apart of it then to hear the news of there unfortunate passing away? She dosnt owe the YB fandom anything, she dosnt need to finish the comic, and she sure as hell dosnt need comments like yours. What she needs is time to grieve, time to see that even with the loss that shes still with her not physically but with the love she still holds for her. If she never finishes the comic thats great then because she dosnt need to put herself through forcing herself to complete something that brings painful feelings to her, no one deserves to get a message saying that a loved one died. Especially in that way and you telling her to continue the comic because she "owes the fandom"? News flash buddy, she dosnt owe the "fandom" anything. Its her own damn life. Her own damn comic, she dosnt need to continue it because of the greif she is going through and will continue to always go through. Next time before committing Iike that think about the person and imagine walking a mile in there shoes. Now kindly leave and never return ^-^
rst
rst

RST

Photographer
#link #parent  
9 months ago
Don't come to talk me about "respect" with this sort of comments you guys, please. Because or else you will just hurt yourselves without touch me.
friskywoods
friskywoods

FriskyWoods

Anthro Artist
#link #parent  
9 months ago
Yes, definitely don't touch him. The layer of slime is tough to wash off your hands.
diaperedpingas
diaperedpingas

DiaperedPingas

Watcher
#link #parent  
9 months ago
Dude, you brought this on yourself. I gave you an out earlier, too, (the advice that you oughta delete your comments and walk away) and you refused it. Even better, you chased poor Pandora onto her Twitter and harassed her there, forcing even her to finally go off on you for this crap, DURING HER TIME OF GRIEVING. Going by your account and comments, you're either INCREDIBLY stupid, (just not getting the hint and honestly not seeing the error of your actions) have a massive ego/superiority complex, (by refusing the helpful advice, ignoring the people telling you to stop repeatedly, and saying stuff like "you're only hurting yourselves with your comments, not me") are a really successful troll, (you're just messing with all of us, including someone who lost the closest person to them "for teh lulz," which if that's the case, fuck you) or a combination of the 3.
abucus
abucus

Abucus

Pillow
#link #parent  
9 months ago
Dude learn basic grammar and human compassion
jaredthehusky
jaredthehusky

JaredTheHusky

#link #parent  
4 months ago
Fuck you. You are saying that we are going to hurt ourselves because you’re being a dickhead during Pandora’s time of grieving? You are both incredibly insensitive as well as self centered and entitled. Fuck you buddy.
hydroftt
hydroftt

HydroFTT

MOVED to IB!
#link #parent  
9 months ago
You are everything wrong with this fandom.
babysam
babysam

BabySam

Satan's Little Snuggler
#link #parent  
9 months ago
Hey, Pandora's other parentfur and Rebecca's partner just here to add in to the parade of "she doesn't have to do shit"

We are grieving together and how she goes about it is her business. There is no one size fits all way to grieve and if her comfort involves not doing the comic that's her business and if you don't support her way of grieving then kindly fuck off~

Also having been so close to Becca and known her so well I can confirm that she, also, would tell you to fuck off
littlefurjc
littlefurjc

LittlefurJC

Furry Metal Musician
#link #parent  
8 months ago
Damn... did not expect you to snap, but its warranted
dragonmage117
dragonmage117

DragonMage117

Uh artist I suppose
#link #parent  
9 months ago
You disgust me. Don't you fucking dare bother to comment on anything like this. Leave Pandora alone, fuck off, and think for once in your miserable life.
experiment626
experiment626

Experiment626

Watcher
#link
9 months ago
I’m so sorry for your loss! I beg of you don’t hurt yourself!!
roninhunt0987
roninhunt0987

RoninHunt0987

Watcher
#link
9 months ago
dear god... -hugs ya close to me-
vttmax
vttmax

Vttmax

Watcher
#link
9 months ago
Sorry. Hugs
shart
shart

shart

Babby Bear
#link
9 months ago
so incredibly sorry for your loss. I don’t have anything to say that hasn’t already be said or won’t been said later, but the fandom is here for you in this dark time.
shart
shart

shart

Babby Bear
#link #parent  
9 months ago
sorry for my apparent inability to type when i made this comment but the sentiment still stands >_>
yukiellar
yukiellar

Yukiellar

#link
9 months ago
I can't imagine how hurt you must feel after this all. Take all the time you need to heal, just understand we'll all be here to help in any way we can. Stay focused on yourself and health. You got this, *Hugs tightly*
littlebeararnold
littlebeararnold

LittleBearArnold

Digital artist/Anxious bear
#link
9 months ago
This are terrible news, I'm so sorry for your loss, I know lossing a loved one is one of the hardest things anyone can experience but please don't hurt yourself :(
marinaneira
marinaneira

marinaneira

She/Her 🌈 Please call me Marina
#link
9 months ago
A lot of people care about you Pandora, myself included. I won’t pretend to understand your pain when it comes to this magnitude of loss (I tried before and I’ve learned it’s such an unbelievably painful thing that my imagination can not reach it.) I just want to tell you that I care about you and you make the world a better place by existing. Please don’t deprive us of you, and reach out to us if you need to.
vahngreen
vahngreen

Vahn_Green

Anthro Artist
#link
9 months ago
Please don't leave. Please don't deepen the void this year has left us. You're so sweet. Hold onto what we have left >~<
beatboxinfox
beatboxinfox

Beatboxinfox

Streaming Diaperfur
#link
9 months ago
do not worry about art right now. take time to grieve, it's horrible what happened and if you push yourself right now you could push yourself into an even worse situation.
t3cht00lz
t3cht00lz

T3cht00lz

Watcher
#link
9 months ago
I am immensely sorry for your loss. *tight hug*

It'd be a bit disappointing if it comes to it that Youthful Bliss is cancelled, but also perfectly understandable. Your mental health should come first. May Rebecca rest in peace, and I hope you can take care. I'll keep you in my prayers for the forseeable future.
codemastersilver
codemastersilver

Code_Master_Silver

Watcher
#link
9 months ago
I am so sorry for your lose. I could never understand your pain, but just know that there are people who look to your page as a beacon of hope. Your art lets people like me know that we are not alone in the world.
This is not an attempt at getting you to keep writing Youthful Bliss, Its up to you to decided that, this is my attempt at trying to help you feel better and for you to not give up on art. Your art is some of the best I have seen on this site and I don't want to see it disappear.
I am terrible when it comes to writing I know that it might sound selfish that I don't want to lose your art but I also don't want anything to happen to you. For so long now I have seen all kind of artists and abdl's, like me and you, die or leave for some reason or another and I never could find the words to say, for fear that I would have said something wrong.
But, in this case... I have never felt the love of a abdl mommy before, so I know I have no idea what kind of pain you are feeling. There are so few of us abdl's in the world and more of us are found almost every year I feel like. We need to stay strong for each other, otherwise there won't be people like you who give hope to people like us.
You are one of my favorite artist, and even though you haven't been doing a lot as of late I have been looking forward, each and every day, for when you would post your next piece. Because, the amount of time it takes an artist to make a masterpiece doesn't matter, what matters is that the masterpiece is made so that all of the world, or even just a small group of people, can look upon it and revel in the emotions that it gives them when they see it.
Please don't give up on art or yourself.
ursa-mina
ursa-mina

Ursa-Mina

Crafter
#link
9 months ago
Pandora, I cannot imagine what you are going through right now. When I lost my paramour some years back it destroyed me utterly and I still haven't recovered.

I do understand the desire to follow her, but I have to believe that that's not what she would have wanted. She has left a void that no one can fill, but you do have a community here for you to lean on and cry to your heart's needs.

Pandora, please reach out to someone, anyone, if you ever feel in danger; no one will turn you away.

*huggleclings eternally* <3
ally324
ally324

ally324

Angel O'Hare
#link
9 months ago
Hello, sweetie. I'm soo sorry for your lost. I know that feeling. I lost a dear friend a few months ago irl, and I'm still sad about it. But, I know she wouldn't want me to mourn over her and would want me to move on. I know it hurts so much, but you have a lot of friends and family in this community who love you very much and are willing to help you out through this.
raykamiya
raykamiya

RayKamiya

Writer
#link
9 months ago
*hugs close*

I dunno how you may take this but...

I think you should continue it, she would want you to keep going and continue the story, as a send off for her and to keep her memory alive both within you and for her fans as well as yours, yes it will be painful but it may also give you the closure and the strength to heal and be able to say god bye to her in a way that might help you.

I've lost people in the same manner as well, so I know how much it hurts but you should reach out to either a grief councilor or someone you trust to help you through this.
babysam
babysam

BabySam

Satan's Little Snuggler
#link #parent  
9 months ago
I understand where this comment is coming from but as Becca's partner and Pandora's other parent please don't talk like you know what Becca would want. If anything, she'd support Pandora's decision. Becca always wanted people to take care of themselves first and foremost. And if something was necessary to move forward, she would support that
nightshadekittentana
nightshadekittentana

NightshadeKittentana

mwy Niwne Feewl Owff
#link
9 months ago
ah that bites 2020 is just not stable for no one we are here for you and your friends babypandora
babystar
babystar

BabyStar

Digital Artist
#link
9 months ago
I wish I couldn't relate Pandora, I really wish I couldn't. I'm so so sorry for your loss. It won't get easier. It doesn't. I'm not going to tell you it will. But you will find ways of coping. You'll make it through one day then another.
You'll be sad, you'll be angry, you'll try to make sense of it all and you'll go round and round and round those emotions for quite some time. Take your time. theres no right or wrong way to do this, just do it your way, and never ever blame yourself, as easy as that is to do.

There will be a hole in your heart that you will never be able to patch up. That's just the honest truth, as hard as that is. Because you gave that piece to her and she took it with her. You'll never be the same again and I grieve for you and all those who were in her inner circle.

Be grateful for the memories you made, you have to live doubly hard now because you need to live for her too, love the people close to you extra hard and I'm always around if you need me.
renchu
renchu

RenChu

Writer
#link
9 months ago
I can't say I feel your pain, not many people truly can since such a thing shatters peoples lives in a different way but the wounds are always the deepest struggle. I don't know your fur mom but, I feel she wouldn't want her little girl to follow her, even if the pain is the most horrible thing to endure. There are people who love and cherish the woman you are and it would probably rip them asunder as you feel now if you fade away.

As for the comic, its your work, your choice in what to do with it. Your well being comes first and honestly if you want to cancel it then people would understand or at least should understand the reasoning. Please, do what you need to do, the people who stand close beside you will be waiting and I know without a doubt they'll do what they can for you during this immensely dark time you're going through, even if no one can truly understand how you feel right now.
mockulino
mockulino

Mockulino

BEAW
#link
9 months ago
Im really sorry for you loss :c
mikukojitsu
mikukojitsu

miku_kojitsu

guild master/ daycare helpermon
#link
9 months ago
*hugs so tight* im so sorry panpan..
sexygoatgod
sexygoatgod

SexyGoatGod

Filth Monger
#link
9 months ago
Thank you for everything you've given to this fandom, and for all the love you've brought with it.
I am so, so sorry for your loss.
Monday marked 4 years since my brother killed himself, and it's a pain that never really, truly goes completely away. But you do learn to live on, if only to make them proud.
It hurts so much you can't breath or think, nothing has any sparkle or wonder to it anymore. I really thought I was going to go with him. It's a struggle people who haven't been through it can't fully comprehend, and I'm so so sorry it's one you have to go through with someone so important to you.
I can't imagine what it must be like for so much to be lost all at once...
Everybody who really cares about you will understand why you'd want to move on from the comic, and why you'd need time to pick up whatever pieces you could after such a shattering event.
Please do take your time in this, and if you do return, we will welcome you with open, loving arms.
lilruby
lilruby

Lilruby

#link
9 months ago
Im so sorry for your loss Pandora
shining-fox
shining-fox

shining-fox

Watcher
#link
9 months ago
Oh my god, I'm......I'm so sorry....if there is anything we can do.....just ask!
samtheartisticwolf
samtheartisticwolf

Sam_The_Artistic_Wolf

#link
9 months ago
Its always the people that make other people happy that have a vary hard time we lost another great person in the world My heart gose out to her family and close friends thanks you for all the joy you gave poeple sorry you could not have that same joy Rest In Peace Rebecca

Its always hard when someone who gave you some of your best memory becomes a memory were all hear for you Pandora
birthdefectboi
birthdefectboi

BirthDefectBoi

CryBaby
#link
9 months ago
Pandora.
Youre an amazing strong person and a fantastic creator. I've felt the way you do. I lost my brother so suicide a year ago and that shit still hurts. I wanted to go after him. But if i did, alot of people would miss me and I would break hearts. Same applies to you. If you feel lost. Hopeless. Like things will never be okay, look for support groups and make a crisis plan as in save the suicide hotline number, and put your friends on speed-dial.
Nobody will judge you or blame you even if you cancel youthful bliss.
Your health and wellness is first in line.
I know you dont know me too well but if you need a helping hand and a person who understands, I'm a note away. It's going to be okay Pandora. I know the pain seems unbearable ans grieving is a process but you've made it this far. You'll make it further. We all care for you.
bcrusher19
bcrusher19

bcrusher19

Future Fursuiter
#link
9 months ago
I am so sorry, you deserve better than this. Hope things get better.
dldracorex
dldracorex

DL_Draco_Rex

Prince of Dragons
#link
9 months ago
I'm so sorry for your loss.
nyx23
nyx23

Nyx23

Watcher
#link
9 months ago
Don't know really what can be said that hasn't been said already, that's so painful. Do your best
asmato
asmato

Asmato

Writer/Watcher
#link
9 months ago
*Hugs you tighly* I'm soo very sorry to hear that. I hope you will get through this hard time of your life. We are all here for you, if you want to talk.

Forget about the comic. Think about yourself first.
twotone
twotone

twotone

one of a hundred and one
#link
9 months ago
*hugs* I'm so sorry for your loss Pandora. I had heard about Rebecca's passing last night when I saw babysam babysam's twitter message about it. till now I had no idea what happened till I saw your journal.

suicide is never the answer, it'll cause more problems than be a solution.

As for YB, it might be best to end it now than continue on if it's too painful for you to work on.
flarecat
flarecat

Flarecat

Writer
#link
9 months ago
Hello Pandora,

I lost my father under similar circumstances over a decade ago, during an already dark time in my life. I know how you feel, I know the grief and sense of sudden, overwhelming pain you feel right now. Its okay to be upset, its quite normal to do things you later regret, especially when this seems like the latest entry in a life that seemed to be rapidly trending downhill.

I nearly followed him a few months later, because my entire world seemed to be caving in and I didn't think I could continue. But I found hope, through the fandom, through new friends I started to make. You already have a much bigger support network than I did when that all went down, and there are plenty of people who want to support you in your grieving process.

Grief never is easy, especially when its so sudden and unexpected like this. You're *Not* alone, other people have gone through this and know how you feel. Take the time you need to heal. If something like youthful bliss needs to go, then so be it. I gave up any chance of graduating high school when my Dad died because I had to find a way to survive moment by moment and long-term efforts like High School just weren't within my capabilities at the time.

You're not alone. Plenty of people are with you right now, plenty of people are upset along with you right now. But feel free to take all the time you need to heal. Grief can't be rushed, but it also can end. You'll see as a new dawn breaks one day in the future where you can look back on today and see the grief as something you no longer are consumed by. That day will come, just like it did for me. Oh, and I still miss him every time I think of him. My love for him does not end, only the overwhelming grief did.
caidenalexandria
caidenalexandria

CaidenAlexandria

Writer
#link
9 months ago
I'm so sorry this happened.
*kneels and offers hug*
rukia~chan
rukia~chan

Rukia~chan

Baby Ruki
#link
9 months ago
*hugs tight* I'm so sorry to hear this dear. I hope you'll be alright. I don't want to see you get harmed. If you was here I would give you much love and comfort.

I understand how it feels to lose someone close.
diaperedfoxy
diaperedfoxy

diaperedfoxy

Traditional Artist
#link
9 months ago
*huggles you* i might not have lost anyone to suicide but if you ever need someone to talk to or a shoulder to cry on, i'm here for you, i've been told i'm a great listener
commentcritic192
commentcritic192

Commentcritic192

Writer
#link
9 months ago
I know you’re probably living through the unimaginable right now, sweetheart. Please take care of yourself. It’s okay to ask for help and we’ll be here through it all. We love you dear and so does Becca ❤️
austinthehuskypup
austinthehuskypup

AustinTheHuskyPup

#link
9 months ago
First, I want to say thank you for everything that you do, Pandora. Seeing any drawing of yours always brings so much joy and happiness in my life.

Second, I am so very sorry for your loss. I didn't have a chance to talk to her that much, but Rebecca seem like a very nice person and I can tell how much she meant to you in your life by the YB comic.

My most sincere thoughts and prayers goes to you and yours and Rebecca's family and friends. I am so very sorry that you have to experience this. We all are here for you and will support you every step of the way from this unexpected and untimely passing. You don't have to but if you ever need someone to talk to, you are always more than welcome to chat with me. You are such a really nice and talented person. I have the upmost respect for you as an artist and a person, Pandora. *husky hugs.*
panthercub
panthercub

PantherCub

Writer
#link
9 months ago
Oh no! Hugs Close I'm so sorry!
airwolf1987
airwolf1987

airwolf1987

Babyfur Artist
#link
9 months ago
I'm so, so sorry to hear about this, Pandora. I did not know her, sadly, but from the outpouring of grief and support I've seen in the community over the last 24 hours, I know she was very special and touched so many people's lives.

I know this pain will never completely go away, but as time goes by, your strength to cope with the pain will grow, I promise. The world is a scary place, but for some people, it's a little bit less scary just because you are part of their lives. Please take care of yourself, and remember that you aren't facing this alone.
skippychipskunk
skippychipskunk

Skippy_Chipskunk

Writer
#link
9 months ago
I'm very sorry to hear the tragic news. My condolences. I can only hope you'll she'll rest in peace. I do beg of you not to cancel Youthful Bliss as it may break the hearts of readers and users included alike. Take all the time you feel you need before you resume your creativity.

If you wish to know Ursa-Mina Ursa-Mina also sends her condolences https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9618571/
thehotrodhero
thehotrodhero

TheHotrodHero

Writer/Artist
#link
9 months ago
I'm really sorry, Pandora. My heart goes out to you in this horrible time. I only wish I could do more than offer simple words of consolation.
littleronak
littleronak

Little_Ronak

Writer
#link
9 months ago
O'm so sorry that happened. I wish I could be there to help you through this, but know that I am sending my thoughts and prayers your way. You have to stay strong. Don't let this claim you. There is so much you still have left to live for. Please don't end it. As for Youthful Bliss, I understand. And I respect your decision, as should everyone else. Stay strong, and stay healthy.
danielmania123
danielmania123

DanielMania123

Watcher
#link
9 months ago
Oh no! I'm so sorry for your loss. *hugs and comforts you*
lucashoal
lucashoal

Luca_Shoal

【GOOD GIRL】
#link
9 months ago
*offers hugs when you're ready for em*. You have my empathy and condolences dear. This is quite a tragedy, yeah. I also didn't know Becca much, but I know she meant a lot to a lot of people and would have loved to meet her, much like many other folk in our little community.

Take your time hun, you need to focus on keeping it together. Your needs take priority over doing comic stuff. If you don't continue any comics, you can just keep the cameo pay bit I've already paid for for all your hard work.
wyndozvysta
wyndozvysta

wyndozvysta

#link
9 months ago
*Hugs you tight* I am so sorry to hear that, please stay strong, your wonderful
mth001
mth001

MTH001

Digital Artist
#link
9 months ago
My condolences for your lost.
rhouvesper
rhouvesper

RhouVesper

Blankie-Paws
#link
9 months ago
I’m so terribly sorry this happened to you...I’m not very good with words, but I want you to know that my sincerest emotions go out to you. I know we’re all strangers, but you should know we are all here for you in whatever capacity we can be. I’ve been personally close to putting my Owner in your position before and reading this just...really gets to me. You are so loved, beyond your art or anything else you do on here. Take as much time as you need to grieve, but know that if you need it you can reach out at any time.
galenpepys
galenpepys

galenpepys

Steward at Empty Studios
#link
9 months ago
My condolences. And to echo so many heartwarming sentiments before this, please place your health well above your priorities as an artist. You'll always have the gift of helping people see this world as a place of love and acceptance, and you will always be a beacon of light and understanding.

If you feel like you're in danger, please, please call on your loved ones, please call a professional, anyone that can help. Suicide is extremely difficult to discuss, is complex, but I think people have to talk about it, should try and be there when someone is in trouble.
krissypoo222
krissypoo222

krissypoo222

#link
9 months ago
I was really worries that thats what happened.... Im so sorry...
m.k.cat
m.k.cat

M.K.CAT

I'm hiding in your closet
#link
9 months ago
Oh my that's fxxing terrible! I'm sending all the positive vibes that I can possibly muster . Lots of love ~BabyPandora please dont do anything irational.
blackflameheart
blackflameheart

blackflameheart

Writer
#link
9 months ago
*wraps you in a snuggle blanket and pulls you into lap and cuddles* I know it hurts little one and it will hurt for a while but your mommy would not want you to follow her before your time. She would want you to be brave and remember all the good she gave you and to live so you can bring joy to a new mommy/daddy when you are ready to open your heart to another again. If you ever need a hug, a kissed booboo or even head pet you can always come to this big blue tiger to give them to you I'll never turn a little away who is in need of comfort that I've gotten to know even a little.
crinklelab
crinklelab

CrinkleLab

Watcher/Commissioner
#link
9 months ago
I'm very sorry for your loss Pandora. I send my condolences.
jowgenetsu
jowgenetsu

jowgenetsu

TF and AR addict
#link
9 months ago
Take your time, Grieve for her, Remember the good times and cherish the time you had with her. Find support from your close ones, They will be there for you. Always reach out, Don't suffer alone.

I am so sorry.
vikingfops
vikingfops

Vikingfops

dumb viking. :3
#link
9 months ago
I hope you'll be allright, Pand. I've lived through similar before. having lost two people I know to this kinda reason... It never really passes completely. But as time goes on, you get stronger. <3
digzydoodles
digzydoodles

DigzyDoodles

#link
9 months ago
That is truly awful news, and I know no amount of condolences will fix the pain you feel, but please don't hurt yourself and attempt ending your own life. Your mommy wouldn't want you to go through that. She'd want you to get the help you need so you can feel happy again, as impossible as that may seem right now. Call a suicide hotline, book a therapy session, reach out. Make her proud little one, and know she loves you.
lenny-otter
lenny-otter

Lenny-Otter

Watcher
#link
9 months ago
I’m sorry to hear about your loss. I can’t imagine how difficult this must be for you.

Absolutely take your time to grieve. Whatever you decide to do with YB can wait until you feel ready to make the decision. Stay safe, reach out to your close friends and family if you need to, and know that you are loved and cherished
yingyangjesse
yingyangjesse

Yingyangjesse

#link
9 months ago
Im so sorry for your loss please don’t kill yourself
shadywolf
shadywolf

shadywolf

Watcher
#link
9 months ago
For the people with mental disorders the worst place you can be is inside your own brain exploring the dark tar which is depression & anxiety. I know talking about it is scary but at least confide in a good friend or even better someone that is in the mental health profession. So you can be diagnosed & treated for any illness you may have.
quickstarfox
quickstarfox

QuickStarFox

Writer
#link
9 months ago
If you do not wish to continue YB, then I would understand and as would alot of people. Right now, if you ever need to talk to somebody, drop me a message on here or hell, even on telegram. You're not alone in this and the sheer outpouring of people proves that we can help one another when the time calls for it.
wolfhannah3196
wolfhannah3196

Wolfhannah3196

#link
9 months ago
*hugs and pats your head*
sulkiekki
sulkiekki

Sulki_Ekki

Watcher
#link
9 months ago
I'm sorry if I come across a bit pragmatic.
But being scared is good. If you're scared you'll do something, it means you're not yet ready to do it.

For now, I'd recomend keeping anything dangerous out of reach. Either up high, or locked away with the key up high. So you can still reach if you need it day to day. That way it's harder to get if you end up self medicating.

If you're walking outdoors, stick to the side of the sidewalk furthest from the road.
If you take the train, stay back from the edge of the platform.
Avoid driving if you can.
More generally, reduce exposure to situations where a single umpulsive action could... Ya know.

I hope I came across okay. And I hope it helps. It did for me.
padlockedpadding
padlockedpadding

PadlockedPadding

Digital Artist
#link
9 months ago
That's horrible. I'm so sorry.
adahn365
adahn365

Adahn365

#link
9 months ago
There are no words. I cannot imagine what you are going through right now. But, please, stay strong, and know that there are people that care about you.
innouva
innouva

Innouva

#link
9 months ago
Sincerely wishing you all of the best. Please stay safe and talk to whomever you need to talk to. Condolences.
gamer2
gamer2

gamer2

"Miss Kimmy" to you~
#link
9 months ago
My deepest, sincerest sympathies. When you're ready, if there's anything I can do, please, let me know. Stay safe.
fearfulharmony
fearfulharmony

fearfulharmony

destroyer of couch legs
#link
9 months ago
i am so, so unbelievably sorry for your loss.

i wont pretend to know your pain, as ive never gone through such a loss, but please be kind to yourself during these rough times
i never knew rebecca, but with how much she loves you, i doubt that blaming yourself or following in her footsteps like that is what she would've wanted. it isn't your fault, it never was. grieve however you need to, but please don't take your life too, it will only cause more pain. if you see yourself start planning, start turning opportunities down because you are planning it, please PLEASE tell someone who can help you. it was not because of a loss, but ive struggled with suicidal thoughts for years, and when you start planning is when you really have to tell someone, because thats basically your last chance according to my experience. im sorry if you already knew that.. i just really dont want you to go that route too, you're such a bright light in this community and seeing your journey and personal growth reminds me, and likely many others, that i am not stagnant and i can grow too.

i dont have nearly enough emotional maturity or availability to say im a shoulder you can personally cry on, but i just want to let you know, i wish the best for you. continue, or dont continue YB, it doesn't matter to me so long as you are okay
wiimaster306
wiimaster306

wiimaster306

Photographer
#link
9 months ago
I'm sorry this has happened to you. Please don't do what Rebecca did. We're here for you. Please be safe and come back to us soon.
jlh
jlh

JLH

Bismiris
#link
9 months ago
I've recently lost a friend the same way. If you want to talk feel free to reach out.
maeflowernursery
maeflowernursery

MaeflowerNursery

Age Regressor
#link
9 months ago
i'm so, so sorry for your loss pandora. i never got to know rebecca, but even hearing the news makes my heart ache for you. in the art you made that featured her, especially the personal pieces, were so precious and spoke of the lovely bond you both had!

please, love, don't hurt yourself. don't cut your life short, please. the pain you feel is valid, and losing someone can be overwhelming and blinding, but i swear on my life you can pull through this. it gets easier, and there will be days where it feels just as hard if not harder than it did in the beginning, but you can feel okay again. i lost my dad just last year, and grief can truly fuck you up, but i'm gonna hold onto hope that you'll be okay in the end, alright?

ik we aren't friends or anything, but i'm always here if you need me. you don't have to go through anything alone, and people would miss you just as much as you miss your mommy if you were gone, pinky promise!
dracofangxxx
dracofangxxx

Dracofangxxx

butch bitch
#link
9 months ago
honey i'm so sorry. i lost my partner to suicide in 2018 and it was the hardest thing i've ever had to go through. reach out if you need someone to talk to okay? please take care of yourself. big hugs
thefurryprophet
thefurryprophet

TheFurryProphet

#link
9 months ago
*sending good vibes*
emperorender
emperorender

EmperorEnder

Hatchy
#link
9 months ago
I'm so sorry for your loss, ive been thinking how I should say something but I still haven't come to a conclusion, Please please, don't hurt yourself or follow in Becca path, your an important person who is loved by a lot of people. We all understand what your going through, one way or another, Becca was a great person and her life should be celebrated like so, its ok to cry, its Ok to hurt, its ok to feel this way, just know we all love and care about you Pandora. I understand your desires to think about canceling, but if it means anything, please don't. Your comic, Youthful Bliss actually helped me understand and explain parts of my life and provide some answers, postponed or not, thank you, regardless.
If you ever want to talk, hit me up any time
kz213
kz213

KZ213

Crafter
#link
9 months ago
im sorry for loss love one *tails goes hugs n care about ya *
diaperedraptor-fox
diaperedraptor-fox

Diapered_Raptor-Fox

SUPER THICK diaper LOVER! =^w^=
#link
9 months ago
I am so sorry to hear about this. Please know that we are here for you if you need it. Please don't be scared about reaching out to us. Once again, I am so sorry to hear this.
khadthekittykat1
khadthekittykat1

KhadtheKittyKat1

The Human/Catnipian Hybrid
#link
9 months ago
I'm sorry to hear that, I do hope things will get better for you. *Hugs*
eaeelil
eaeelil

Eaeelil

#link
9 months ago
Nothing that can be said here will truly help. But your not alone and others have deeply enjoyed your work. Take your time, rest up and slowly, very slowly, heal.
cutieprotector
cutieprotector

CutieProtector

Sir Diaper Knight!
#link
9 months ago
I'm so sorry for your loss. Please don't hurt yourself. If you need help, please reach out to people you love, and maybe get help from people with more expertise in coping with loss. You've gone through so much already, so I know you can make it through this. *hugs*
cutieprotector
cutieprotector

CutieProtector

Sir Diaper Knight!
#link #parent  
9 months ago
Also, if you can't work on Youthful Bliss anymore, we understand. I still loved every bit of it. This comic and your art are some of the main reasons I've continued to love babyfur/diaperfur art.
dannyskunk
dannyskunk

DannySkunk

Anthro Artist
#link
9 months ago
I know there's probably nothing I can say that will make things all better. I lost my mother... well, it's been a while now, but I still know the pain. I know this person may not have been your biological parent, but you loved them like they were. I can't begin to imagine how you must feel, because this is much more tragic than what I went through. I'm not going to lie to you and say "I've been there." All I can say is that there are clearly people here for you to lean on for support, myself included, and the only advice I can offer is not to push them away like I did back then. Even after a while when I thought I was OK, I wasn't.

I don't like hearing about self-harm... I've had friends who have done it, and it worries me. I hope you can find a way to cope aside from that moving forward.

I can't tell you how sorry I am for your loss.
zephyrr
zephyrr

Zephyrr

Art Hoarder
#link
9 months ago
I am so terribly sorry for your loss Pandora. I can't even comprehend how you are feeling. Rebecca was a wonderful person and I am so sad she is gone. I will miss her a lot. I regret not getting to know her more and hang out with her more often online.

Just know there are a lot of folks in our community who care about you Pandora. If you ever need anything don't hesitate to reach out to us. I too have dealt with loved ones trying to commit suicide, its a pain that can take forever to heal. You are loved and appreciated Pandora, never forget that <3
owarifox
owarifox

Owarifox

Fursuiter
#link
9 months ago
I am so sorry for your loss.
Even though I only ever knew of her through YB I can see how wonderful of a person she was, and can only imagine how much she means to you. In reading it I could feel the warmth radiating from her presentation. The kind of thing only someone who truly loves someone can make happen in art.
I won't lie...having someone mean that much to you makes losing them all the harder. It will be the hardest thing to keep going and somedays it may feel like it is all too much. But one day it won't hurt the same as it does now.
It will still hurt...that never truly goes away. But it won't be the same. The pain will become more bearable, the days won't feel as empty. Maybe it will feel...familiar, like a reminder...and there can be a little happiness in that. Because it means we'll never forget them. And even though it is painful to keep going it can still be worth it.
You have many people around you that care. People that admire you. If anything, hold on to that. Reach out to anyone you need. To the people who want to be there for you. Please?
raelbny
raelbny

raelbny

Princess Flopsywaddles
#link
9 months ago
Oh my goodness dear, I'm so sorry for you and your loss. It's unfathomably painful and incomprehensible I imagine, in ways I can surely empathize with yet never really know. You have my deepest sympathies.

I feel like it might be helpful though, to think about how you feel and some perhaps...'unhealthy thoughts' running through your mind currently, and think about what she would say.

She's your Mommy, dear. When you have that bond, nothing is going to take that away...not even unimaginable tragedy. You know she cares, she guides, and she protects...she'd do anything to keep you safe and secure. That's part of what drives someone to be a Mommy.

And what would she say if you told her how you were feeling right now? Something akin to, "Now don't you dare do that..."

You know she would. You're her everything, and the last thing she'd ever want is for something tragic to happen to you. Especially related back to her somehow. No Mommy wants that for their child, and yours was surely no different.

It hurts, darling. It's sudden, it's painful, it's terribly unfortunate, and so hard to understand the 'why' of it all. Yet it's a tragic event that your Mommy would surely have given anything and everything she could to prevent it happening to you. That is not what she wants for you...not then, not now, not ever. She wants the best for you, always...and this doesn't change that one bit.

So please always keep that in mind...take it to heart. Stay safe and be strong for her...it's what she wants for you. <3
roguegirl14
roguegirl14

RogueGirl14

#link
9 months ago
I'm so sorry. i know how hard it is loosing a mommy. i havent personally but i panic if they even just take too long to respond to my messages...i cant imagine ever losing a mommy, even thinking about it just makes me feel all horrible inside...i hope you can work through it, as im sure she would never want you to follow her example, no matter how bad you feel...
soyouwanttotakemyusername
soyouwanttotakemyusername

soyouwanttotakemyusername

#link
9 months ago
I'm so sorry you're going through this. It's painful and raw and overwhelming at the moment. While you'll never not know this pain, you will get better at handling it. It's a sad truth of life is that death is inevitable, but you're not hopeless (even though you likely feel hopeless right now).

It may not get easier, but time takes some of the edges off and you will get stronger. The thing I found that worked for me was reminding myself of the good they brought into my life. I thought about my sister, what she meant to me, how she influenced me, and what I thought she'd want for me. It was painful, but I learned a lot about both her and myself.

Lean on us and those that support you, take the time to grieve. There is still hope. You're not as alone as you feel.
superiormutt27
superiormutt27

SuperiorMutt27

Writer
#link
9 months ago
I wish there was someway I could help.
ninpup
ninpup

NinPup

#link
9 months ago
I'm so sorry Pandora, take all the time you need but please stay safe.
ryuumaru
ryuumaru

Ryuumaru

Anime Artist
#link
9 months ago
I'm so sorry. I hope you feel better soon. *offers hugs*
ian16545
ian16545

Ian16545

M.O.M.M.Y.'s little sweetheart
#link
9 months ago
I'm so sorry this dealt you such a blow there, Pandora—just know that we'll be there for you in your darkest of times. Stay strong, stay safe, and as they used to sing on Sesame Street, "give your heart a little time."
 
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nerdygeckoarts332
nerdygeckoarts332

NerdyGeckoArts332

#link #parent  
9 months ago
Like I've seen in response to other comments similar, please let her make the decision. As much as the fans may want it to continue her mental health trump's that.
If she does continue it I hope that it will be in honor of her strength and in memory of rebecca, but if that would be to painful we all need to understand that
ian16545
ian16545

Ian16545

M.O.M.M.Y.'s little sweetheart
#link #parent  
9 months ago
Oh, sorry about that continuation comment—I take it back; as I was just tired and disgruntled last night. If Pandora decides not to pursue YB any further, I understand wholeheartedly.
marinaneira
marinaneira

marinaneira

She/Her 🌈 Please call me Marina
#link #parent  
9 months ago
What is wrong with you, and everyone else asking her not to cancel the comic on a journal where she is telling you in all likelihood it would be too devastatingly painful to continue? If you care about Pandora, how does the thought of asking her not to cancel it (for ANY reason) even remotely cross your mind?
401
401

401

3d artist
#link
9 months ago
Stay strong, please.
darmon
darmon

Darmon

Watcher
#link
9 months ago
I am so sorry Pandora. Please take as much time for yourself as you like but please don't forget that there are people supporting you especially those your know Personally. I don't know what else to say but i hope you stay strong for yourself and you family and bestest of friends.
greybear91
greybear91

GreyBear91

Watcher
#link
9 months ago
I'm so sorry, Ariana. Take as much time as you need. I know you don't know me from Adam, but if you need someone to talk to, I have Telegram. I've been in a place close to where you are now, and I promise you the pain will pass. But until that time, don't neglect your self care, drink plenty of water, keep your comforts close. You matter <3
furballsuit
furballsuit

Furballsuit

Fursuit Maker
#link
9 months ago
Gives hugs.
dracohuskyfolf
dracohuskyfolf

DracoHuskyFolf

Slowly becoming insane 8D
#link
9 months ago
I'm very very very sorry for your loss. I've seen the couple other journals about this. I understand that this has been really rough on you to lose such a dear friend.

*giving you lots of thoughts, prayers, and hugs*
scottishraptor
scottishraptor

ScottishRaptor

Anthro Artist
#link
9 months ago
I just want to say sorry for your loss. I am a big believer in time heals all wounds. Although I am about 7 months in on still grieving for my brother Brandyn it may be a long road and it is a horrible mess of a time but it gets better. It's still hard to look at my own FA art gallery at times. I'm striving to try and be my happy go lucky self and I hope in time you will be right as rain too.

I think it should be the decision that is right for you in terms of your comic. I think it still works well and I have really enjoyed it so far. Many comics seem to go on forever and it can be nice for short ones too even if it deviates from the initial vision.

I think the amount of comments in this thread is a testament to how many people love you in this community and would miss you if you were gone. <3
messydiaperfur
messydiaperfur

Messydiaperfur

#link
9 months ago
Im so sorry for your loss! *hugs*

Rest in peace Rebecca!
skunkgirl56
skunkgirl56

skunkgirl56

Watcher
#link
9 months ago
Sorry for your loss but i have a suggestion archive all thos voice messages to keep her memory as telegram has the habbit of deleting stuff again i am sorry for your loss take as long as you like
rcdlny1979
rcdlny1979

RCdlny1979

#link
9 months ago
That’s unfortunate to hear and sorry for your loss. Hope you’ll get through this dark time and you have a good support system of friends to help you through it all. I love Youthful Bliss and don’t want to see it end but understand given the circumstances. This is just my opinion but if you do decide to continue look at this way that you’ll be honoring and keeping her memory alive and know that she’s still with you even though she’s no longer around. Again I understand should you choose not to. Best wishes in these dark times. Hope things will get better her you. 🤗 🤗 🤗
saleskital
saleskital

SalesKital

Digital Artist
#link
9 months ago
*sends all the hugs* take some time and mourn, sometimes what we really need when we lose someone is to just mourn for a while and remember the good times so we can remember them at their best. Know that there are people on here who care, even some of us who can't think of what to say many times, you're not alone.
mastrmax
mastrmax

MastrMax

#link
9 months ago
Oh my god! That’s horrible!
jinxyboi
jinxyboi

JinxyBoi

#link
9 months ago
I can only image what you must be going through. I’m so sorry for you and everyone else that was close to her. I wasn't close, but I’m still hurt by this as well. She seemed like such a kind person.

And as for the comic? Well, as sad as that would be, I understand. But at the same time, maybe completing it could bring some sort of closure? I dunno. It’s up to you though. And whatever decision you make, I’ll respect it.
tabitabi
tabitabi

tabitabi

#link
9 months ago
my heart goes out to you in this time, pandora. please stay safe. please take as long as you need to heal. you deserve it, and i know your mommy is so proud of you, and always will be.
tigerwolfvix
tigerwolfvix

tigerwolfvix

Anthro Artist
#link
9 months ago
Use what strength you have to endure this loss. Let those around you carry a little of it when it gets too much. Draw the saddest and angriest doodles. And when you are exhausted, your eyes burn, and your mind is a fuzzy lost cloud... drink a big water and watch a mindless show to relax.

As for short term self harm prevention.. write on your arms. Someone or something you don't want to ever hurt. It got me through middle school. * shrug *
melisok
melisok

MelIsOk

:o)
#link
9 months ago
Please stay strong, we love you
lordmagma
lordmagma

lordmagma

Art Whore
#link
9 months ago
You're cared for by a great many little one.
olliedweigth
olliedweigth

OLLIEDweigth

Oliver Dreagon weigth
#link
9 months ago
I'm sorry for your loss, and I know I'm just a faceless person who watches your art. But please dont give up on living life. I'm not going to preach though, I wish you the best, and hope you find the strength to live on. Even if it means you leave all of this behind.
lil-ronnie
lil-ronnie

Lil-Ronnie

Writer/Commissioner/Diaper Lover
#link
9 months ago
Pandora...I know we're not close and we barely know each other (if at all) and I won't pretend to know how much pain you're in...

But please...whatever you gotta do...just don't consider suicide! Please!

There are countless people out there that loves you dearly! Right now they're all in pain from Rebecca's passing! Do you really want to double their pain with your own death...?

I know everything seems hopeless right now, but think of the people that you'd be leaving behind!!

Just remember...pain this intense doesn't last forever!!
gamerlen
gamerlen

gamerlen

Weird fooker
#link
9 months ago
Oh good gods... I'm so sorry. I... wow... just... I can't believe this. I wish there was something I could say here but... seeing this post breaks my heart. Really. I'm so sorry this happened. ;-;
registeratthis
registeratthis

registeratthis

#link
9 months ago
I'm a lurker that generally doesn't say much, but I just wanted to say I've absolutely love your artwork. You're a great artist. I'm sorry for your loss and hope things get better for you.
faolan01
faolan01

faolan01

Watcher
#link
9 months ago
I know your in pain, I know your hurting, And I know that you feel that theirs no point to anything anymore. But as someone that Has almost shot themselves in attempt to end their life. STOP. I know that you feel everything is lost and you want hat feeling to end. trust me iv been there. But taking or even thinking about taking your life will no make anyhing better, nor will it make the pain go away. All that will do is transfer the pain to someone else. Im assuming you have family, friends that care about you? What will happen to them should you be succesful in taking your own life? That pain you feel, while you wouldnt feel at anymore, those close to you would. Im sorry for your friend, im sorry they couldnt take what was happening in their life anymore that it came to suicide. My experience haunts me everday, i wouldnt wish that on anyone. Please, seek help for the thoughts of suicide. dont let these feelings claim another innocent life. You need to be strong. I know I have no right to say these as I barely know you, but as a person that came seconds away from ending everything, Let me tell you that its the worst way to go out, and dosnt stop the pain. It just causes more. Dont make the same mistakes I did. Do something to help yourself, get help. talk to someone. remeber who hey were and what they would want from you. I know if I did pull that trigger that I wouldnt want someone I knew or loved to go down that road like I did. I would want them to live. *Hugs*
rocknroller
rocknroller

RocknRoller

Photographer
#link
9 months ago
I'm so very sorry that happened. Please take all the time you need to recover. And please don't harm yourself. You have people that love and care about you.

I once heard that a person doesn't die when their heart stops beating, a person dies when they're forgotten. As long as you remember her, she won't die.
susi
susi

Susi

Anthro Artist
#link
9 months ago
I know we've never talked directly before, Pan, but when I heard about what happened... All I can say is, I'm so very sorry for your loss. I can only barely imagine what you're going through, and that tiny sliver is overpowering. I'm deeply sorry.

I'm heartened by the outpouring of support that I see, and I'm sure that you have many more people whom you know better for this, but I just wanted to say that if for any reason you wanted to reach out to talk about anything you're dealing with, you may certainly reach out to me.

Again, I am really sorry for what you're having to go through.
arfur90
arfur90

Arfur90

Anthro Artist
#link
9 months ago
Rebecca will always be with you, and will always watch over you. She will forever live on in your mind, in your thoughts, and in your heart.
cryptoskunkie
cryptoskunkie

CryptoSkunkie

CryptoSkunkie
#link
9 months ago
I am very sorry for your loss, Pandora. Please don't be afraid to reach out for help.
chaoslux
chaoslux

Chaoslux

#link
9 months ago
I'm sorry for your loss. I know the story of these comics is generally written months/years in advance so it must be really painful. Im not really sure how to phrase this, so apologies in advance, but don't dwell on the void. Spend that time to cherish every moments you spent together. To some extent, comics like yours as a double-edged sword, it makes sense to discontinue it because people are missing, but at the same time, it makes sense to continue it so that they may live forever through you.

Stay safe.
shininichisan
shininichisan

shininichisan

#link
9 months ago
wow never been really a fan of this but i can sorry for what happen i know this pain really well and hope u already by now
fluffycutie
fluffycutie

FluffyCutie

#link
9 months ago
Poor thing, I hope you are alright.
thinkerspark
thinkerspark

ThinkerSpark

#link
9 months ago
I'm so sorry to hear that, I wish you well and hope you find your strength again.
*Spreading my arm's and offering a hug*
babyrory
babyrory

BabyRory

Watcher
#link
9 months ago
I am sorry for your lost,just stay strong .Please don't hurt yourself.
calebfox
calebfox

CalebFox

Your Friendly Neighborhood Schiz
#link
9 months ago
I just enabled my account to say a few things, as it was disabled and this stuff hits too close to home as I've had more suicide attempts than I can count and am currently on a mental health probate because of a recent attempt.

Suicide is tough, its even more tough when it actually happens and someone ends up dead. I'm so sorry that you lost someone close to you. I havent lost many friends to suicide but I have lost close loved ones to many different things. I guess my advice to you is to stay strong. I'm sure rebecca would have wanted you to remain strong. She certainly wouldnt have wanted you following in her footsteps, or self harming.

As someone who has been down that road and nearly died. There is a lot of regret that comes when you do make it. I'm sure your friend wasnt thinking clearly when she attempted, and it is tragic none the less. But I'm sure she was an amazing person who cared very much about you, and would hate to see you hurting so much. I hope one day you can move past this. But dont forget their memory. Anyways I'm sorry for your loss kid... and please stay safe.
dragonslapper33
dragonslapper33

dragonslapper33

#link
9 months ago
Good God I'm soooo sorry about this. Youthful Bliss was turning into a great story, and your art style is excellent. Perhaps you can dedicate it to your dear Mommy's memory. More so I hope things turn out better for you, and please don't hurt yourself.
alexanderfox56
alexanderfox56

alexanderfox56

#link
9 months ago
I don’t usually comment on your art and I can’t imagine what you must be feeling right now but I do know that every little bit helps when someone is in a dark place. Please remember that you really do help people, you helped me. I wish I could give you a fraction of the support you gave me just by being yourself online. Sometimes a smile and a hug makes all the difference, if there is anything i can do Just tell me.
alexartstudio
alexartstudio

Alexartstudio

#link
9 months ago
Don't kill yourself. Please. Sorry for your loss.
rhaged
rhaged

Rhaged

#link
9 months ago
Sorry for your loss
hydroftt
hydroftt

HydroFTT

MOVED to IB!
#link
9 months ago
I'm so terribly sorry to hear what happened, I hope you realize that hurting yourself will only make other people feel this same way. Stay strong, talk to people about it, the pain may never go away but you can get past it.
theworldfamousic
theworldfamousic

TheWorldFamousIC

Writer
#link
9 months ago
Damn, I Didn't hear anything but Now I Feel bad I wasn't Around, let me Know if ya need Anything....
dlover6
dlover6

dlover6

#link
9 months ago
As much as I want to see YB be continued, take as long as you need. Death is never easy to deal with, especially if it is the result of someone taking their own life. You might not know me, but I'm here to chat if you need to vent.
sammyrainbowcat
sammyrainbowcat

SammyRainbowCat

#link
9 months ago
For anyone else that sees this, as Pandora's other parentfur and Rebecca's partner I want to ask a few things of everyone

1. Please do not say anything about continuing it "for the fans" or "For the fandom" or anything like that. This isn't about that. This is about her, and her feelings, and what she feels comfortable doing

2. Please don't say anything like "It's what Rebecca would want/do it for her/etc" I understand, I get where it's coming from. You don't mean any harm, and you think it might be a good way to remember her. But pretty much everyone saying this didn't know Becca super well. Please don't try to speak for her. And having been so close to her, honestly and in my opinion, if she were around to say anything, she would support Pandora's decision.

Becca always ALWAYS put everyone else and their needs first and encouraged everyone to do what was ok for them and would help them. And I personally think she would support Pandy's decision to stop it in favor of herself and her mental wellbeing.

So please, don't make speculations about what Becca would want. She cared so so very deeply about Pandora, and wanted her to be happy. So that's what everyone needs to focus on. Is what needs to be done for her sake
thetimewalker
thetimewalker

TheTimeWalker

Writer and Storyteller
#link
9 months ago
Hooded Stranger: "Pandora, stay strong little one in honor of your mommy. Create a piece of art of her in memory of her!"👤👍✌
tommycatsworld
tommycatsworld

tommycatsworld

#link
9 months ago
My mom died 4 years ago so i know how you feel im sorry for your loss
rockbottom32
rockbottom32

RockBottom32

#link
9 months ago
Pandora, I'm so sorry for your loss. My thoughts are with you and Sam right now, as nobody should have to go through something like this.
corbanthewolf
corbanthewolf

CorbanTheWolf

#link
9 months ago
do you know why... I very sorry if this is super rude if I get bad replys I'll take it down but I kinda want to know why.
werewolfypup91
werewolfypup91

werewolfypup91

#link
9 months ago
I'm so sorry. You have everyone here and we all wish you well. Please be safe.
diaperedpenguin227
diaperedpenguin227

Diaperedpenguin227

#link
9 months ago
thats deep, I really feel bad for you, Take care then *hugs gently* trust me, I have a brother with depression and he's really worrying me, I mean I use to have depression, so I had therapy sessions which helped me, but my brother says it wasn't working for him, I just hope he doesn't kill himself, please god, watch over him, sorry for the rant
jamandbutter
jamandbutter

JamAndButter

👁️👄👁️
#link
9 months ago
May her rest in peace
jamandbutter
jamandbutter

JamAndButter

👁️👄👁️
#link
9 months ago
Gosh that's awful. That's the worst for abdl to experience. May her rest in peace. Try to sing a song to memory her.
steelriolu62702
steelriolu62702

steelriolu62702

Anthro Artist
#link
9 months ago
Listen you poor baby please do not call her self harm brave its something stupid a kind beautiful person did because they were ill mentally I'm very sorry for your loss but please don't ever think about killing yourself because all the pain you feel from this right now
,would be felt by your loved ones your fans and communities your in I love you your one of the reasons I got into this community and made me accept I'm lgbtq+ please go to friends or family even if you have a bad relationship with them no one wants you to die because they didn't talk to you.
geminipup
geminipup

GeminiPup

Digital Artist
#link
9 months ago
I just found this and I am so deeply sorry. I've followed Youthful Bliss and have loved every page and I love all of the characters involved but that's not what's important right now, focus on yourself and know you are so loved and do things in your own time as you are able. Please try your best to do whatever it takes to process through this, seek friends to talk to and/or therapy if possible. I'm sorry her pain was so deep that she's no longer physically here but she will always live on with and through you <3
mothersvartalfa
mothersvartalfa

MotherSvartalfa

Interdimensional Auntie
#link
9 months ago
I’m a bit late, it seems.
Kitten, I am so very, very sorry for your loss. I can easily imagine how much you hurt. The hollowness, the empty, aching gnawing inside you...these are things I know.
And, I know that there is absolutely nothing that I, or anyone, can say, to take away that hurt. No matter how badly I wish I might, I can’t make it better.
The point being, that you are, nonetheless, not alone in your pain, sweetheart.
The loss of a parent, most especially a Mother, is one of the two most primal, most crippling, agonies that we are able to experience. The loss of a friend, a guardian, a confidant...the loss of one’s anchor in an insane, heartless, uncaring world. Words can never properly express it. It is akin to the loss of one’s faith.
...in The Crow, we are told, once, that “‘Mother’ is the name of God in the heart of children.”
What could ever possibly hope to mend that sort of wound? I certainly don’t know.
The only thing that I can tell you, kitten, is that it is possible to, with time, and great courage, grow beyond this pain.
I will not lie to you, and say it will be easy, or inevitable.
It does no good to lie to children, I believe, for anyone’s sake.
But, I will tell you that it is possible. And, that you do not have to try and manage alone.
It is hard, Pandora. It truly is. Both there is a whole community of brilliant, caring souls here, ready to hold your hand, every single step of the way. To help you, kitten.
Including me.
You reach out to me, sweetheart, any time you need. Drop me an email if you need.
I’m not a ‘professional,’ or at least, not any more, but I am someone who understands what you are feeling, and who will never, ever reject your emotions, or identity. I’ll make myself available to you whenever I can.
And, if this level of response makes you feel anxious or uncomfortable, then you can feel free to ignore me, or set whatever boundaries you need to.
That said, I hope that, after reading this, you’ll let us know how you are. We do worry, kitten.
maxiiiim1273512735
maxiiiim1273512735

Maxiiiim1273512735

#link
9 months ago
"""I'M FROM RUSSIA SO MY ENGLISH CAN BE VERY BAD, SORRY ABOUT THAT"""
Pandora, you are the best artist that I have ever seen, your works are encredible!!!
Your comic showed me that I am not wron and I can be who I am.
I cant emagine what are you going through, I really want you to recover. Yuo are encrideble person! Befor I saw your account on this site I tought that there is no one in this world who cam understand me...

You can cancel YB... but If I will see the the continue of this story.... I think I will be the happiest man in the world.

I dont want to be egoist and I can't ask you for anything, just remember you inspired a thousands of persons like me, I can't do anything for you Besides this comment...

Pandora, don't allow this giant loss to kill you...

With the greatest love,
Max

to the best human in the world
thefallenpony
thefallenpony

TheFallenPony

#link
8 months ago
Damn. I'm so sorry to hear about your loss, Pandora. If I could give you a comforting hug IRL, I would.

I hope you'll be okay. Don't ever consider suicide. It's a permanent solution to a temporary problem.
I was suicidal in my teen years due to being abused my by mother.

Hey, if you need somebody to talk to, I'd be more than happy to oblige.
crazyredfox
crazyredfox

crazyredfox

Watcher
#link
6 months ago
dam sorry to hear this happened. i loved the comic and understand you not wanting to continue the comic at this point but i do hope that one day you'll be healed enough to finish it in her memory and/or for closure for yourself.
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