Some of my old friends and close friends have recently stopped all communication with me. None of them ever really announced it or gave any reason and there had not been any change in our interactions prior to this. Just a prolonged and unexpected silence. These 3 people mean a lot to me and ive shared a lot of my intimate life with. And as the time goes on I'm just left hand wringing and wondering why, and feeling more alone.

Lately i had a series of bad panic attacks that had sent me into a bad state for over 2 weeks. The longest one of these episodes has last. In fact it was similar to the first incident a year and a half ago that began my anxiety disorder problems.

I recently have come a bit out of that crash and am getting back to doing similar things that ive always done. But these latest developments plus also how shitty our country has become lately are not helping the issue. I also have been instructed to return to work, regardless of the fact that they are not doing social distancing at my job and some employees are extremely dismissive about following the mask requirement. So that is going to be a battle ill have to face soon.

But as of now im feeling mostly about the disappearance of my friends and wondering how i will fill the empty spaces in my life if they happened to never come back. I have a few other friends and i love them a lot for all they do for me, though a lot of that also comes with a distance on intimate subjects that i have my own unique tastes and desires for. And i appreciate i can sometimes share little bits of that with others, though typically they dont reciprocate it but patiently let me discuss it a bit. Losing people who do actually understand those things is isolating.

Finally ive also encountered a problem with my special exclusive accounts on Google a number of you have visited and I may have to close them... Turns out Google doesnt like having furry erotica on their accounts even if they can only be visited by people i give permission to as they are now blocking some of my art from being viewable by anyone. Maybe that explains why one of the artist i liked to follow, MaoOtter, suddenly deleted their private Google gallery.

Anyways. Ive been slow to complete a lot of my works lately due to these spaces ive been in. So im sorry about that. Eventually something will come. Im still though having trouble being comfortable about sharing some of my art just anywhere though and need to figure out what to do. I promise though..... a lot of that stuff is just not easily defined by any of the standard genres in furry erotica and just cant really be classified by selecting a term like 'paws', 'inflation', or 'diapers' from a drop down menu.