I honestly have no idea what the meaning is behind all this, but I'm just gonna say I love nightmare and horror.

Oh lmao

Basically the TL;DR is that I've gone on a several month long journey to figure out whether or not I'm going to actively write and upload fanfiction. And I've decided that the answer is yes. I do not know why that took me several months, but here we are.

That's understandable. I've been on a several month long journey myself, and the bottom line is do what you enjoy. If you enjoy writing fanfic, keep at it. If you don't, do something else. I can't honestly say I've read anything of yours, but you need to do you. I need to take that advice myself and do "me". I just don't k oe what me is yet LOL

Indeed. Really don't know why I let things wiggle into my head and develop into a several month long crisis of what-even-do. Could have just been doing the thing the whole time.

And yo, honestly? Sometimes it takes a while to figure that out. But your stuff has always been super interesting and fascinating, and I'm sure whatever "You" turns out to be will be equally as interesting.

Worst case, if you like something you write enough, change the trademarked stuff enough to make it legally distinct from the original, and you won't have any issues... 50 Shades of Grey was originally written as a Twilight Fanfic...

The problem with my work, personally, is that once those specific ideas stop being related to the media they're based off of the whole story and concept loses its charm. It's not as simple as, I want really weird and awkwardly unrelatable relationships but I don't like vampires.

note* Sorry to all the Twilight fans and I respect your love of the series but after reading the books just so see if I was "missing" something....... no..... no I'm not
Also, 50 Shades of Grey is not a truly healthy BDSM relationship and please don't just walk into a BDSM club lookin' for a Grey. As someone who used to be incredibly active in the scene, just.... don't. don't do that. Do some research first, go to some meet-ups. Learn your lists, pick a safe word. etc etc

That's understandable and I agree with everything you said beyond that, although I admittedly never even attempted to read any of these books and am going entirely on the movies and second hand information.

I've read most of the Twilight series (thought that might not be true anymore, I heard that another book came out some time ago I think?) and I got through half of 50 Shades the book before it made me so incredibly uncomfortable that I just couldn't read it anymore. I try to have an "I can't talk shit I know nothing about" mentality for things but honestly both Twilight and 50 Shades are bad enough that it's very evident from the start. XD

I'm glad you've come to a conclusion for now on that matter e.b.a.h! Doubly so that you'll get to continue to do those things that you enjoyed alongside your original works c:

I'm honestly kinda nervous now that several hours have passed, but honestly I don't really mind! There's one specific work that I just literally have not been able to fully put down and I'm just so eager to get back to work on it, and then post it here!

.... only issue is that it's not furry-related at all. Like, could I make it furry just for it to fit here on FA? Yes. Will I? ... No, not really. Because part of the whole point of the story is the racial dynamics between certain characters, and certain characters and the world around them. But I feel less and less worried about posting not furry related things on here. People post stuff like that all the time and, while some people do get big mad about it, most people seem relatively fine with it. So I'm trying not to let it bother me.

I get that, jitters always tend to bubble around for awhile after Decisions™ !! But I hope you get to return to that idea soon to try and pen it down!!
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As for non-furry related art, I say you do you and post it the way you want to write it.
If anyone comes in commenting rude or inconsiderate responses, just hide the comments and carry on!
I remember your journal awhile back about human-faced acceptance around here and as someone who maybe only draws anthro stuff once in awhile I have never run into ppl being rude about my human-faced or not-furry-even-in-the-slightest art! :) And even if people were, I'd just hide their comments or block as well, no use arguing with people that took time out of their day to be so bothered by my literally harmless posts that they tried to ruin my day too rather than click back and move on.

I definitely will! I just have to get back to using my program that allows me to look at actual in-game dialogue. Which, I suppose, is one of the bigger reasons as to why I was worried about being seen as trying to monetize it. But again, it is what it is, and if I do inevitably get in trouble for the work I'll just take it all down. No big deal.

And yeah. I've seen a lot more people who either like it or don't really care either way more than people who out-right hate it. I had been worried that there were more people out there like that one particular person, and while there are a few, I highly doubt I'll ever be interacting with those people in a meaningful way anyway. Besides, I should be posting my work for the people who Do enjoy it rather than hiding it because some people might not.