As you know I've been MIA for quite awhile after posting some of my art and there's a reason for that I'd like to get off my chest and I decided here would be a place where people might listen. My father has recently been dealing with serious health troubles due to him being a diabetic and nothing has gotten easier for him since he began to develop swelling in his foot. He had to get surgery in order to get rid of the swelling, but then the surgeons discovered his foot had been in pain and swelled due to an infection that stems from him being a diabetic which meant that he was required to take strong antibiotics as well as blood thinner in order to keep him stable.

I was taught how to give him the medicine and I had to administer it to him from the earliest time in the morning to the latest time at night for 11 straight weeks. I thought after that was over that things would've been somewhat normal but I had been so wrong. My dad has constant pains from the surgery and his foot often bleeds out without him even knowing, eventually I believe this being the cause to him having what seemed like a fever as well as dangerously low blood pressure. He's been in and out of hospitals and emergency rooms and almost always talks about how much he hates them despite them being the only option we have.

The doctors suggested that amputation might be an option that he'd want to consider but he says he just doesn't want to get cut on anymore. Whenever I talk to him there are times he'd recall when he used to run everyday and jog for excercise, but now something so simple as become almost impossible. My mom has been taking the brunt of it as she'd been constantly reminded of his current afflictions and possible new ones and her mind is just overwhelmed. Both my grandmother's have passed away in between these months and my mom said if the same happened to my dad then she couldn't take it.

I don't know who will be considerate enough to read this, but I just needed an outlet and I thought that I should probably use that in order to inform and relieve a little bit of the hardship I've had to endure for months.